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darkstar
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since 2000-08-09
Posts 230
Port Richey, Fl, USA

0 posted 2000-10-20 03:03 PM


can't deal

I can't deal anymore
tried so hard again and again
my heart is still sore
need to still hold on
it's getting harder
getting closer to the edge
can't deal with this much longer
doing things I don't want to do
things everyone says I shouldn't do
I try so hard, if only they knew
but they don't know
it's not easy
I am my worst foe
trying very hard
trying so very hard
can't deal
breakdown
too numb to feel
pain comes quickly and sharply
to kick me while I'm down
everyone looks at me darkly
make it all go away!
cry so hard I fall to the floor
I just want it to be ok
see the blood dripping away from me
don't remember what I did
have to check and see
no! I did it again
I cannot stop myself
some help they should send
but no they won't
they can't
my parents said don't
so lonely all the time
lacking love
a person who cares is what I need to find
cannot deal with it all anymore
need some help
to find an open door...


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catalinamoon
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543
The Shores of Alone
1 posted 2000-10-20 03:17 PM


Oh, there is so much pain here. I truly hope things are not as bad as this for you. But maybe writing it out will help. It is the only comfort I can find right now. I know the feeling, like it's all just too much, and how do you deal with it anymore. I feel it every day. But you know what, we will deal, cause we have to.
Peace.
Sandra

Kethry
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082
Victoria Australia
2 posted 2000-10-20 03:59 PM


Darkstar,
Sounds really bad if it's real, if it's poetry it feels real.

Be well
Keth


Growth demands a temporary surrender of security.
Gail Sheehy

taramw
Senior Member
since 2000-06-08
Posts 738

3 posted 2000-10-20 04:19 PM


darkstar I hope all is okay... such feeling you have wrote here.  Pain can seem too much sometimes... take care. ~ Tara ~  

"A poem should not mean, but be" - Archibald MacLeish

firecrakker
Member
since 2000-10-20
Posts 235
Virginia
4 posted 2000-10-21 09:34 PM


darkstar,
I agree with the others..I hope this pain is not real...If by chance, it is, I can feel it through this poem, and hope with all that's in me that your open door is close ahead. Hang in there..

Crakker

Life is a journey.. not a destination.. - unknown

darkstar
Member
since 2000-08-09
Posts 230
Port Richey, Fl, USA
5 posted 2000-10-21 09:46 PM


Sadly to say, it is real...although one's perception of reality can vary from another's, it is very real...it was based on something that happened a few days ago...thank you for replying...I'll try to hang in there for as long as I can...

Dark Star

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