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Heart Full of Tears |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio 
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hey yall well i am back. depressed again but back. i hope this one is alowed. its been awhile since i wrote this dark. right now i am totaly lost. as you can tell by this poem. well give it a read and tell me what yall think. i hope ya like it. Heart Full of Tears pain inside me wont go away its hard for me to live for another day lonleyness eats at me tearing my soul apart tears falling forever inside my broken heart i cant get your memory out of my brain thoughts of what we had together are driving me insane what did i do to you? why did you hurt me so why did you marry another i guess i will never know i gave you everything i had my heart and soul are yours i even gave you an engagment ring who could ask for more? but no you turned me down and married someone you barly even knew yet you still say that i am the man of your dreamz and that i will always know more about you when i asked you to be my fiancee you said that you were scared and needed time so i gave you all that you needed i said that would be just fine but then on our 6 month anniversery when you were suppose to be up here you found your new husband to be and you were with him holding him near you told me that night that he didnt mean anything to you that it was a one time thing and it was me that you loved true you said you were sorry i could hear you heavly crying did you really mean it?? or where you just lying you broke my heart into a million pieces that night but i said it would be ok cuz i thought that you still loved me and i knew we could get past this day but as the days went on you wernt acting the same we always used to meet online at midnight but after that day you barly came you said that you were working late and like a fool i was to blind to see that you were falling in love with him and falling out of love with me then you said that we should end this that you couldnt do this no more i spent that whole night crying and shaking on the floor i wish i could forget you and just let go but no matter what i will always love you and why i will never know i dont know what it is that makes me feel like i do you could shatter my heart again and i would still unconditionaly love you i cant take this no more why cant i just move on why cant i find another and break this magic bond i want you back badly hun i want to turn back time where i was still in your arms and i could still call you mine all i want is that special someone that can make me forget about the past someone that i can call my own is that to much to ask?? please somebody help me my heart can be all yours can you make this broken angel fly again or will you just slam the door so i will end this poem with a single tear i grab my guitar and hold it near so i sit back alone play me a song, and cry take a shot of my friend jim beam and stare into the stary skies i hope that someone reads this but all i can do is pray that someone out there can take my pain away... Jesse C. Jaymz Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Jesse, *hugs* I am reading this, there that is a start. I know your pain how I wish you could move on too. You deserve so much more than this. Until you find that special someone know that I am here, loving you as only a big sister can. You aren't alone babe, there are people who care very much what happens to you. *smile for Isis now* Love you Isis *I believe every time you put your words to paper, you change. Each feeling is set free, and you may follow.....* ~Isis~~Sovereign of the Spirit. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
"And like a fool I was too blind to see that you were falling in love with him and falling out of love with me." Jesse you really know how to write down your feelings...these words are sad and a tragic. Always sad when one values the relationship more than the other...one is sure to get hurt..and you did...but I know that this time will pass and you will find another...take care of your heart...James |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
sis: *hugs her tight* thank you hun. i am really down right now as this poem shows. all i have done is cry all day. i am down as hell and i hate it. but atleast i have a loving sister in my life to watch out for me. *hugs* love you sis. James: you know as a kid and all threw high school i was told that i had a problom writing my feeling. well look at me now  yes i was hurt badly and still am hurting. i just want to find someone is all. and all the ones i do find that could take my heart are already taken.  i just dont know what to do. thanks for the reply.Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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CourtneyNdremeda Junior Member
since 2000-11-13
Posts 15 |
*hugs* you have such a skill with...making your poetry flow..the rythm is just THERE... you mentioned that u have a guitar...do you ever turn these poems into 'lyrics' and write melodys for them on the guitar? The words are beautiful, and although they alone already cut into my soul, music would also complement them beautifully. love, Ipek |
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firecrakker Member
since 2000-10-20
Posts 235Virginia |
I almost feel like a voyeur reading this.. I wish the person who this was written for could see this..and realize how games can hurt people. Good write.Sheila |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
You dont have a problem now writing your feelngs jesse..you are the best ...God must have someone special waiting for you just around the corner...and you will sing that song..thank God for unanswered prayers..HUGS ~Victoria~ A poem is never finished, only abandoned. - Paul Valery (1871-1945) |
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dragonpoe Senior Member
since 2000-11-12
Posts 608Palm Bay, Florida |
What woman would throw your heart away??? I hope she realizes what she lost. From what I am learning through your poetry, yours is a heart rare, kind and devoted. This was a heart-wrenching piece, I could hear you strumming that guitar, singing out your pain. [This message has been edited by dragonpoe (edited 11-15-2000).] |
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kitkat Senior Member
since 2000-01-11
Posts 878Nova Scotia |
awww Jesse,you have a way of letting your pain flow through your words..There is someone out there for you and I hope you meet her soon. Take care my friend. {{hugs}} |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
CourtneyNdremeda: thank you so much *hugs* yes i have wrote songs and that before. in fact my guitar is right next to the comp. and you saying my words cut into your soul made me blush badly. thank you so much. *hugs*firecrakker: *hugs* thank you hun. i wish she could see that too. mabey you could show her?? she is from virginia like you. hey feel free to e-mail me if you like. i would love to talk southern with someone agian. hope to hear from you.Victoria: hehehehe no i dont have that problom anymore. you know when i started writing poems in high school my english teacher thought i was alittle wierd. if he could see me now. and yeah i hope that someone can take away my pain. i really need that. some one to wrap my arms around and snuggle all night. thank you dragonpoe: thanks for saying that about my heart. i just wish everyone else could see that. all they see is my hair and that and judge me. this poetry that i write is the real me. but no one gets close enought to me to see that i hope that i can find someone.. thanks again Kitkat: *huggles* thank you for saying i write well. i just wish at times i didnt have pain to express. and i hope that that dream girl is around the corner. *look around his door* damn not there yet. thanks hun *hugs*Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Allysa 
since 1999-11-09
Posts 1952In an upside-down garden |
Dude, I can feel your pain. I really relate to this poem. My boyfriend and I broke up because he needed time, and what I really need right now is him, because I miss my friend Jesica who was murdered and I really need him, but everytime we start to talk, he has to go do something, and it's just madness. Anyways *hugz*, and I hope you feel better, and some day your dream girl will find you and you will find her and ya all will live hapily ever after. I can't see at all. Even if I could it would all be gray, put your picture on my wall, it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad. |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
Allysa: *hugs* thank you for you reply. and i am sorry to hear about your friend. i also had a friend murdered. and i know the pain it can cause. *hugs* i hope that i can find my dreamz again. i thought it was her and i still do but alasi guess i was wrong. =[ or mabey i am write who knows. i am just so lost right now. thank you hun love ya jesse Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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ThyWizard Member
since 2000-08-06
Posts 56Chambersburg, PA, USA |
Wow. ~sob~ i really wish i could comment as well as some others...but i was crying be4 i even finished...so i missed a bit of it...really well written and so sincere, but heart wrenching...excellent piece. I just wanted to add that it's been my experience(which is limited due to my age), that there's usually a pot or 2 of gold at the end of the rainbow...but nobody ever told us that finding the end of the rainbow was gonna be easy keep your head up and stay strong  )" If who i am is what i have and what i have is lost, then who am I? " - unknown Thy Wizard |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
thywizard: thank you sooooo much for you reply. it means alot to me that people like my work. and i like yours to. so i knew you would relate to this. =) glad you liked it =) and thank you agian. peace, love and rock and roll jesse Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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