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paraboxer Member
since 2002-11-10
Posts 121Maryland, USA |
(AN: This one is again towards a special young woman, a good friend who holds my heart in the palm of her hand. I've actually tried my hand at fiction, a story called Travels in Passions in Prose deals with this theme, somewhat. A nice contrast is my poem Dreamscape.) A Little Each Day Lord knows, I should be happy for you. You're happy, loved, and feel special too. But the part that hurts me is it's from another. Pray for strength from God and the Blessed Mother. My faith in love dies a little each day. For I've loved but not had it returned my way. I've suffered painfully for many weeks. Emotionally I've sprung many leaks. My room mates stopped giving my sympathy long ago. They say, "Suck it up man, just get over it yo." Friendship with you sustains me a little each day. Despite the feelings I've chosen not to say. I can't bear to see you hurt in any way. If I must suffer for your happiness, I'll pay. If I told you I fear you'll withdraw from me. I don't understand why anyone would want to flee. "There are plenty of other fish in the sea." Yeah, but not one has come to me. My faith in love dies a little each day. Especially with him, you'll spend time away. Over Christmas holiday, you'll spend time together. Leaving me wonder when will I ever? Find a love that will erase the angst and pain. For me, angst is all that does remain. A few nights ago came a horrible nightmare. Left me robbed of sleep, room mate didn't care. He was annoyed that I was awake before the dawn. Listening to music on my headset, is that wrong? The nightmare that deprived me of two hours rest. Words I can come up with fail to describe it best. It took place during our upcoming spring term. A small gold band and diamond, a promise firm. Worn upon your finger, soon you'd be a new bride. Waking in a cold sweat, this dream did provide. I managed to convince myself it wasn't real. But real was the pain and fear I did feel. I said I want you to be happy, I haven't lied. Even if the nightmare's true, you'll be a bride. I scream my silent, anguished cries into the skies. Little by little my faith in love dies. Most nights my dreamlife hurts after I wake. I'll dream of you in my arms, to find it was fake. I'll sit on my bed, staring blankly at the wall. Forsaken, my roommates don't understand at all. They say that this is getting me too much. They've never felt a great hurt as such. Loving but never having love returned. Always being the man that is spurned. If you love him, go to his heart all the way. As my faith in love dies a little each day. [This message has been edited by paraboxer (11-24-2003 07:44 PM).] |
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Sparticus Member
since 2003-11-15
Posts 245 |
Very well done and intense. Sparticus |
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jaicie114 Senior Member
since 2003-09-27
Posts 750On the edge of forever |
Paraboxer... Thank you for truly writing your pain and frustration in such an incredibly beautiful form...but, please do not give up on love. It truly can happen for everyone...and, at a moemnt's notice. Especially when you least expect it. Promise!  Love and Light...jc This I know as Truth...we are all Beings of Light. |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) Oh Carl, I feel for you ever so much and though this may go nowhere, I have faith that you will find a very devoted and loving woman who has the spirit of Lil Marlene! (sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, let the faith grow a little each day, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Carl, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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cusick Senior Member
since 2003-07-27
Posts 668 |
Don't blind yourself to others or your true love could pass you by. Straight to the heart poem. Loved it. Maggie |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
this hurts... |
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midnightblues Senior Member
since 2000-07-01
Posts 1597Singapore |
ouch! can feel the bleeding... Love Michelle If there cannot be equal in affection, then let the one with more be me - midnightblues |
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pictureme Member
since 2003-11-28
Posts 248Ohio, USA |
a painful read with deep emotion! pictureme :-) |
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aussie teen Member
since 2003-09-27
Posts 396Australia |
nice poem..... feelings felt right down to the depths of my soul. dont give up on love..... it can come round the next corner at any second... good luck with it.. may love shine down on you now.. always and forever..... Mel... |
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Wesley the Blue Member
since 1999-09-02
Posts 426Forest Lake, MN, USA |
Wow, this is good. Your pain is evident in your words. Hang in there. KWM Life is a path, not a destination. We travel along it one way or another. Always going somewhere but never ariving. Walking the path is always bett [This message has been edited by Wesley the Blue (12-10-2003 02:16 PM).] |
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