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wordancer
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0 posted 2001-04-11 11:17 AM


Again, I lost my keys today;
I will not tell, cannot tell,
it is not amusing anymore
as I also wonder why
I wanted to go to the store.
(is it only short-term memory loss)

a cloud drifts over gray endless space
that fragile lace hidden behind the face
as  beginning confusion slowly spreads
through the dark flights of thought


Again, I lost another word today;
frantically, my mind scrambles
to say what it is that you do
with two pieces of cloth
to attach them together.
(perhaps I should just give up)

random blank spots emerge, subside
and return again and again and again
waves of knowledge rendered useless
in misfiring of accidental links


Again, I lost more of myself today;
I know not what it is, what has happen,
just something that is not right
as loved ones look on in bewilderment.
(at their grandmother who profoundly curses)

a mime stands behind invisible walls
frenzied palming of hidden switches
inside horror as thought is translated
to exterior gibberish that slashes pain


Again, I was lost today;
as I wandered out the door,
to trek miles and miles of nothing
in search for what I cannot see
(will someone find me—please, let me go)

the long dark night incessantly calls
lost all is lost as inner identity departs
now just a husk that wanders aimlessly
in futile search for what is forever gone




Wordancer, the one who dances with words.

[This message has been edited by wordancer (edited 04-11-2001).]

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2dalimit
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1 posted 2001-04-11 01:05 PM


Sad, but you've expressed these emotions very well.
Melton

Wesley the Blue
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2 posted 2001-04-11 01:33 PM


Wonderful job, I can totaly understand this poem, my grandfather has alsheimers or some similar disease, I can only imagine what it is like for him, I think you did a marvelous job of looking at it through that side of things.

Keith

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3 posted 2001-04-11 01:50 PM


Anyone who has ever visited a friend in the alzeimer's ward can empathize with you.  Thank goodness it's just absentmindedness most of the time with the majority of us.  Joyce
wordancer
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4 posted 2001-04-11 03:09 PM


Oh my goodness joyce, my mind is fine…lol, at least I think so.  It’s my narrator who is losing it.

This was a writing exercise that I just recently did.  The concept was to alternate different levels of reading thresholds between high and low reader accessibility to the understanding of poem.

One of the thoughts that been floating around in my mind recently is Alzheimer’s Disease.  Been trying to imagine how, as the disease progresses towards the end, if the person is cognizant of what they are saying and doing.   If so, what a scary place it must be in their minds.

Wesley & 2dalimit, thanks for the read and comments.


WO

[This message has been edited by wordancer (edited 04-11-2001).]

ellie LeJeune
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5 posted 2001-04-11 05:43 PM


Great job on this, A very scary thing, may god spare us from this! Love, ellie

A friend hears the song in my heart, and sings it to me when my memory fails.

coyote
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6 posted 2001-04-11 06:26 PM


Very well done.
You effectively expressed those fearful feelings of uncertainty, and really "got into the person's skin", so to speak. Really had me wondering if it was you?
Great job.  

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I.G. Norance

Andrew Scott
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7 posted 2001-04-11 07:52 PM


A very sad and powerful look into alsheimers.  Well done.
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8 posted 2001-04-11 08:14 PM


This is so well done!  Something all of us fear as we grow older.
Red_Feather
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9 posted 2001-04-11 10:03 PM


This was indeed well written. I have worked with the elderly and have seen my fill of such terror. There is a point when you can no longer tell how aware the person is of their own loss, but up to that point the anguish can be plainly seen. There was an old farmer who would sometimes ask me to kill him. He was a proud man who knew at the very least, that he was not who he used to be. I did not blame him, and in my mind it would have been a mercy. Very sad.

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Andrew Scott
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10 posted 2001-04-12 03:55 PM


Red Feather... situations like that truly make you think about the validity of mercy killing.  Had an uncle who suffered an aneurym. It should have killed him but they got to him in time for life support... end result was that he was "completely"  paralyzed except for his eyes and one finger.  Mentally he was still there, physically he had nothing... after two years they finally took him off the life support expecting he would pass on... it took eleven years.  If there is Hell on earth, that was it.  Sometimes I just don't understand the medical world and their desire to hold onto nothing.  Again, thanks for sharing your views, maybe some day they'll start to figure it out.  Peace!
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11 posted 2003-11-25 02:33 PM


Yet another masterpiece
passing shadows
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yes...indeed
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