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Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

0 posted 2000-10-16 12:19 PM

hidden behind the pain

i know that i need to type out the words
because my head aches when i try to stop them
from coming forth
but my questions have no answers
so i stopped asking them
nevertheless my head aches
i feel the words scurry and try to slip
through the door when they
think me unaware
a thought here
a thought there
a reason not proven
an action uncontested
a question unanswered
to date, a solution impossible to pin down
and a poem to put it all together
that almost makes it to paper
before i crumple
the results and scrap the effort
the pain making it too hard to
follow through and so i lean towards action
with no forethought knowing
that it is folly on foot
but if my feet don't propel me forward and if
i don't reach out and unlatch
the gate then
who will?
this side is dark and full of rain
so what do i lose to actually step
through, the other side could only be
equally as dark
or not
but my head hurts with the
pecking when my fingers insist
on trying to think
to spite the pain...and now
now i must
close my eyes
for a moment
or more
i will continue, maybe tomorrow
will be a better day
this effort has been too draining and now my head hurts
too much to even blink and
certainly much too much
to think

[This message has been edited by Corazon (edited 10-16-2000).]

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

1 posted 2000-10-16 02:09 PM

If I thought it would help, I'd FedEx some aspirin to you... but I know Bayer doesn't have the answer to your hurt. *S* So I'll just send hugs and love... and cushions for your fingertips so they can keep typing. *S*

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

2 posted 2000-10-16 02:12 PM

This is amazing, and I'm ashamed to say I don't believe I've read any of your poetry!
I certainly will from now on I can reassure you of that!!

Kathleen

Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

3 posted 2000-10-16 02:16 PM

suthern...lol..ok, will be waiting for the cushions...an nope no meds...my stomach can barely take the prescribed ones and only cause i have to...i would give them up too, but the consequences are worse than taking them

hugs and love to you too

and Irish rose, don't feel bad, I think you have read me before, I name hop when I don't feel comfortable posting under a certain name...most people know its me right away from my style of writing, so I guess its only me that's pretending

...I think you have read me under the name jinxed

thank you so much for your comments

Wilfred Yeats
Member Elite

since 2000-08-04

Posts 2704
Wilmington, Delaware

4 posted 2000-10-17 01:24 AM

I know I've not read enough - but you do write very well -
I'm sure your purpose is benign but ...
I must comment on multiple names however - If I were in charge - no one would be allowed to be a multinamed poster. I left another forum because of truly vile insensitive anonymous posters who I could not further describe without using words that would turn to asterisks. Thus I felt more secure here knowing everyone must login. Now I'm learning multiple names are allowed - and it distresses me

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

5 posted 2000-10-17 01:41 AM

The picture you posted with this poem is beautiful...makes me think of a black panther.
"This side is dark and full of rain
so what do I lose to actually step through,
the other side could only be equally dark,
or not."
In my experience I believe it was fear that kept me from stepping thru or a desire to hold onto what little hope of love I still possessed....I finally stepped thru when I felt like I could stand no more pain...it was more than I could bear...James

Corazon
Senior Member

since 2000-02-02

Posts 1209

6 posted 2000-10-17 09:33 AM

Wilfred, I mailed you a bit more, but am sorry if my "names" have offended, I can't promise I won't have another, but I am trying to stick with Corazon and heal my heart from within, not using the crutch of a new name, thanks for your comments

jm, I can tell from your comments that you have suffered a great heartache in your life, am glad you are doing better, and thank you much for your touching comments

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