Open Poetry #7 |
Anorexia |
Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
*a friend of mine wrote this to me a few days ago, so I take no credit for it...I helped him with a few of the rhyming but he did most of it, it really touched my heart and made me think about what I have been doing to my friends and family* Every night you wake up famished, And you run straight to the pantry When you arrive, the hunger's vanished You're fat, and wonder why we can't see You're so think it makes me cry, girl I think you'd drop dead any day The problem is that the whole wide world Thinks your beautiful this way You say you only need to be healthy That it's just a dieting plan You always say we just don't get it But I say YOU don't understand So say your childhood is to blame So are guys, maybe they are But I'd rather take my aim At famous models and movie stars You say men are pigs and losers but you Lure him in with your great tan He'll follow you around to watch you Do you need that kind of man? Your sickness is for people like him The men will say you can't be fat Believe me, you're cute and slim And you deserve better than that No matter how good you always look You've got to push it one step farther The scale pulls you down like a hook And I wonder why I even bother It hurts your body, and you can see it With the fevers and their rising heat You wonder how you can relieve it Does it feel better when you don't eat? You're sick a lot now, in your bed And you're blind to all that's true By now the fat's just in your head But your body's caving in on you You're afraid of food, it makes me ill That this came out of 'just a diet' You yell at me, do what you will I watch, and just try to be quiet You won't let me say you're gorgeous You call me The King of Lies But every time that I deny this There's more hope in your dark eyes I wish that didn't leave my lips I should have said that I love you You think my love is for your hips And that they're all I think of you It's not that way at all, you know But I guess you can't accept it I'm mad but I don't let it show Now I have all time to regret it You're getting weaker, day by day You make me hide your greens and meat I sit at the bedside and watch you pay For all the times you didn't eat Late that night you left this world Your parents never told me how No matter what, you killed yourself girl And all I feel is guilty now At the funeral, the world Leaned over, looked into your coffin They said, "God, what a pretty girl," I wish that they'd told you more often. |
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netswan Senior Member
since 2000-03-28
Posts 1369Washington |
Ouch Anorexia the killer -- Ouch TV with those anorexic crazy people with ugly collar bones and ---long skinny necks, and plastic surgery -----to fix every nook and cranny. Oh, Blondie -----beauty is inside of people. Did you know when I was young I went for that dieting craze ------and did you know it screwed up my metabolism a lot. And, did you know when I got older --- and a bit rounder -----that I get asked to dance a lot. ---) We grow wiser -- and somewhere along life we have to learn to love and accept who and what we are --- Yes, take showers, fix your hair -- and all the things that we need to do. But we eat to stay healthy, and exercise ----- the body is an efficient machine -----when you starve yourself the metabolism slows down. LATER when you do eat, the body says" MY GOD I went hungry I better slow down my metabolism and save this food as fat for those starving times, and on and on the viscious cycle goes. SKINNY IS NOT PRETTY -- if boys have been fooled into believing these things. Stay healthy be vibrant smile with the freshness each day ------and eat. And you will see men loving you for you, not your looks, not your body ------ The essence of a person is in the heart and the beauty that surrounds them like an aura -- it is not a physical thing. Great poem and such a sad plight. I know several recovering anorexics. Some got down to 60 lbs as their bodies ate pieces of their muscles, and heart, and liver --------and some die --- bulemics die also -------- hugs from netswan |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
Netswan~ You havw truly touched my heart and I have to say something about your post made me sincerely cry. I want to know if maybe I could keep in touch with you, e-mail me please...thanks again |
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Kit McCallum
Administrator
Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
This poem is an eye-opener, and will touch many. Netswan gave wonderful comments, and so true. As stick-thin models parade about the catwalks and catalogues, society falls victim to "the thin look". I could only wish todays young girls could see the beauty that the old masters of art saw when they painted the lovely and full sized women of their times, for that is how woman are meant to be admired. I've known several anorexics and bulemics also ... and am thankful to say that with counselling, and good nutrition, they were able to look in the mirror eventually, and see themselves for the true beauties they really are. Best wishes for recovery ... /Kit |
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Denise
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
The mind is very powerful and potentially deceiving. Try as they may, your family and friends can not change the way you perceive yourself. That change can only come from within yourself. You have to be ready to see yourself as you truly are, as others see you. I have been on a 'diet' on and off since high school. I have probably screwed up my metabolism beyond belief. I have finally found an eating plan that is working for me. I will probably be at my ideal weight in about 5 or 6 months. It is a slow but sure process. I will probably never have the body that I want to have, but then I figure that the one I want is probably unrealistic to begin with. For once in my life I am able to enjoy the food that I eat without guilt. It is very liberating. Food is meant to be enjoyed, after all. I think it is meant to be one of the pleasures of life. Finally I have been able to see that. There is a mega industry out there that caters to our bad perceptions of ourselves and wants us to keep feeling bad about ourselves. That is there 'bread and butter', so to speak. If I have been able to finally rise above that trap, I know that you can. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie. Please feel free to e-mail me if you wish to talk. Denise |
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warmhrt Senior Member
since 1999-12-18
Posts 1563 |
Blondie, Oh my dear, I wish you only the best, and hang on to hope. It is there. You can beat this illness. Do you know that it is now believed that when you deplete too much of the body's fat reserves, a change occurs in your brain chemistry, just like in someone who is ... say ... depressed. Then your thoughts are altered, and you see yourself differently than others do. What first began as a control issue then becomes an issue of life and death...a serious perceptual disorder. You CAN beat it. No matter how many times you fall back, keep taking those forward steps, and believe in yourself. Fight off the irrational thinking, and concentrate on getting yourself to the point where your body begins to function normally. My heart goes out to you, and I pray that you use your inner strength (it is there) to recover. It sounds like you have a very good friend there, but all he can really do is support you emotionally. You have to do the work...and not give up. You will be in my thoughts, Kris the poet's pen...gives to airy nothing A local habitation and a name ~ Shakespeare |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
you guys are just so wonderful |
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Cutie Putootie Member
since 2000-01-20
Posts 54Ohio |
Blondie Eating is the key and I know I tell you this everytime I visit you but "Your body is the temple for the Holy Ghost," and you need to have it healthy. Go to a counselor, and talk with them, I know you hate them but it'll help hun...it really will. |
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