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My Lili of the Lamplight
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My Lili of the Lamplight |
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paraboxer Member
since 2002-11-10
Posts 121Maryland, USA |
(AN: This is to one very special woman who's been a good friend since last year. In a few days it will be a year since I fell in love with her. Again the song Lili Marlene inspired this bit of work.) My Lili of the Lamplight Never far from my heart or mind. One so lovely, caring and kind. My Lili of the lamp light. A source of inner warmth and light. I never realized I'd fall in love with you. But the feelings inside say, "It's true." Four months after we first met in class. A few months later, my heart shatters like glass. I still remember when we first met. You were on crutches, your face was wet. I went out of my way to help you out. Being a gentleman, without a doubt. So what if I was late to my next class. Professor, get over it, I still shall pass. I've made such a wonderful new friend. I could not forsee what came around the bend. December last year I fell in love. I thanked God for you, for an angel above. For my Lili of the lamplight. Loving you at the time felt so right. I wished not to risk hurting a friend. To see you cry, my heart it would rend. Content to cultivate a close friendship. I didn't forsee my current hardship. It was in this month of September. I now distinctly, distinctly remember. We were studying together Tuesday night. I felt that inner warmth, seeing the light. I walked back to my dorm, happy as a lark. That I'd fallen for such a wonderful woman, hark. It was you, my Lili Marlene. Whom I love, despite the angst and pain. That I endured since Thursday of that week. Months old is the anguish of which I speak. 'Get over it. Deal with it. Suck it up.' 'Quit moping about like a scolded pup.' My room mates did say. 'To hell with you!' I replied, 'I'm hurting deeply, true!' What could have shattered my heart like glass? What could possibly have come to pass? We were studying again, that Thursday night. When began my grim and ghastly plight. You asked me if I'd met so-and-so your boyfriend. And that night my dreams of love came to an end. I walked back to my room with heavy heart. Inside I was starting to quiver and fall apart. I've only wanted you to feel happiness and love. That I implored from the great Lord above. I hoped that change would find you in my arms. But apparently not for me are your charms. I've gone numb from within and without. Once full of vigor, I now move numbly about. 'Get over it man.' they said after we had a fight. Hey roommates, I just lost my inner light. My Lili of the lamplight. Why does loving you feel so right? Even in the angst and pain. You'll always be my Lili Marlene. Your memory and friendship my greatest treasure. In a desert of pain, little oasis of pleasure. |
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cusick Senior Member
since 2003-07-27
Posts 668 |
Lily is rather like her namesake in the song. Waiting neath the lamplight. Not many of us go through life without a broken heart. A very good read. Maggie |
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jaicie114 Senior Member
since 2003-09-27
Posts 750On the edge of forever |
Ah, Carl... You do such an excellent job of writing your feelings. Just know that your true light will find you. Thank you for this beautiful verse. Love and Light...jc This I know as Truth...we are all Beings of Light. |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) God Bless You, sweet friend, again I'm so sorry of the bittersweet pain you're feeling and I wish for the best to come to you through the turmoil and know that she will always be your special friend no matter what happens! (sigh) This is heartfelt, sweet friend, I send many angel hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Carl, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "You'll find something that's enough to keep you |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
With a lump in my throat I kind of choked up, but I loved the way this just flowed throughout the whole write. Sad to read, but I just floated through it with ease to read. Thanks for sharing your heart.  Love, Terri~  |
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midnightblues Senior Member
since 2000-07-01
Posts 1597Singapore |
Dear Carl, its always good to share your thoughts, even if its painful... and all of us here hurt for you too... its kinda bittersweet coz in the end, you get new friends. smile  Love Michelle If there cannot be equal in affection, then let the one with more be me - midnightblues |
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