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Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

0 posted 2000-02-17 05:52 PM

Well it looks as though my newly found biological Dad may have cancer in his spine. All the tests aren't back yet, but it doesn't look good. As some of you know I only found him in December 99 and I'm upset and mad as hell at the cruel fates.....

Another cruel blow by the fates,
Another stab at my pathetic existance,
It feels as though it's a personal attack on me,
Despite my efforts of resistance.

I only just found my Dad,
My precious, sweet Robbie,
I imagined I'd have a lifetime with him,
But the cruel fates decided to rob me.

I am so much like him,
It's him I took after,
Two peas from the same pod,
He fills my life with laughter.

There is still so much to learn,
So much for him and I to share,
For with him I finally found my identity,
He is the reason I care.

It's not fair,
Why me, why again?
Whenever I find happiness,
Something, somehow always brings it to an end.

Our time may now be limited,
ANd I can tell you it will never be enough,
I cannot forgive the fates this time,
Their dealings to me are always too rough.

Don't take my Daddy,
Don't take him from me,
For I've only just found him,
If I lose him, I'll lose too much of me.

May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

ill_tactics
Member

since 2000-02-11

Posts 149

1 posted 2000-02-17 06:37 PM

Isis, this was a beautiful poem full of anger and love. Anger at fate and love for your father. Another wonderful poem by a wonderful person. Hope things go well. Much love, One love, PEACE

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

2 posted 2000-02-17 07:37 PM

Thanks ill tactics. I love him dearly and I pray I won't lose him so soon after just finding him.

May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

Janet Marie
Member Laureate

since 2000-01-22

Posts 18554

3 posted 2000-02-17 08:06 PM

Isis,
Im so very sorry for you and your dad...I didnt know about how you just recently found him...we are always told everything happens for a reason...but so often the reasons are too hard to understand or accept...
this poem is a touching tribute to your love for him...please know...
you both are in my thoughts and prayers...
take care, janet marie

Some things cannot be explained by verses that rhyme,
They are not measured by the commitment of time.
Some emotions run too deep to be described by words,
Forgiveness and understanding remain
the most beautiful words ever heard.

Janet Marie

[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 02-17-2000).]

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

4 posted 2000-02-17 08:08 PM

Thanks so much Janet Marie. I love him dearly and hope and pray he beats it.

May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

Marilyn
Member Elite

since 1999-09-26

Posts 2621
Ontario, Canada

5 posted 2000-02-17 08:39 PM

My prayers are with you and your Father, my sister. I hope all goes well with whatever treatment they perscribe him. whatever happens with this I am here for you girl. You need me just yell and I will be here for you. ((Hug)) Life often deals blows we know not how to handle. Let us help you deal with this one.

Love you sister mine.

Marilyn

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

6 posted 2000-02-17 08:57 PM

Thanks Maz my sis. I love you too, I'll yell or cry if I need you. It is all overwhelming and scary for me. I feel like a five year old who's losing her daddy.
Thanks so much, you wishes and prayers mean the world to me. (((HUGS)))

May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

hoot_owl_rn
Member Patricius

since 1999-07-05

Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA

7 posted 2000-02-18 03:01 AM

Oh Isis hun.....this makes me very sad. You and he will both be in my thoughts and prayers

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

8 posted 2000-02-18 06:11 AM

I am in agreement with you Isis, I also pray that you will not lose your dad so soon, and I can only hope for the best. Take care, hon. James

Jesse Jaymz
Senior Member

since 2000-01-24

Posts 708
Youngstown, ohio

9 posted 2000-02-18 12:09 PM

oh isis
*big big big big hugs* i feel so badly for you. losing a close loved one could posobly be the worst pain of all. i have lost a few in my time and i know how your feeling inside. i am here for you and so is the rest of the passions family. so if you ever need to talk just e-mail me. i'll be there for you just you said you would for me. just remember that song you sent me. *hugs* please take care hon. i know its rough but it will all wok out in the end. oh yeah i also loved that poem. i have felt like that lots of times including with what i am going threw now. great great work.

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel is just a frieght train coming your way...
MetallicA

devinmaria
Member

since 2000-02-14

Posts 130
Middletown, Ohio

10 posted 2000-02-18 01:44 PM

i know its hard to look at it this way, but at least you found him and you had the time you have had together thus far. i do not know my father either, so i can imagine what you are going through. ill keep you and your family in my prayers. i wish you so much luck and your father as well. and most of all i wish you happiness no matter when and how it comes. and if its any comfort, i find your existance afr from pathetic, for your words have touched me so deeply.

sincerely,
aimee

Trust I seek and I find in you. Everyday for us something new. Open mind for a different view, and nothing else matters. --Metallica

Balladeer

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-05

Posts 25505
Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA

11 posted 2000-02-18 04:35 PM

I can certainly understand your anger, Lisa. Sometimes it does indeed seem that fate goes after us personally. They say tht God never gives us more than we can handle. I believe that to be true. Chin up, my friend.

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-02

Posts 8296
Purgatorial Incarceration

12 posted 2000-02-19 03:02 PM

Arrgh... that isn't fair! My best wishes to you Lisa, take care and be sure to enjoy your time with him!

-*Hope the dream.
---*Wish the future.
------*Live the now.

Mistikman
Senior Member

since 2000-01-10

Posts 682
San Jose, CA, USA

13 posted 2000-02-19 03:36 PM

Thats so sad Isis

I hope that the cancer isnt as bad as it might be, and that it is treatable. Great poem Isis, despite the horrible circumstances.

Isis
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-06

Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland

14 posted 2000-02-20 05:21 AM

Thanks everyone for your kindness, fingers crossed that it is minor and treatable. Thanks for the offer of prayers too, I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. (HUGS) thanks everyone

May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)

Grumpy
Junior Member

since 1999-11-07

Posts 11

15 posted 2000-02-20 07:37 PM

My prayers are with you Isis, sad news.

Grumpy
Poet and Critic :(

RobertB
Senior Member

since 1999-09-26

Posts 1104
Champaign, IL

16 posted 2000-02-20 07:43 PM

You know.....I watched the whole mini-series "Centenial" many times....the most moving part was where Hermann Bochweiss was bemoaning the fact that his son-in-law Pasquinel had stayed on the plains with an Indian wife. McKeag, a longtime friend and partner of Pasquinel asked Dr Bochweiss... "What if had never come at all?" He had enriched so many lives just by his coming that in his absence they were all richer.

Isis....what if you had never found him at all??

Please do not blame "fate". Be thankful for small miracles.....no matter how brief.

Robert

Marge Tindal

Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

17 posted 2000-02-20 07:48 PM

Sweetie~
I pray God holds Robbie in the
palm of his hands.
I pray for your sorrow and for
his recovery.
Bless you.
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
noles1@totcon.com

poetFemmeFatale
Member Elite

since 1999-07-25

Posts 2646
Arkansas

18 posted 2000-02-20 07:56 PM

Oh wow...what a powerful poem. I can only say that is truly a bad deal...Try to think of it this way - I can see 2 positives in this, believe it or not. First of all, you did find him before it was too late. I have a friend who searched for 5 years for her dad, only to find he had passed away 6 months before she found him. That's something to think about, and be thankful for in your case. Secondly, one of my greatest fears is losing either of my parents. I think we all feel that way, no matter how long they've been in our lives. None of us know how long we'll have our loved ones around. Just cherish each day you have, and thank God you did find him before his time. That is the only peace I can offer you dear...I do feel for you, and he will be in my prayers. Remember, cherish each day and the memories you have inside.

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