Teen Poetry #3 |
What I'm Gonna Do To You... |
StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
I laugh at your perception You think you are happy I laugh at your ignorance You aren't happy Do not be fooled by the glorification of a fool's paradise Only a fool would be amused You shredded my heart and made me bleed the clear burning drops that streamed my face, are of my own fault I thought you were the person I loved and trusted What a joke, and I learned it the hard way! There are so many things I would like to do to you... I would take your heart and break you in half Like you did to me, when I was nine I would lie to you, and promise you the world And make you believe I cared Then I would rip your heart out of your chest And drag it through the mud, then stomp on it for my own pleasure and amusement I would sentence you to live the rest of your life alone Your biggest fear would become a reality I would kick you when you were down I would make you feel worthless And just when you couldn't take any more... I'D DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN! just because that's what you deserve; "dad" ~*~As you can see this one is dedicated to my dear old dad, who has made my life a living hell. This poem may be mean, and disparaging, but this is what he did to me, all that and more. feel free to rip it apart~*~ < !signature--> If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-11-2000).] |
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Erin Member Elite
since 2000-06-15
Posts 2527~Chicago~ |
Jessica~~~Girl Im so so sorry that he is still doing this to you...My heart goes out to you...Sounds just like my mom...You know that I am here for you if you ever need a thing...Just someone to talk to...But remember he will get what he deserves... ~*Each day is a treasure box from God, just waiting to be opened*~ |
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Jenn Cirrincione
since 2000-07-02
Posts 2107Fl |
Yikes... That sounds tough. I'm sorry about your dad. You write very well, and I hope you can in time get beyond this pain. Best of Luck... Jenn |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
Well what else can I say besides Thanks a million Erin!! Don't know what I'd do with out ya!! You always make mr laugh at myself. haha anyways, you're a sweetheart and I can't thank you enough for bein there for me!! Love ya bunches!! < !signature-->Love Always ~*~Jess Girl~*~ If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-11-2000).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
Jen~you must have slipped in there when I was writing! sorry about that anyways, thanks for the kind words! I'm glad you like my work. This one came blurting out when I heard a song that reminded me of him! Thanks for the reply, it means much to me!! < !signature-->Love Always ~*~Jessica~*~ If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-11-2000).] |
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curlygurly Member
since 2000-09-12
Posts 276USA |
that was a really good poem. it had a lot of meaning and expressed a lot of emotion. excellent poem! p.s. thanks for ur reply on the poem i wrote under isabel's name, i'm the friend who wrote i stood there. thanks |
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Pixie-Babe03 Member
since 2000-08-29
Posts 387Central Maine |
Star*~ i am so sorry for what happened to you this is a great poem and it obviously has a lot of feeling in it, i hope it made you feel a little better getting it out. ~*Pixie*~ |
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*ChrisLover* Junior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 46erie, colo |
~Jess~ hey chicken.. i am soo sorry i havent been returning your calls i am not doing to well.. i am orry your dad i doing this again!!! i dotn know what to say my family i kinda falling apart too..... so i dunnno what to do anymore... and you know you can always talkt ot me!! no matter what!! ok.. i love ya girl!! love nett.. p.s. call me soon and ill try to call you back if i can,.... k?? and if not then i guees that i am not in the mood to talk to anyone... hehehehe.. ok byue bye Everything happens for a reason.. sometimes it's bad, but sometime it's good!! just remeber there's people out here who care! |
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Jacman Member
since 2000-06-27
Posts 291Dwight Il, US |
I hate it when you think you are making headway in a situation and something floods out your mind and emotions and outpoors things like this. Wait a minuite, that makes great poetry which is something I love. I'm all screwed up. Anyway, I know how all of this feels. And I wouldn't wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy. Only the person that captured my love and adoration as a child. This is so sad, and I am so sorry that you have to deal with this, but you are not alone. Luv Ya! jason Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disapear... -Metallica- |
