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My Past ( a personal look at me)
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My Past ( a personal look at me) |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678
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I have been questioned about who I am by some. Understand please I do not look for sympathy. I am only here to share ....so with that I share with you....my past My Past ~First Knight~ She married a man of much greater age, Ten years I was told, he made a small wage. In a small house by the side of the road, No time for things, and the lawn was not mowed. The years came fast and the moving did too, Never stayed to long, just a month or two. In time came children two boys and a girl, Father soon gone, he had left in a whirl. Mother all alone with just three young kids, with no car, no clothes, and jars without lids. Despair had set in with no place to go Wanting to get out, What else did she know? Just a small boy at the age of three, Left all alone by his mother you see. With his brother of five and sister of one, She left like a shot, bullet from a gun. That shot rang loud, as I lived out my days, My brother and sister gone different ways. Brother to old he remembers to much, Sister to far, never knew her as such. Now I stand alone as it was before, Lost to this world, and I can't close this door. Lost my Father, Mother, bro and sis too, Lost a many a tear, Yes have shed a few. Twenty-eight years later and loss of a wife, Wanting of someone who can share my life. I won't hold on with a bone breaking grip, When love does come my way, I often slip. Just a gentle heart is all I will ask To end this pain, my life, my strain, my past.. Share what you are for you are what you share |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
First Knight, Family is truly our strength and that which sustains us. But somewhere out there, there is a lucky woman who will find you and she will be your family, your strength and your purpose. I hope she finds you soon! Liz |
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Rod Member
since 1999-12-08
Posts 149Auckland New Zealand |
I am glad you shared this - I was very moved by it. I wish you fair winds and good fortune - you sure deserve a break, and I hope it will come soon for you. Rod |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Very moving poem. Who knows why these things happen to us; perhaps we are meant to share them to help others. Your poetry has a depth of feeling that shines brightly. Don't loose hope - you future will shine as bright also!  |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678 |
Elizabeth - Soft words from you are welcome....Thank you Rod- My break may have found me...She knows who she is  Poet deVine- Many thanks as my sun will shine again. Share what you are for you are what you share |
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Saxoness
since 1999-07-18
Posts 1102Texas |
You are indeed a very strong and admirable person, Sir Knight "Glory remains unaware of my neglected dwelling where alone I sing my tearful song which has charms only for me." -Charles Brugnot |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
David, Thank you for the glimpse into your past and for sharing your pain, sometimes that is not an easy thing to do. I also want to say thanks for the opportunity to get to know you as a friend. You are a kind and caring person and deserve that gentle heart you seek. Ruth |
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Eloise Senior Member
since 1999-11-27
Posts 1096Wyoming |
First Knight, very touching and personal piece. Thank you for sharing with us. There's always a rainbow after the storm. I'm sure yours is not far. |
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Severn Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-17
Posts 7704 |
FKnight - wow. To cram your life into so few words is admirable. Though it has been much much more. This is a wonderful testament to your heart that hasn't been hardened by loss, and to your wonderful writing. K |
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RainbowGirl Member Elite
since 1999-07-31
Posts 3023United Kingdom |
Heartbreaking, made me shiver to think of your memories but a part of me says you're a better man because of them...weird thing to say, hope you know what I mean though.. Big HUGS< !signature--> Yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream... [This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 12-14-1999).] |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
First Knight, a sad past indeed, but never forget the happy stories you have that you didn't mention in your poem. Indeed family, friends, and love are what sustain us in this ol' world. I am sad for you. But why don't you write a history of First Knight happy tales? If you do let me know, I don't get over here to OP# 4 as often as I ought!! ((HUGS)) What the inner voice says will NOT disappoint the hoping soul. ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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Marilyn Member Elite
since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621Ontario, Canada |
You have found a break indeed my friend, you have found Passions. Here we are a family without walls and friends true in our hearts. Thankyou for this glimpse into the man that you are. |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
It's never easy to open oneself up and bare the soul. You did it very well, Knight |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678 |
MY Dear Lady Ruth.....Do you know a Donor?....hehe for the heart I mean Saxoness- Thank you but I can not take credit for who I am...The Father has changed me for who I am today. Eloise with you close by....How can my Rainbow be far Severn- Finding wonderful writing means only clicking upon your name and reading your work...Thank you RainbowGirl- Yes I do indeed understand what you mean....And I see that pot of gold at the end of your rainbow...it is your heart You will have to let me hear that English accent one day.....hehe Love English TV Isis- Don't stay away to long from Open #4 we need your writing here.. Marilyn- Begining to love my Passion Family...very much Balladeer- Honored by your words SIR. Share what you are for you are what you share |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
It takes great courage to be so open. And courageous you are, First Knight! You have friends here so I hope you feel that you have found your place! Great poem! Denise |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
David, I am not sure, I put mine up for sale a while back and there were no takers. Here's the ad, perhaps you know a buyer Heart For Sale Look here at this bargain It’s sure a super buy! You won’t find a better deal No matter how you try! There have been few owners She kept it in a shell Well preserved and shielded Though not protected well Please ignore the footprints It’s been walked upon Don’t let that fact distract you It’s a steal, so please come on! Don’t mind the imperfections What’s a scar or two! Sure, it’s been used and abused But it could work for you! Hey, it still has life in it! Though it’s battered and it’s torn And if you wear it, oh, just right You won’t notice that it’s worn Come and see this heart for sale Be you rich or poor I’m sure to make a deal you’ll like She don’t need it any more [This message has been edited by hoot_owl_rn (edited 12-15-1999).] |
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First__Knight Senior Member
since 1999-11-08
Posts 678 |
That was very sweet my dear Lady Ruth. The heart I hope to borrow is one of great delight. Seen many sorrow, but now it begins its flight. Held by a lady, of a perfect type you see One day she will show it, While I on bended knee. Till that day comes, I will rest. From your words and gentleness. Share what you are for you are what you share |
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