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Deathly Glazed Stare
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Deathly Glazed Stare |
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MyPenNameIsSam Member
since 2000-03-06
Posts 94usa |
rough draft of course--just wrote this Deathly Glazed Stare 3/13/00 Clenching my fists Stomach knoting into a ball The sickening feeling Overwhelming me as I stare into space at the nothingness sitting on my wall My vision is blurry There's a ringing in my ears My brain is throbbing and my temples pulse so strongly I feel my blood revolving My hands clenched so tightly my nails begin to draw blood from my palms Sweat stinging my eyes My shirt drenched with this clammy feeling that covers my body I shake My eyes bloodshot Tears locked behind my eyes My nose drips My mind aches I feel myself in a daze So sick of this town I don't know what to do Just a 21 year old girl With nothing and everything to do So tired of feeling this meaningless drone Hating the routine of this day to day groan Can't take this drooling, humdrum life So tired of being stressed night after night I need to move on But I've no clue where to go I must finish with school and continue with this brain-warping drool Pushing buttons at work Helping people that bitch Being treated like sh** Just a pathetic peon working at the bottom of the empire that pays me Feeling trapped in this life Don't know how to get out I can hardly breathe The suffocation of circumstances holds a pillow over my face SO DEATHLY SICK OF THIS HUMDRUM LIFE... < !signature--> "One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." -Andre Gide [This message has been edited by MyPenNameIsSam (edited 03-14-2000).] |
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mariee66 Senior Member
since 2000-01-30
Posts 596Recess, OfYourMind |
My gosh~ I hope you were not writing about your life~ We all go through meaningless jobs when we are young... I've been there... I know~ Things will look up for you... believe that~ Take Care~ Marie~ "Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; And therefore is wing'd Cupid painted blind." The Bard |
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MyPenNameIsSam Member
since 2000-03-06
Posts 94usa |
Mariee--of course I'm talking about my life...*laughs* but thanks for the words of encouragement. I just feel so tired of my life sometimes,... the irritation of everything seems to go in cycles of lesser irritation to severe frustration, as I'm feeling right now. But it's always helpful to hear words of encouragement.  Thank you.-molly aka sam "One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." -Andre Gide |
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Cerenity Member Elite
since 2000-02-16
Posts 2637Escondido-California |
Hi Molly Dear, You see the cute little guy up in the corner of my reply he's doing the jig, I want you to do the jig all around your house then I want you to go out side even if it is raining and do some more jiging. When things get taugh the tough get silly crazy and hopefully happy even if for a moment. Just a thought. By the way I tryed to e-mail you back last week but your address didn't work???? Have fun, Cerenity |
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Danny Holloway Member Elite
since 2000-01-15
Posts 2034Tulsa, OK |
Hi, frustrating situation to be in for sure. May I suggest a plan, that lays out the details required for you to leave. Must include money of course, a date, and details that must fall into place. Then make that plan happen. It could be the most exciting adventure of your life. I moved 2000 miles to Phoenix years ago on the flip of a coin. East or West was the call. I just wanted out of Arkansas and I didn't care which direction I went. Most exciting time of my life. Met wonderful people and they helped me with my career. MAKE THE PLAN. All life is a chance, just roll the dice and see what happens. Did I mention that I am prone to impulse and such? Oh well, ..... Good Luck! |
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MyPenNameIsSam Member
since 2000-03-06
Posts 94usa |
Cerenity--Thanks so much! Your cheery note helped me start today out well before I had to head off to work again. Greatly appreciated!!!And as far as the email thing--did you try to email me back at hotmail or prodigy? B/c my prodigy account is all messed up and won't work and if you email me at my hotmail account make sure you send it to [email protected] NOT BlueGRASSBrain! Lot's of people make that mistake...other than that I'm not sure why it wouldn't have worked! Danny--Thanks for your advice! I'm planning on moving eventually but at the college that I'm going to right now I need to stay there for a little over one more semester and then I'll be able to transfer somewhere and ALL of my credits will transfer instead of just a few of them--it's some block-transfer thing that they do, otherwise I might move right now. *sigh* But thanks for the advice! -molly aka sam "One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." -Andre Gide |
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