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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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First off this is a new style I am trying...secondly this is one of the first poems i wrote..about two years ago. Hope you guys like! This is just a new style. Life By: Amy M. Kennedy I remember the little girl of yesterday… The one who acted tough and wouldn’t let anyone near… The one who tried to pretend she didnt laugh or feel pain and fear On the outside… I wanted to look calm and strong Wanted people to think I was brave and smart… But inside I was crying, the pain nearly tore me apart The day came when we were taken away… I knew it was for the best… Was this God’s way of finding out my “real”strength…? To find out if I had what it took to pass the test… I knew that what was happening was the best for us all… So if I was suppose to be happy Why did it feel like my heart took the greatest fall? The day had come to tell her goodbye, My mother of birth, and even though I was sad I held back my emotions, didn’t want her to see me cry… So as the social worker took us away, I took one more look at her face I looked at my surroundings, at my room, at the place that I had called “my space” I knew it was time to let go, to look at the future and not the past… My only wish was God I hope we get adopted really fast… Then came along this couple, a woman and a man… Who asked to be our parents, I looked at my sisters, it was a unanimous “yes you can!”… The lady who I would come to call Mom wasn’t like the one from before… I was about to be amazed at her love, didn’t know what God had in store… For ten years, she took care of me…. Showed me what unconditional love is about… She held me when I was scared, she was my angel on Earth…that there is no doubt! Well, before I knew it, Those ten years had flown on by… Never did I realize that once again I would have to say a goodbye… But on that fateful day when she was took up above… I thought to myself you just had and lost the greatest love… My faith was quite shook; I didn’t know what to do… I was mad, hurt, sad, and confused… But soon I realized it was time to grow up… little kid days were long gone… And one day while listening to the radio I heard “wind beneath my wings” That was OUR song And in that split second I knew it was time to snap out of this dream But when I thought of going on without her, I just wanted to scream! The pain inside was hot and searing, felt like a knife went through my heart… How could life be so cruel to once again deal me such a sorrowful part? To give her to me only to snatch her back… I felt hopeless, cards were being built and stacked… But then one day while sitting on my bed… I felt a presence near my leg I swear I heard her say my name Since that day I haven’t been the same She told me Amy it is going to be okay, that she was watching over me And even though I couldn’t see her, I somehow believe… That there really is an angel in heaven watching over me… Slowly but surely, the pain has begun to ease… It hasn’t vanished or gone away, I doubt it ever will… But knowing that she is with me, I have allowed my heart to trust again, to love and to feel I now embrace life with all that I have, living each day...keeping it “real”. ~Live today as though it were your last but prepare for tomorrow as though it were here~ [This message has been edited by Aimster (edited 04-06-2000).] |
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Witch's Brat Member
since 1999-09-17
Posts 100 |
Amy, this is so powerfully sad. I am sorry to hear about your mom...this kind of pain is so hard to bear...God bless. Witch's Brat I am a disturbed person, and I write about disturbed people. ~Tennessee Williams |
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Elizabeth
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Member Ascendant
since 1999-06-07
Posts 6871Minnesota |
I echo WB--take care, Amy. Elizabeth "He have his goodness now. God forbid I take it from him!" -The Crucible |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
out of the mouths of babes... you take my words and my heart with this one amy...I like your "style"  take care, sweets jm |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
Wow Amy. . . I have always been amazed by the depth of your writing. . . never lose that. . . This was (and is!) excellent!! ----------------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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One Who Understands Member
since 2000-01-20
Posts 251Cedar Rapids, Iowa |
That is absolutely wonderful. I am going to send this to my girlfriend, who has had some of the same situations happen to her. You are a wonderful writer  |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Amy~ What a remarkable young woman you are. The impact of her love will stay with you for the rest of your life. I believe her spirit has let you know that her presence will always be near. Go forward with peaceful contentment in your heart. Love ya', gal. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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