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Skyfyre
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0 posted 2000-12-05 08:28 PM


Heck, I'm feeling a little left out here.  Everyone seems to have something to complain about but me ... so I'd better think of something quick!  

So, here goes:  this isn't really so much a gripe as it is a realization -- perhaps some of you can relate (or commiserate, as the case may be).

I just don't know who I am anymore.

A few short months ago, I could have told you where I was in life, and where I was going ... what I had and what I wanted, so on and so forth.  There was a plan, a goal, a routine ...

So much of that has changed so quickly in my recent past that my head is spinning ... I can't seem to decide what's up or down, or which direction I need to take to accomplish anything.  Hell, I don't even know what exactly it is I want to accomplish!  I don't think that I am hopeless, or at the end of my rope -- please don't get me wrong on that account.  I am happy, at least in a vague, unfocused sense of the word.  I simply feel as though I have lost my identity, and I have no idea how to begin rebuilding it.

Anybody have any suggestions...?

--Linda (I think -- LOL)


Remember: maintaining a positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will certainly annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

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Sven
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1 posted 2000-12-05 08:57 PM


ask yourself. . . "Who am I?"

write down the answers. . . sure it seems a little obvious. . . but, I've always had that gift. . .

you'll find out. . . but, like all things. . . it takes time. . .

. . . welcome back Linda, we've missed you around here. . .

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That which gives light must endure burning
--Victor Frankl


Poet deVine
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Hurricane Alley
2 posted 2000-12-05 09:03 PM


Take time to take stock in YOU. Relax. You'll find your way.
serenity blaze
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3 posted 2000-12-05 10:04 PM


Lord knows, "don't follow me, I'm lost too.."
but if it's all got you feeling a bit stressed? Sharon has something interesting therapy posted under my MAD AS HELL thread...
just make sure that somebody has bail money ready!

raleighbttrfly
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4 posted 2000-12-05 11:34 PM


Getting lost happens don’t sweat it. All it means is that you are changing as a person, witch is supposed to happen from time to time. We can’t and shouldn’t try to stay the same. This is most likely a good thing, jest take it slow. I hope it all works out for you.


Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it’s the middle that counts.

Christopher
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Purgatorial Incarceration
5 posted 2000-12-06 01:48 PM


Geez Linda - we all know you just need to get pregnant, get in the kitchen (barefooted of course), and cook dinner.  
Skyfyre
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since 1999-08-15
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Sitting in Michael's Lap
6 posted 2000-12-06 03:28 PM


Sven:  Isn't that like talking to AND answering yourself -- one of the signs of multiple personality disorder..?  I just want ONE identity, thankyouverymuch!!  

Sharon:  Sigh.  OK, you tell my boss ... LOL  

Serenity:  Thanks for the tip ... wanna go on a shooting spree with me..?  LOL  

raleighbutterfly:  I have changed before, but never this much and this rapidly (except maybe in puberty LOL) It's the sheer volume of change that gets me here ... thanks for the reply  

Chris:  Have done all of the above as recently as yesterday, with the exception of the pregnancy thing (course that doesn't keep me from trying on that account, though I fear my odds aren't too good LOL)  Yep -- regular Susie Homemaker I am, much to my own surprise ... love does that to ya.  

--Linda



Remember: maintaining a positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will certainly annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

Michael
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7 posted 2000-12-06 05:51 PM


Linda, I remember only too well the ambitions and dreams you clinched so tightly back in April and May when we were first getting together.  They were part of what attracted me to you so much to begin with.  I remember having alot of plans of my own at that time, too, about where I was going with my life.

Then, BAM, when I met you, everything shifted.  It's not that the goals have been forfeit or the dreams lost, but somehow they don't ring first in my thoughts anymore.  I thought about this awhile after you posted it - because at first I thought I must be doing something wrong if you felt this way, but then I came to see the reason why all my previous plans don't seem as demanding as they once did is because I thought accomplishing those goals was the only way I would ever find happiness.  I was wrong.  

You, alone, have given me so much happiness and endeavoring to love you the best I can is now and will always be the #1 priority in my life.  Things have moved very fast in the past 6 months and we have been through more BS than I really care to remember...  But, dear, you are anthing but lost right now and it's the same with your dreams.  I know who you are and where you are.  You are home, and we will reach those dreams together, babe.  I love you.


Michael

fractal007
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8 posted 2000-12-07 02:15 PM


I get that feeling a lot, especially after I've thought about philosophy for a while.  But I am religious.  That always helps me get on in life.  I think that when you believe in something, it always helps.
Dopey Dope
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9 posted 2000-12-07 03:47 PM


I've been lost for 17 years. No idea how to find myself let alone help you find yourself with any helpful hints hehe.



I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I hate your socks. I'd like to burn them!


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