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allimac12
New Member

since 2000-04-11

Posts 5

0 posted 2000-04-11 11:24 PM

Me

A muddled-mess of confusion,
A stinking scrap heap of waste and hog maw,
A thick membrane surrounds me,
Keeping me from others,
A brilliant bubble of gray and sterile black
To shut me off from the outside world of
Shining whites, glowing blues and radiant greens.
I sit,
Alone,
Separated,
Condemned,
Contempted,
Loathed,
Tatooed with piercing red hatred.
Filled with sickness and wrong,
Maggots crawl over my skin,
Slithering and slathering,
Infecting my body.
Spiders, bugs in every crevice,
Protruding and lurking within,
Eating my organs like stew.
I could only harm others,
Infest them with who I am.
Me.
A colorless spectrum of transperancy that no one could want,
Or care for,
Or love,
Me.
Darker, Deeper, Further,
Into my
Bubble of
Infectious death,
Deception and
Despair,
Without any
Utter hope of escaping
Me.

mariee66
Senior Member

since 2000-01-30

Posts 596
Recess, OfYourMind

1 posted 2000-04-11 11:33 PM

This is tragic, I know~
I sometimes work with oncology patients, and it is almost always sad~
I have no encouraging words...your poem is so tragic~
You are leaving me speechless~

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

2 posted 2000-04-11 11:35 PM

Allimac12~ this is so very sad and full of pain. Very well expressed.-SEA

A Romantic Heart
Member Ascendant

since 1999-09-03

Posts 5496
Forever In Your Heart

3 posted 2000-04-12 01:13 AM

If it is you, we are here to love you, your not alone in this battle...Sad poem!

"Love is not love, till you give it away"
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Rosemary J. Gwaltney
Senior Member

since 1999-08-26

Posts 997
northern mountains, Idaho

4 posted 2000-04-12 01:24 AM

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A stunning, astounding poem.  What could I possibly say?  The feelings are so glaringly real, in living technicolored video with horrendous visual effects.
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Perhaps everyone's most easily reached terror - you have braved the elements of a winter that no one wants to know, and shared with us something deep as the bottom of a crevasse on a snow-covered mountainside in the lone darkness.
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I honor you for putting this into words.  I hope it is not your own experience.  If it is, then it is even more courageous.
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I won't be forgetting this.  My brother-in-law, now in his forties, whom I have known and loved since he was ten years old has it too.
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[This message has been edited by Rosemary J. Gwaltney (edited 04-12-2000).]

amazon_lover
Member

since 2000-04-09

Posts 491
Dublin,Ireland

5 posted 2000-04-12 03:45 PM

Hi Allimac

Think what's the reason for the mess you're in. Reason out. I wish you come out live and kicking soon!

Poet deVine

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-26

Posts 22612
Hurricane Alley

6 posted 2000-04-12 04:05 PM

This is great...you've really put your heart and soul into this. I hope by expressing yourself this way, you can ease your pain. It does seem sometimes that the big "C" word scares people away....and it's so sad...no one deserves to be seen like this...treated like this...if you ever need to talk, let me know, I'm an email away..and if you have ICQ, I'm there too...and if you don't mind, I'd like to try to make you smile.... I am sending you an email with a copy of your poem on a card..it's a standard welcome here. I think your poem is so powerful that it will be shared with many, many people. Welcome to the family!

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