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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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"Ever?" Ever thought you had put something in the past And that you had finally moved on Only to realize that it is here in your face And you were quite wrong Or ever thought that a part of your life Happened to someone else And you could just tuck memories away Neatly on a hidden shelf Ever wondered why some things never go away No matter how hard you try Some things linger, always to stay Things in this life really make me question why I know everything happens for a reason And that some things are and aren't mean to be Things are constantly changing, just like the passing of a season But why now...help me to understand and see Years went by No word from you Now all of a sudden it's possible That you just popped up out of the blue? I've never been more confused as I am right now I have so many questions in my head Why, who and how I often wondered where you were, or if you were dead A phone call early one morning You were calling just to say hi? Told me that you loved me Then simply said goodbye Years of work all crumbled with that phone call Try as I might, I can't completely let it go There are so many questions I have But do I really want to know? I don't think we'll ever meet But I do have one thing to say that's true I've never wished bad upon you And I do not hate you I do not love you either though I feel too much time has come and gone Maybe I am right in feeling this way And maybe I am wrong You may have been my mother by birth But when it comes to me...you have no clue Years have come and gone, the passing of time So quietly go away, that's what I want of you I am sorry if this hurts But I just wanted you to know I hold love, anger, and sadness when it comes to you Now that you know...please just go Amy M. Kennedy [This message has been edited by Aimster (edited 11-09-2000).] |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Amy~ this situation just breaks my heart for you....makes me want to protect you, even though I couldn't possibly.....I wish I had a magic fix for you. There isn't one. Stay strong and do what you feel is right not what anyone else tells you to do, or thinks you should do. It should come from your heart, you are the only one who will live with the choices you make. I'm sending you true hugs sweetie. I hope things work out soon for you.  -SEA ( I meant to say, I really liked this poem too) |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Aimster, Some times it just works out that way, strong words, good write. |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Amy sweetie, if I could I'd wave a magic wand and then everything that's bad would just disappear. Unfortunately life isn't like that, I wish it was. Like Circe, I agree that it's entirely your choice in what you do. Anyway you are the only one who can make that choice, because you are the one experiencing. I can't give you any special advice, I can't take away the years where you have been walking in pains lane, and hiding in confusions dark. This is a very trying time for you, your spirit will fight through I know. You are such a wonderful giving soul, and it's not, I believe, in your nature to hurt someone. Before you make any decisions I do suggest you talk to your special someone. This is one amazingly well written powerful poem. Full of your feelings, full of honesty. Take care love Mushy Marsha  Take back the hope you gave,- I claim Only a memory of the same Robert Browning |
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rascalx Senior Member
since 1999-08-25
Posts 590Florence, SC, USA |
Amy, I am trying to hold back the tears as I write this; your poem touched me so deeply. My father disappeared suddenly from my life over 17 years ago and I haven't heard a word from him since. I know too well the hurt and confusion that you so perfectly expressed in your poem. I've given up trying to understand the reasons and just go on with my life but it's difficult sometimes. I pray that you will continue to find the strength in your heart to deal with this pain; your words, while sad, also show your strong resolve. Beautifully done! If you ever need a shoulder to share the burden, drop me a line. - Jeff Osborne |
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Gemini Senior Member
since 1999-12-15
Posts 1203Wisconsin, USA |
Amy-I'm so sorry that life dealt this to you, it was a sad and powerful write, but it seems you've found the inner strength to carry on, and maybe that is the hope here. Hugs to you. |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
SEA-- thank you for your understanding and hugs. no there is no easy fix. sometimes in life we have to make really hard choices that aren't fair...and pray that we make the right one. i am so very confused right now...so i'm just doing a lot of thinking. thanks for your reply. S-- yes sometimes that is how it works... unfortunately. thanks for your praise. Mushy Marsha-- you made me cry with your response. You are but too sweet "love". I appreciate your words of wisdom. They ring so true as to how I feel too. I don't know what I am going to decide...only time will tell the answer to that. You have a heart of pure gold and I humbly thank you for your kind words and friendship. Jeff-- thank you SO much for sharing such a sad and hard part of your life. Seems we can surely relate to one another. It's been 18 years since I was given up for adoption...so I truly do know how you feel I'm sure in some ways. I just might take you up on the email thing sometime...you do the same if you like. Thanks for your beautiful response. Gemini-- It's been a long and hard fight but yes I too think I have the strength to make it through even this recent turn of events...thank you for your support. you have a good heart. Love & God Bless you all, ~Amy~ |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
I can relate to this one Amy and it's really hard when you're separated from such an important figure in your life.....there ends up being no bond there because they who should have been together have drifted apart. The only consolation that I can bring to you is the fact that I have been reading your works here at passions and really enjoying them... I can tell you have a beautiful loving heart and for that you should be ever thankful.....God bless you for being such a sweetheart.....take care ethome PS my dad left me when I was very young, did'nt remember him....went looking for him 20 yrs. later and found him...we never became close because that loving bond of trust was'nt there....over all that time he did'nt try and contact me once...so all I have now is the closure of knowing who he is.....have a nice day!! |
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Highlander Member
since 2000-11-06
Posts 50Dundee, Scotland |
I was moved by your expression and the verse I just read. It contained emotion and softness. Andrew |
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