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| Open Poetry #6 |
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-*The One To Blame*- |
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amber Member
since 1999-06-15
Posts 240los banos, ca, 
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I can not say a word to you, As memories flood back, To many scares still remain, And you show no remorce for that. I will not choose to hate you, As completley as I feel, After all the pain you caused, My love to you will remian sealed. I may never understand your reasons, For they were not offered to me, A loving wife that you contianed, Still in my bed you chose to be. I can never glance into your eyes, While you say I misunderstood, I remember his hands, his eyes, There is no way that I could. I've let this break tear my world apart, For so many nights on end, But I can never change the past, And refuse to make ammends. You took away the fragile years, When I shoud have learned to trust, And it breaks my lovers heart to know, That you put me through so much. How can I forgive you? Even if it is for me? You may have forgotten long ago, But I'm still jsut sixteen. How can I force back a pain? That makes me ashamed of my life? You cant change the digust I feel, Even though I know it isnt right. "Daddy" do you ever cry late at night, Wishing the hands of time, Could make your soul alright? Have you ever hung your head in shame, Of the image someone else created, Do you realize for all of that, You'll always be the one to blame? Only after trying so hard to let go, did i realize how much i wanted to hold you forever> Amber and Ellis forever and always [This message has been edited by amber (edited 02-12-2000).] |
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HelmutB Senior Member
since 2000-01-06
Posts 964Canada |
Amber Such a poem you did so well, very well The story it tells scared me so My thoughts are with you The ability to describe life with words is similar to painting a picture; both can be powerful tools. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
This is so strong in emotion! I felt the hurt as I read it... |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I think you have described a heartbreaking situation very well. And you are right he is the one to blame. James |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Amber- You've opened the door to sunlight for yourself, honey. You've no reason to feel shame. Step into the sunlight and let friends warm you with our love. I'm here if and when you need a hug or just an understanding ear. Love you ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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Wizzard Member
since 2000-02-09
Posts 209 |
There is so much pain in this one that it`s hard to focus on the great job that you`ve done with the wording. I wish I could take your pain and all the dark memories away,But even this Wizzard of passion doesn`t have that much power. So I`ll pray to my Higher power and ask that he heal`s your fragile heart and make all your day`s Brighter and Happy. Being a Father myself,It shames me to think that any man could ever hurt (or scar) the fragile heart of any child. Take Care U  Today is the first day of the rest of my life. |
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devina Member Elite
since 1999-10-28
Posts 3539Cali |
Ambs, my beautiful lil sis...I had hoped that time, and my love and understanding had helped to ease your pain...You know that I'm here for you and we have talked about this, I only wish I could undo all the damage that's been done. You've seen too much and been through too much- things that a girl your age shouldn't have experience. Now you have a guy who loves you and understands, if he is patient he just might succeed in helping you to feel like the very special person you are!!! Hang in there sis-I love you!!!! Open arms can be the most fragile in the world... |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Amber, I ache for you. I'm so sorry for your pain. I just don't know what to say,because I know I have nothing to take the pain away and give you the safety you should have had all along. I wish you peace in your heart, and you have to know he is wrong~ it is his fault. Don't carry his demon. It doesn't belong to you.  -SEA |
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lucky Senior Member
since 2000-01-17
Posts 1601Idaho |
Ambeer, There's a tear in your poem dear... and I would be the first to tell you that this kind of writing would sell anywhere. It's strong, speaks with feeling, and people live it all over the net and everywhere. Yet I would venture to say if I may... there's much much more to you I'm sure you'd portray. Where is your life today..? Maybe I shouldn't ask but it's Valentines day... Love Always, Lucky |
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christies heart Member
since 1999-08-10
Posts 189NJ, USA |
You are so young to be as insightful as you are about these terribly mixed emotions. This really is a good thing. No need to forgive. Let yourself be as angry as you are. It is very important that you feel this. I am with you, and I have been there. You will be fine...believe it or not someday, though nothing can justify such pain, there will be a benefit to all you do to allow yourself to feel right now. Don't ever let the shame become part of you, it is not yours, and you can get past it. |
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HelmutB Senior Member
since 2000-01-06
Posts 964Canada |
I just think this deserves our attention The ability to describe life with words is similar to painting a picture; both can be powerful tools. |
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HelmutB Senior Member
since 2000-01-06
Posts 964Canada |
I just think this deserves our attention The ability to describe life with words is similar to painting a picture; both can be powerful tools. |
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amber Member
since 1999-06-15
Posts 240los banos, ca, |
sorry that it took me so long to reply, as you have noticed i havent been spending much time here. I guess i have had a lot on my mind. (not to say i dont miss you all!) I have my surgery to think about and a lot of things running through my mind, the past, the future everything. All running together. Thanks with all my heart to you all, and your concern and best wishes have always ment the world to me. Once agian, When it can be found no where else, comfort beyond compare lies here. |
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