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Forever Scarred II |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio 
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hi again yall < !signature-->well this one is very personal. it is a sequel to a poem i wrote a few years back and is still in the archives if yall wanna look. i just found out that the only one i ever truly loved was asked to marry by the guy that she cheated on me with. i am very very down right now and could use some feedback. i guess i am meant to ba alone forever. *cries* Forever Scarred II You pulled me from the darkness You showed me the light You gave me all of your love When there was no love in site You are the girl of my dreams The one I would always fantisize You could make my little heart melt Just by looking into my eyes I was hypnotized by your lovlyness I fell in love with the beauty of your heart You gave me something to live for I never thought we'd be apart But that all changed one night When you said that that we should break up You said you found someone else I guess once again I stuffed up What did I do to you? Why do you have to go? Dont you love me anymore? I guess I'll never know I gave my self to you mind body and soul I gave you my virginity and secrets I never told I wanted to marry you And call you mine forever But when I told you this you ran away And now I lost you forever Your other boyfriends beat you, cheated on you, But you stood by there side All I did was give you my heart And you cheated on me and made me cry I should have stayed in the shadows I shouldnt have let my heart roam free Cuz I knew it would only end up in heartache But my heart was to blinded with love to see I still love you with all my soul wanda I wish that I could be back in your heart But all I am is a broken angel A truly lost soul from the very start Goodluck in love hunny I hope all your dreamz come true Lord knows I lost all of my dreams The night that I lost you I am with you always hunny And I will be to the end of time Your night angel will be watching over you So you will be just fine When you feel the sun All warm against your face Thats just me hugging you From our special place When you feel the winds blow Thats just me again Blowing you a gentle kiss To say I'll love you till the end And when the cold rains fall Thats me crying and breaking down Knowing that I lost the best thing I ever had My heart just comes tumbling down So I will return to the darkness And to the shadows once again With another black scar on my broken heart I will never be the same again So i will end this poem now As I badly start to cry I guess i will be alone forever And only god knows why.. Jesse C. Jaymz Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. [This message has been edited by Isis (edited 08-10-2000).] |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Oh Jesse, such a tender and sad monument to your love. I am glad to see you back, but sorry it is for such bad news. This poem is beautiful, and I wish Wanda could give you that chance to love her again. Take care, and always write, and keep loving, because you are not destined to be alone |
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allan Senior Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 620On the road |
Really touching Jesse, you put your whole heart and soul into this one. With so much of both qualities you wont be alone for long... good luck.  |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Jesse my little bro, such sad news hon, I'm sorry for you,even sorrier for Wanda for I know what she is missing out on!! Your turn will come, have faith and patience. Hon, you have also put me in a difficult position by putting asterisks instead of the swear word in, as a moderator I have to correct this, I thought you knew not to do that? So I'm changing it slightly it won't detract from the poem ok? Please we all should know, no swearing or asterisks instead of swearing ok? *Our deeds travel with us from afar, and what we have been makes us what we are..* Isis ~ Sovereign of the Spirit |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
thanks yall. i am in a very depressed mood. VERY. i cant seem to see the light at all. and i am sorry my wonderful sis for using foul langunge. it was just an emotion that had to be said. it wont happen in the future hun *hugs* love you all. Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA |
When you feel the sun All warm against your face Thats just me hugging you From our special place When you feel the winds blow Thats just me again Blowing you a gentle kiss To say I'll love you till the end And when the cold rains fall Thats me crying and breaking down Knowing that I lost the best thing I ever had this was very touching, JJ ~~soft hugs Maureen |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
MMoonchild. thanks for your comments. that line you quoted i told her so many times. i guess i wasnt good enough. *cries* thanks hun for your comments. Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Dark_kisses_Within Senior Member
since 2000-03-21
Posts 680Kansas |
Well Jesse ... its nice to see ya back, yet sad under the circumstances. I know how ya feel about not thinking you are meant to be loved. But what ya dont understand is that YOU ARE LOVED! I know the pain is great right now, and I am so sorry for that. But stand tall, dry your tears and think about YOU for once. Dear Friend, I have lived a horrible life, but the one thing I learned was...... you must love yourself first of all. Look deep inside yourself and point out all the good things you have to offer yourself. I know its difficult but YOU CAN DO IT! If ya need to email me..... please do... maggie@gvi.net ! DkW P.S. We all have a soul mate.... she just wasnt yours. Which means..... she is STILL out there hon! Once there was a darkness Deep and endless night You gave me everything you had Ahhhhhh you gave me light |
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qtpieelmo Senior Member
since 2000-07-04
Posts 989Sesame Street :) hee hee ,NY |
wow great poem & i know exactly how u feel i wish someone loved me that much you have a lot of love so never forget to use it it will get better it always does Love Elmo <3 *hugs N kisses* |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
