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deconstructing memories |
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desperado Member
since 1999-05-24
Posts 312FT Hood,Tx 
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Trapped in an epic of eternity road Leased like a plot of land, soon to be sold Sky black inside the glowing city Wind whispering, yet ungodly cold No one can see the tears on my face The ones I’ve hidden throughout the years Slinking down as though speed would kill Bathing me in the harshest of fears I can’t remember just how or when I don’t dwell on the wherewithal Just try to make every single day One more day, soon I shall fall Pushing myself past the edge Hoping the ledge will break to throw me down Cast me among the filth as I should be I’ve played the fool too long in this town Sooner or later my heart will awake The pain in my heart will bloom and grow My eyes will fall upon your empty side The hole in this bed my head does know I lie in bed most nights thinking of you The smile on your face when I joined the room The way you fit in my arms at night felt so right And the ease I’d make you laugh to kill your gloom I can’t believe I walked away in ignorance and pride I can’t believe I closed my eyes to your pain I was a fool to think the things I did And now my failure is plain So many dreams have passed away So many failures made my life incomplete I lost you forever long ago Yet in my mind that day will always repeat Everywhere I go I see shadows of us The future the past and things in between Joys and heartaches, pleasure and pain Things forgotten and things never quite seen So many things I never noticed about your love Full complete and only for me Yet even with all that it’s still a surprise That so little of it did I truly see Now I’m looking at my past Deconstructing my memories and dreams Going through life in full reverse Pulling out life in reams Take it back to the day we met And let it play once more The laughter, the smiles, the incandescent winks As we stood there in our friends door The future at that time was so far away We lived the here and now There was so much to do we lost ourselves Somewhere, somewhat, somehow We saw each other every day Yet still the truth went on unsaid Until the day we tried to talk And ended up laughing instead Those silly things we always did Just to make us laugh and play The things we did to turn us on Like what we did way back in May We never knew the total cost Of just what we had done Until later on it hit us hard As we lost our only one I felt a failure in your eyes And walked away ashamed Now I know that wasn’t true And for my fault I’m blamed A child in the ground A heart too dead to heal A memory that won’t let go A court with no appeal So here I am in this world Trapped and alone at night A loser and failure all in one Never to set the past to right "There were times in my life when I was going insane tryin to walk through the pain when I lost my grip and I hit the floor yeah I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door" - Aerosmith "Amazing" |
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Elizabeth
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Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
 WOW Desperado...this was intense...so well done...I could feel your pain in this, raw and aching. Elizabeth You cling to your ways and leave mine to me. Suum cuique. ~Elizabeth |
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Ron K. Fox Senior Member
since 2000-10-24
Posts 925 |
very moving. has she seen this? it may be worth a try. |
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Saxoness
since 1999-07-18
Posts 1102Texas |
Wow. Quite a journey you just took us on. I've noticed in your poetry the words just tumble out like you can't type them fast enough. Makes for great and tangible emotion. Good job. |
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ggrn3 Member
since 2000-08-17
Posts 433Nahunta Georgia U.S. |
Desperado I can't say enough about this one. It seems that you poured your heart out in this write. Someone said in an earlier response to show her this one, and I agree. If you still love her, its worth a chance. Garfield |
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peppermint35 Senior Member
since 2000-05-28
Posts 1106Texas, USA |
Oh, I agree too desperado....if you have a way, please get it to her to read... this is so powerful and so obviously straight from your heart!!! Peppermint Life is a Wheel |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
I agree with the others Desperado,...show this one to her, your words drowned with your aches....your love, your sadness ....all your feelings are poured inhere. Charisma |
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