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TAP2 Member
since 2000-06-29
Posts 211Morris, Il USA |
Jessica, My heart goes out to you. I cannot say that I know how you feel, I could not imagine it. Being a father myself, I do not understand how someone could do that to a part of himself. I can promise you that I will strive every day to be the father to my little girl that she needs so that she will never have to feel the pain and resentment you do. I'm sorry your father is such a complete @$$ that he cannot see the havoc he has brought into your life. We are all here for you, even though we can't be what's missing. We can be a solace and shelter for your heart. Thomas A. Plemmons Let not a word go unspoken, A thought go unheard, Let not one heart be broken Dream of a perfect world. -Th.A.P. |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
Thank you all so much for taking the time to read my...ummm...outrage. < !signature-->CurlyGurly~Thanks so much for the kind words hun!! I'm glad you liked. oh, and BTW you're welcome for the comment! You are truly talented girl! Keep it up! Pixie-Babe~ I wish I did!! But it only makes me revisit the pain that I thought I had left behind. Guess I was wrong!...Thanks for the reply!! Netto~hey hunnie!! Nice to hear from ya!! I would be able to talk to you about my feelings (and this prolly wouldn't have come flying out) but you are impossible to get a hold of!!!! you know I'm just givin ya a hard time hun!! I love ya bunches! I'm sorry about your family!! You know the number if you need!! Jason~my dear, you are beginning to sound like me, you better hold on to that last little bit of sanity like no tomorrow!! hehe j/k babe! oh, and don't be sorry! It's not your fault. I can only say thank you for caring soo much!! You're an absolute sweetheart! Luv Ya Bunches!! Thomas~well thank you for the concern! It means a lot to me. The only thing I can say to you is take care of your baby girl!! She needs you, don't lose her.I am so glad to hear that you understand and don't ever want to do anything similar to your little girl! It's the worst thing any one could ever do to a child. It almost cost me my life... And Thomas, thank you for caring! It really does mean a lot. It sort of puts my faith back into society (if that makes sense, given the fact that we don't know eachother, but we still care...ya know?!?) Once Again, Thank You All So Very Much!! Love Always ~*~Jessica~*~ If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-13-2000).] |
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Jeremy Halstead Senior Member
since 2000-06-01
Posts 569Morris, Ill. U.S.A |
Jess...yer way to kind of a person for all of this to be happening to you still...all I can say is that your father will reap what he sows one way or another...I promise. When we have our baby...we can be perfect parents. Jeremy "Time is the matter, and in a matter of that all wounds will heal and all scars shall fade." |
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Jacman Member
since 2000-06-27
Posts 291Dwight Il, US |
Jess, I'm going to have to talk to Jeremy later. I think he's trying to break us up. jason Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disapear... -Metallica- |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
My dearest two... < !signature-->Jeremy~you make me laugh, I can't say that you and I will have kids, I think Chris would be a little disappointed, him and I are going to have a little boy and a little girl...haha we'll see about that one!ROTFLMAO anyways, thanks for caring, and I do know that I am going to learn from my parent's mistakes to be a wonderful parent!! Luv ya bunches thanks for reading! Jason~oh dear!! whatever shall we do?!?! you can kick Jeremy's ass ok?!?! hehe no worries, you're still of my favorites!! Love you both much and more! Thanks for the concern and the time. If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-14-2000).] |
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Kandi Member
since 2000-06-14
Posts 354North of Hell |
Hey Jessica, long time heh??? Oh sweetie! I never knew you were going through something like this! **BIG HUG** I'm so sorry for the way your dad makes you feel. And it's totally okay that this poem is angry and dark cuz that's the way you feel...you've always put your feelings into your work so expressly. I've always admired that And I also want to thank you for posting this. It really opened my eyes and made me think about how good I have it so I shouldn't take it for granted. So thanks for that. Best wishes to you hun - if ya ever want to talk, feel free to IM me You'll be in my thoughts! Much love always, ~K~ PS - JEREMY AND JASON, YOU GUYS BETTER TREAT HER RIGHT! I'M NOT KIDDING! lol ~*Things you see the way you see them will never be seen again*~ ~*When does something that you thought was so right slap you in the face and becom |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
