~But I'm Not Bitter~ ...

How did we get to this place,
and why does it seem so damn easy for you.
I've spent a lifetime now on this sad highway ...
the journey leaves me weary, still not knowing where these roads lead to.

Seems like we been doing this dance forever,
our own little twisted game of musical chairs.
I'm not sure I know the words to the songs anymore ...
even worse, I'm not sure if I still care.

What do you see when you look at me...
why were you always the last one to know --
the last one to cry, or speak an apology,
but God, you were always the first one to go.

You knew I'd give you anything...
still you always led me into to the fire.
Then halfway thru, leaving me in the flame...
Why is it always about you...your needs ... your desire.

Does the deceit make it all more of a thrill for you,
it must...considering all the lies you've spoken.
Then you complete your gift of misery --
tying it up with a bow, made from all the promises you've broken.

What is it that you truly want from me ...
other than a lap dance or two.
I'm tired of being your carnival ride,
I'm tired of being just something for you to do.

To this point I've always been faithful,
can we same the same of you.
For a long time now, you cant look me in the eye,
it's okay, you don't have to answer ... I already knew.

As far as my heart goes ...
you cant own it, buy it, or break it.
You've simply took your self out of it ...
and I'm no longer in the mood, or mind to fake it.

jm

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~Broken & Tired~

So you say I'm your anchor...
the weight that holds you down.
You walk around always angry,
seemly unaware I'm about to drown.

You resent and deny me,
you say I keep you from your dreams.
Yet I'm the one who picks up the pieces...
the fallout from the failure of your schemes.

Never realizing or recognizing,
Never giving credit due.
Everything is about your plans...
Everything is about you.

Well, I'm tired now-
I'm broken, I just don't care...
I have dreams too.
You never ask, its just not fair.

So call me your anchor...
Your ball and chain.
I don't hear you anymore-
I'm deaf from the pain.

Janet Marie

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~Whatever You Say~
Martina McBride

You think I'm always makin'
Something out of nothin'
you're sayin' everything's okay
You've always got an answer
Before I ask the question
Whatever you say

Now we can change the subject
Pretend I never brought it up
Same old story anyway
Later we can work it out
Right now you're talked out
Yeah, whatever you say

Oh I know you can hear me
But i'm not sure you're listening
I hear what you're sayin'
But there's somthing missin'
Whether I go whether I stay
Right now depends on
Whatever you say

You say yes you need me
And no you wouldn't leave me
And that should be enough to make me stay
And even though I want to
I don't hear I love you
In whatever you say

Oh I know you can hear me
But i'm not sure you're listening
I hear what you're sayin'
But there's somthing missin'
Whether I go whether I stay
Right now depends on
Whatever you say

Oh whether I go whether I stay
Right now depends on
Whatever you say
Whatever you say
Whatever you say
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Dear Poets.....I am still having major computer problems...
please forgive my lack of replies to all your work...
and know I am trying...
either way I am reading your words of poetic grace
I crave so
I hope to be back on track soon...
thank you for all your love and replies to my work...
take care
love ya all
jm