These emotions got me down
I cant smile only frown
words cant make me less of a man
But I just want someone to understand

I do what I do if only for you
These harsh words of reality are tried and true
It started only wanting part of your dream
Now im not even sure what that means

You all need to realize and see
How hard your actions and words hit me
Like the blade of a sword
Each day tightens the cord...

Around my neck
But what did I expect
Like the stump surrounded by the trees
My aspirations were only a fantasy...

With a hint of fact
I made a pact
"I promise to appear oh so glad
when it truly hurts oh so bad"

A tear from my face shows im on the brink
Lost upon all
It filters what you drink

Did you ever see that one thought
The memory of many great folk
Only to share long enough it gets caught
the memory, it has you choked

Its the moment when you're at home
When your heart calls your eyes via the phone
But youre not allowed to handle the touch
So once again it hurts so much

Leaving you inside so empty and hollow
For there are always rules to follow

For in life there are many bumps and crashes
And as much as I love autumn, Im giving myself to Ashes