Kandi!!! < !signature-->where have you been girl?!?! I missed ya!! Hope you're back for good! I haven't seen any new posts...are you still writing? I hope so. oh and don't be sorry for me or my dad. I don't need anyone to be sorry, because I'm not sorry. And as for him, he doesn't deserve the sympathy. LoL geeez girl it's been forever!! You better e-mail me ok? but other than that, I must go get in the shower, my Homecoming dance is tomorrow night and I need shoes...haha. Talk to you later babe! Love Always ~*~Jessica~*~ If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-15-2000).] |
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Acies
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-07
Posts 7665Twilight Zone |
This is the reason why I've been avoiding netpoets for a while now....There are way too many great qriters in hear that express a lot of emotions on their poems...exactly like this one. Right now, I can't even control my own emotions.....I'll be back when i get better. I'll always love your poems Jessica --- they've always been my favorites As i wake up in the morning I ask myself, "Is life worth living or should I blast myself" TUPAC SHAKUR |
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Acies
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-07
Posts 7665Twilight Zone |
This is the reason why I've been avoiding netpoets for a while now....There are way too many great writers in hear that express a lot of emotions on their poems...exactly like this one. Right now, I can't even control my own emotions.....I'll be back when i get better. I'll always love your poems Jessica --- they've always been my favorites As i wake up in the morning I ask myself, "Is life worth living or should I blast myself" TUPAC SHAKUR |
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Acies
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-07
Posts 7665Twilight Zone |
This is the reason why I've been avoiding netpoets for a while now....There are way too many great writers in hear that express a lot of emotions on their poems...exactly like this one. Right now, I can't even control my own emotions.....I'll be back when i get better. I'll always love your poems Jessica --- they've always been my favorites As i wake up in the morning I ask myself, "Is life worth living or should I blast myself" TUPAC SHAKUR |
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DancinQueen
since 2000-07-29
Posts 1092Kokomo,IN,USA |
Hey I know exactly how you feel. MY dad and I dont have a good relationship, i wouldn't call it a relationship at all. I always get all these pitty parties from him and i was so sick of it..but when he sued my mom I lost control of my emotions and i told him everything ive always wanted to say to him and i feel so much better now. except he sends me lil quotes everyday and it gets on my nerves...but its nice to know im not the only one w/ a krappy dad. my heart goes out to you!! Keep smilin! ~!*DQ*!~ "One fine day you'll look at me and know that love was meant to be" ~Carol King |
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CrazyPrincessAngelDevil Junior Member
since 2000-09-16
Posts 36Fitchburg, Ma, Usa |
All guys are like that well some. Peace out ~*~Fairy Princess~*~ img src="http://netpoets.net/img/ic15.gif" When YOU leave someone in love, friendship, death ect.. You leave footsteeps in their hearts |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
well thanks to you all for repyling!!! I feel all special now! < !signature-->Acire~I'm sorry to hear you're not gonna be around for a while...but I do understand. I hope to see you everynow and then though!! Thanks for the oh too sweet words about my work!! It means a lot. DQ~I'm sorry your dad is the same! It sucks, but I've moved on and I can get on with my life without him! All he did was hold me back from my dreams anyways, so I guess I'm doing better than before, alothough it sometimes doesn't seem like it. Keep your head up girl!! CPAD~thanks for replying...Welcome to Passions. I do hope you'll enjoy it here. If aLl My FrIeNdS JuMpEd OfF a BrIdGe, I WoUlDn'T JuMp WiTH ThEm BeCaUsE I'd Be At ThE bOtToM tO CaTcH ThEm. [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 09-17-2000).] |
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