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Life (my most personal poem ever.)
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Life (my most personal poem ever.) |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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Amy's Note: Well folks this is definitely my most personal poem I've ever wrote. I hope you all enjoy the read. I trust each of you with my whole heart...so I'm not afraid to share this with all of you. "Life" Amy M Kennedy I remember the little girl of yesterday… The one who acted tough and wouldn’t let anyone near… The one who tried to pretend she didn’t laugh, smile, or feel pain and fear On the outside… I looked calm and strong wanted people to think I was brave and smart… But inside I was crying the pain nearly tore me apart… ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ The day came when we were taken away… I knew it was for the best… Was this God’s way of finding out my “real” strength…? To find out if I had what it took to pass the test… I knew that what was happening was the best for us all… So if I was suppose to be happy Why did it feel like my heart took the greatest fall? ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ The day had come to tell her goodbye, My mother of birth, and even though I was sad I held back my emotions, didn’t want her to see me cry… So as the social worker took us away, I took one more look at her face I looked at my surroundings, at my room, at the place that I had called “my space” I knew it was time to let go, to look at the future and not the past… My only wish was God I hope we get adopted really fast… ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ Then came along this couple, a woman and a man… Who asked to be our parents, I looked at my sisters it was a unanimous “yes you can!”… The lady who I would come to call Mom wasn’t like the one from before… I was about to be amazed at her love, didn’t know what God had in store… For ten years, she took care of me…. Showed me what unconditional love is about… She held me when I was scared, she was my angel on Earth…that there is no doubt! ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ Well, before I knew it, those ten years had flown on by… Never did I realize that once again I would have to say goodbye… But on that fateful day when she was took up above… I thought to myself you just had and lost the greatest love… My faith was quite shook; I didn’t know what to do… I was mad, hurt, sad, and confused… ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ But soon I realized it was time to grow up… little kid days were long gone… And one day while listening to the radio I heard “wind beneath my wings” That was OUR song And in that split second I knew it was time to snap out of this dream But when I thought of going on without her, I just wanted to scream! ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ The pain inside was hot and searing, felt like a knife went through my heart… How could life be so cruel to once again deal me such a sorrowful part? To give her to me only to snatch her back… I felt hopeless, cards were being built and stacked… But then one day while sitting on my bed… I felt a presence near my leg ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ I swear I heard her say my name Since that day I haven’t been the same She told me Amy it is going to be okay, that she was watching over me And even though I couldn’t see her, I somehow believe… ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ I believe that there really is an angel in heaven watching over me… Slowly but surely, the pain has begun to ease… It hasn’t vanished or gone away, I doubt it ever will… But knowing that she is with me, I have allowed my heart to trust again, to love and to feel I now embrace life with all that I have, living each day…keeping it “real”. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ [This message has been edited by Aimster (edited 10-23-2000).] |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Ah Amy...she will always be with you...does it help to know that "Wind beneath my Wings" is my daughter's song to me? This was a huge step, sharing all of this, and I am glad you found the courage and strength to do so with your "other" family... well done, and God Bless... Karilea If I whisper, will you listen?...KRJ |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Amy, how beautiful, and both your mothers would be, and I know are as proud of you as they can be. They are proud of your strength, proud that you have a loving heart, and proud that you are their daughter. This is a wonderful marvellous poem. Take care Marsha Take back the hope you gave,- I claim Only a memory of the same Robert Browning |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
~~~ Amy ~~~ Your Mother will always be with you, in your heart and mind. You were blessed with her love and it shaped your life, and now you are able to share that love with us......and I thank you for that, my friend....it feels so nice and warm!  Follow your dream! |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
Thank you for this beautiful story..heartfelt indeed..  ~Victoria~ A poem is never finished, only abandoned. - Paul Valery (1871-1945) |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Oh Amy, thanks so much allowing us to share in such a beautiful and emotional journey with you. This went straight to my heart and beyond. I too, know that “special presence” of loved one’s who have passed. I have experienced a great deal of the mystical side of life, and therefore never under-estimate the reality of what lies beyond. Take care Amy … many hugs to you for this heart-filled piece! Best wishes, /Kit |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Amy~ First, ((HUGS)) now, I really need some tissue....this made me bawl- not cry- bawl....thank you Amy, for sharing this with us.....I'm so glad you are healing. -SEA |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Amy-girl* You have the tears rolling down my face...this is such an open honest look into your life...and the part about your mom coming to you....I know without a doubt that she was there...she would never leave you Amy and especially when you needed her most...even in death she will always be there for you. This took my breath away...you have much to be proud of Amy!! |
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Elizabeth
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Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
Amy, your mom is still here with you, because nothing, not even death, can end the love people have for each other. I know she will always be there whenever you need her. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Elizabeth You cling to your ways and leave mine to me. Suum cuique. ~Elizabeth |
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BSC
Moderator
Member Elite
since 2000-02-04
Posts 2919New York, USA |
Oh Amy, What a beautiful piece of your heart you have shared here with us. And as sure as I'm sitting here, I'm sure she is always with you. What a wonderful tribute to your Mom, your guardian angel. Bonnie |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
