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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia 
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~I wrote this poem about my mother just today..To cut a long long story short she committed suicide when I was 8 years old..I remember waiting home for her and the feelings of whenever the phone rang or there was a knock at the door...I know she is no longer with me in body but she certainly is in spirit..I hope you like this poem..It was very hard to write~ Standing in the sun, Its shining bright, Feeling fear, Somethings not right. Daddy tells me it wont be long, But I know in my heart Somethings terribly wrong. We all walk inside and not say a word, Even the sounds outside now arent being heard. I know daddy wants to cry, but he cant, Because we will ask why. Then out of the blue, A knock at the door, It was then I knew, And the feeling hit home more. The police say mummy cant be found, And out of my mouth, i cant make a sound. They say they are going to look high and low, But I already knew what they didnt know. I wanted to scream and shout, And in the end, All I did was cry and pout. Later that week, The police came again, My life became bleak, And I knew then. Mummy was gone forever, her body found, We were no longer together, We were no longer bound. But even today, I love her so, I knew she couldnt stay, She had to go. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Very very sad. I can't even imagine the heartache and pain involved to one so young and impressionable. Thanks for being so brave and sharing these deep feelings. I feel it is so important to get them out. Take care..... your poet friend...ethome. |
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Kyle aka Huck Member
since 2000-07-16
Posts 63Linn, MO USA |
wow thats so sad, my parents are divorcing and my best friend died a couple weeks ago so i can relate to the death and pain it brings this is a remarkable poem i like it its very well played out, im so sorry about your mother |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~ethome...no need to thank me for sharing..thats what friends do....share thoughts, bad or good. Im just glad I get to share it with such talented people sucj as your self...Thankyou very much for the reply~ ~Kyle aka huck.....I am so sorry to hear of your loss..My heart goes out to you..Remember what seems a very sad and difficult time can help us learn and appreciate things more...I hope today brings you a smile (or at least a grin..)Please take care~ Thanks again to the both of you for your beautiful replies..You dont know how much it means to me |
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Jacques Lee New Member
since 2000-07-16
Posts 9 |
Beth, I personally can't fathom what you may have felt. However, you placed me there with you in the manner inwhich you expressed your feelings of such a great loss. Your courage to speak out was very well done. Great job! |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
Beth, my friend, I won't say I know what you feel, as one has to live through this to truly know. But I do know that by sharing this with your friends here, the burden of grief will be lessened. My heart goes out to you, and my admiration, also, for the beautiful way you put your feelings into words....... Live for today and enjoy the moment..... |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Jacques lee....Courage to write this wasnt easy to come by..until now I havent been able to write well about my loss and have understanding but now i have full understanding and I am only happy that i get to share it with such wise people..thanks for your reply~ ~Sunny1....A friend you are indeed...I am always elated to read your replies as they always bring me a smile no matter whether they have been sad or happy...thankyou so very much~ [This message has been edited by Beth (edited 07-17-2000).] |
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Impassionata Junior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 26Alberta,Canada |
Beth....what courage you have to be able to express this sad time in your life....although I have never experienced this type of loss I can relate to your pain through different losses I have had....Thank you for sharing. |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Impassionata....thankyou for reading....I am so glad that you like this poem..It means alot to me and I hold it very dear..~ Blessed Be, Beth |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Beth~ Glad you felt you could share with friends here. This could not have been easy for you to write ... you did a remarkable job of it. Just want to give you a *HUG*. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Beth~ What courage you have hon to write about this and share it...couldn't have been easy for you *HUG* poetry is always good for the soul and I think to be able to express your thoughts and feelings in such a way is a blessing. Love to you Tracie~ Love is the life of the soul... It is the harmony of the universe |
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Asma M. Ahmad Junior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 19 |
Beth...I don't know what to say.... I feel for you.I won't say I know how you feel because i know that's not possible. But my prayers are with you. I hope writing this poem,as difficult as it may have been,helped release your pain. Best wishes Asmoon "..Infinite passion and the pain of finite hearts that yearn." Robert Browning |
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Asma M. Ahmad Junior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 19 |
Beth...I don't know what to say.... I feel for you.I won't say I know how you feel because i know that's not possible. But my prayers are with you. I hope writing this poem,as difficult as it may have been,helped release your pain. Best wishes Asmoon "..Infinite passion and the pain of finite hearts that yearn." Robert Browning |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
Beth- a real big hug for you dear. I know that this must have been hard for you to write and you did it with deep emotion. I thank you for your courage to lay this at the feet of your friends here and it was penned wonderfully. |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Ah, you guys are so great...You have helped me so much..I now feel at complete ease in posting my poetry in..~ ~Marge..Your reply means alot to me..Im glad I could share this with you~ ~Tracie...Poetry is the best medicine..I feel so much better about my mothers death after writting this poem...It has lifted the weight that seemed to hold me back ~ ~Asma M Ahmad...Salam...I thank you for your kind words..Yes this has released the pain ~ ~Mark..Your replies are always a blessing..Im happy that you enjoyed this and replied to it too...Thanks alot~ |
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poutprincess Senior Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 735Perth, Western Australia, Australia |
you are a fabulous human being, Beth. And i know all your family and how much love you have for them. I know your mother loved you very much..and you did a beautiful thing by telling her and the world how much you love her too. you cant have love without courage nor courage without love....and i think you have made it clear to all of us that your heart is full of both! Blessed Be Ree |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Pout....Your friendship has always been a true blessing..I treasure each moment that we have together..You truly are my soul mate...I hope that never changes...You always hold a place with me no matter what happens in the future..Thankyou being so truthfull and honest with me...~ Blessed Be, Beth |
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poutprincess Senior Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 735Perth, Western Australia, Australia |
Beth...just wanted to let you know that i emailed this poem to michelle and she wanted me to tell you how much it moved her. She said it was beautiful and that it has offered her more insight into who you are as a person.... from Michelle C/O poutprincess |
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UFgirl05 Junior Member
since 2000-07-17
Posts 10Winter Haven, FL, USA |
that was very touching i'm sorry about your mother. your poem flowed wonderfully |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
This piece touches my heart Beth...such saddness for a small child to live through, yes I'm sure you mother is with you now in every step that you take...**Angel Wing Hugs** |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Pout..please tell Michelle that I appreciate the reply ...and I hope now she can understand now why i am so bitter at times..Im sure she has had to deal with a pain in her life and I only hope now she and I can having more understanding off each other..thanks pout~ |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Thankyou for the sweet replies...Im glad you both liked it~ Blessed Be, Beth |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA |
you touched my heart with this one Beth, being new here and having only responded to a few so far, these words of yours make it hard to say what one feels...for a child to lose a parent at such a young age and in such a way...you have survived and your words show the love that your mother instilled and shared with you during her time here on earth..she is watching over you and smiling at the spirit you have shown in your life. ~~soft hugs Maureen |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Maureen, Thankyou so much for your reply..I am so happy that everyone has liked this poem..I hope you are enjoying Passions...Its the best on the web..~ Blessed Be, beth |
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notlikely2 Member
since 2000-06-16
Posts 308UK |
Beth this must have been so hard to write. I hope that doing so and sharing your feelings has helped a little. I can't say any more. John |
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Beth Member
since 2000-07-06
Posts 468WA, Australia |
~Thanks alot for your reply John...Beleive it or not writting this poem has helped me more than what 14 years of pain has...I now can move on and let go of the pain and just have the memories..Thanks again for your reply~ |
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