dkw. thank you so much for your comments. and as soon as i get my home comp fixed i will email you. i would love to become better friends with you. you helped in a time of need on icq. and i would do anything to return the favor. as for my soul mate, i already have found one. and that is our seet isis. she truely is my kindred spirit and my twin. and i love her with all my heart. but alas i doubt that i will ever have a lovers soulmate. for i still think wanda was it. i know at times it might not sound like it but i truly beleave she is. and thats why i am so down. and to elmo. *hugs and kisses back* your a very sweet person. someone will love you like this. just give it time. <3 if you ever need someone to talk to just e-mail me. tahnks again yall for all of your comments. keep them coming =) this broken angel might not ever get its wings back but with yalls caring and loving i might just fly again. Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Click Member
since 2000-06-11
Posts 202USA |
Ouch!! Dude...Life does hand us some things that are VERY hard to bear. Good poem!! Thanx!! Click |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Good poem, hard sentiment to bear Be well Kethry "It is the image in the mind that links us to lost treasures; but it is the loss that shapes the image, gathers the flowers weaves the garland."- |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
thanks guys. yeah this is very hard for me to take. all i do is cry anymore. i havent slept in going on 4 days cuz when i do i dream of her and cry. i cant take this. i have lost 10 pounds in 3 days. i am a total wreak. thanks yall for your comments Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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Nikolette Sadness
since 2000-07-29
Posts 337port richey fl. |
*bugs hugs an kisses for jesse* i'll be here for you yours, Nik i was once in love and happy...but you can call me Sadness. |
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boji stone Member
since 2000-08-13
Posts 62USA |
this was very heart felt, I hope by writing you were able to release some of the pain,...keep writing! *S* boji stone |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Hey Jesse I've got a friend that I hang out with named Jesse and my name is James so when they see us coming they say here comes Jesse James.... I think you really spilled your heart out on this one...excellent writing. I wanted to tell you that I grieved for three years for a past love and I wouldn't let go of her...and she wanted me to...yet I still held on emotionally..it was very hard on me...a very sad, lonely, emotional period of time for me. So if there is any possible way you can let go of this beautiful relationship that was in the past...sorrowfly and gently, and of course when you are ready...your heart will find comfort...you will make it..everything will be alright. Lots of new opportunities will be waiting for you...I can see that you have much love to share....all your hopes and dreams and desires are still alive inside you...the only thing missing is the moment in time when you find the right woman. Look around they are all around you...so much beauty, and personality, and sensuality...hope for the best for you...James |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
Nikolette thank you for your response. i am glad i met you. you are a very sweet person *hugs and kisses* boji writing does help me abit. mainlyy i just cry and cry. life is to much to bare james i wish i could let go. but i am to attached. its not just her. its her son and everything. see she lives in virginia. and all my life since i wanted to live in the south. i am a huge civil war buff. and it was a dream come true. plus with her i got to travel. and i loved her so much. and i still do. her son still misses me to and wants me back. thats why i am taking this so hard. it was more then her love. it was my dreamz. but i guess my dreams dont mean anything. she even told me that she wanted to have my child. i havent slept since wednesday night. i cant take it. it is all to much for me. =( Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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kitkat Senior Member
since 2000-01-11
Posts 878Nova Scotia |
Oh Jesse{{{hugs for you}}}. I know the pain you feel. But remember what I told you my friend. You will find happiness again. Believe in yourself. I do. -------------- You got to get up every morning with a smile on your face and show the world all the love in your heart Then people are gonna treat you better You're gonna find, yes you will That your beautiful as you feel.~~~ Carol King |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
kitkat. *hugs* thanks hun. not many people belave in this broken angel no more. no one loves me. i am serous. if this continues i dont know how much i can take. it is all happeneing to quick. my life is in a downward spiral. *sigh* thanks hun. hope tot alk to you on icq sometime Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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ThUnDeRkYsS Senior Member
since 1999-09-23
Posts 727Wisconsin |
Jesse, this is very touching and heartfelt. Hit home to me in so many ways, unfortunately. It's too bad that people seem to just not understand sometimes and let go of the things that they truly love because they are so blind. I know this feeling all too well and it sucks. Hang in there and be strong, the pain does subside if you believe in the possibilities. Strive for higher levels, if they seem out of reach... Grow, and they will get closer. |
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Jesse Jaymz Senior Member
since 2000-01-24
Posts 708Youngstown, ohio |
letting go of true love only cuz they are blind. that really hit home with me. i just wish there was a way to get to see hoe much i love her. i worship her like the goddess she is. looks like alll i will ever be able to do is stare at her pic and cry. thanks my friend. Once upon a time there was a light in my life, now theres only love in the dark, There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. |
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