this brought a tear up......Amy ((hug)), true love is always near....she is your lifeguard, and your angel. And there will always be things that will remain her...and keep her alive, the pain will ease....but to know how she loved you shall give you strength, and help enjoying life again. thank you for sharing this..... take care ....Charisma |
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glorybox Junior Member
since 2000-09-17
Posts 26 |
You gave us your heart and your soul; I speak from mine to yours: thank you for your honesty, thank you for your beautiful words, thank you for trusting us with your story. It was personal, but now it is shared. Amy Robinson |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
 < !signature--> That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl [This message has been edited by Sven (edited 10-23-2000).] |
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snowpants Member Elite
since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061KS |
Amy, this one brought tears to my eyes, too. How beautifully written!! You've done a great job here!! I love it, my friend! sp Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: 'it might have been.' -John Greenleaf Whittier |
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Dee Member Elite
since 2000-08-19
Posts 2330Queensland, Australia |
Amy, this must have been hard for you to write and post. ((hugs)) Knowing you are among friends would have helped. I always believe that the ones we love will never leave us. Your Mum will always be there, watching over you. Supporting you any way she can, when you need her most. Take care of yourself, Dee |
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StarGlow Junior Member
since 2000-10-23
Posts 40 |
Amy, please pass the tissues. big ((hugs)) and thank-you. Written so well. StarGlow |
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Tara Simms Senior Member
since 1999-08-12
Posts 1244Honea Path, SC USA |
Oh, Amy. Big hugs for you! My mother died when I was very young, I know the pain you speak of. Like you, I've always pictured my mother as an angel watching over me. It brings me peace and allows me to keep smiling, laughing, loving. Take me as I am or watch me as I go |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Amy, this poem and others like it is why poetry was created. Beautiful...  |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
If I adressed you all by name in this note not only would it be a novel...but I would be crying even harder than I currently am. So I will just humbly say I thank you from the very bottom of my heart for your kind words. You all have touched me in a way very few have or ever will. And now I gotta go get a tissue of my own. My Mom would be very proud of all of you I think and in her words as she would say "you ALL have hearts of gold and for that will be rewarded!" Love, Amy "The head learns knew things, but the heart forever more practices old experiences" |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Amy, This was beautiful my friend. Remember she is always with you . . . in your heart . . . never to part. I am so proud of you for posting this piece. It was an honor to read. Lone Wolf Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Lots of soft and beautiful words from your heart...thank God for angels...James |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Lonewolf-- it was an honor to write it for all of you. thank you for your sweet words. you make my heart smile. James-- awww you big sweetie! you have cheered up my whole day. thanks a mil. |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
ENJOY THE READ!!!!!LIKED IT!!!!!!! |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
Oh sweet Amy, you have touched us all with this. You are so deserving to find peace within and let the love settle in your heart til you are rejoined with her. You have spoken with your mouth now let the Lord heal you, wrap His arms around you as only He can. Bless you Amy. Marcy |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
Yes, cowboys shed tears as well. As my friend Balladeer said, this is why we have poetry. Beautiful and I too know that she is with you. |
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The Lonely Stranger Member
since 1999-06-18
Posts 361Upstate, NY, USA |
Remember dear Amy, When you first rode a bike Remember what fear of Unknown was like. Would soar like the wind And and conquer this ride Would you tumble to earth And helplessly cry But someone was holding The bike as they ran Until they were sure You were thinking "I can" Life is like this With the Father above One day he lets go And watches with love He knows you might wobble Perhaps even go down But know for yourself That he's always around Some days you will feel You can pedal no more Just trust that he loves you And you'll soon again soar. Take hold and pedal My troubled young friend Keep straight your path And trust till the end [This message has been edited by The Lonely Stranger (edited 10-24-2000).] |
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ParisGrl Senior Member
since 2000-06-01
Posts 610 |
Amy, God even your poetry makes me cry. LOL How am i supposed to live with you, if you make me cry all the time??? LOL Touching poem baby, i know she loves it as much as i do. but then again, i love all your poetry. Laura |
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Rosemary J. Gwaltney Senior Member
since 1999-08-26
Posts 997northern mountains, Idaho |
Tears. Tears. Tears. Strongly worded, powerful and poignant. Thank you for sharing. The spiritual wind that holds survivors aloft, plants the seeds from which bloom new hope ... R.J.G. |
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Jamie Member Elite
since 2000-06-26
Posts 3168Blue Heaven |
Wonderfully penned---must have been very hard for you... Jamie Tu ne cede malis, sed contra audentior ito. - Virgil. "Yield thou not to adversity, but press on the more bravely". |
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BirdeeB Member
since 2000-09-16
Posts 106USA |
wow this touched me so much, it brought tears to my eyes, In some ways i know what you went through. I admire your strenght.. BirdeeB |
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Ron K. Fox Senior Member
since 2000-10-24
Posts 925 |
I am new here, and want to thank you for sharing such a beautiful poem. It is heartwarming and powerful. You must be truly loved. Ron |
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Toddles Member
since 2000-07-24
Posts 396New Orleans, Louisiana |
Very touching Amy, I just wanted to tell you how much reading these words meant to me, Thank you for sharing it! |
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Rosebud1229 Senior Member
since 2000-04-05
Posts 1813North Carolina |
thank you so much Amy for sharing and I know there is an Angel watching over you |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
once again you guys have made my heart smile. how ya do it?? LOL. No seriously, all your heart-felt replies and comments have touched me very deeply. I sincerely thank all of you for your kindness, understanding, and love. ~amy~ p.s. stranger--thank you for that lovely poem...you touched my heart big time! |
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kaile
since 2000-02-06
Posts 5146singapore |
im sorry for this late reply but im glad that you have found it within you to share this piece and i certainly admire this courage of yours regards |
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