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Tamma
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0 posted 2000-02-19 09:40 AM


I was pregnant,
You know.

Why must you,
Deny your past?

I was pregnant,
You punched me.

You say it was my fault,
But I said no, you continued.

I should have said goodbye,
But I was young and stupid.

Now you say its all lies,
Turning people against me.

I hear you call me names,
Blaming me for everything.

You used to say you loved me,
Things have changed, I guess.

You punched me; I lost my baby,
Your baby, OUR baby.

Do you not care,
What happened?

With the baby,
Went my heart.

He would be almost two, now,
But you took him from me.

I'm being punished for what you did,
Everyday of my life, I think of him.

Sometimes I swear,
I can hear his voice.

“Mommy, what did I do,
Did he hate me before he saw me?”

He was too young to know,
What we did was wrong.

~~~Tamma~~~


 "Yes, I think 'toast' is an appropriate description."
-Jaya Ballard, Task Mage

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Ophelia Speaks
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1 posted 2000-02-19 11:40 AM


I am really moved by this- I hope its not true but i have a feeling it is b/c only someone writing from experience could write this passionately!!! Keep up the good work!
Danny Holloway
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2 posted 2000-02-19 11:52 AM


What an incredibly sad story, even though well written.  I am assuming that you both were very young when this took place.  Doesn't excuse the way he acted, but there isn't much maturity in young guys who want to play but not accept responsibility for their actions.
Such a difficult experience for you.  I hope their is family, friends, or others to help you work through this tough period.
If you want someone to talk to, feel free to e-mail me. I have a big shoulder.
Danny

Tamma
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3 posted 2000-02-19 02:06 PM


sadly, this is true, but i am slowly working thru it   Danny: thank you for all of your comments  

 "Yes, I think 'toast' is an appropriate description."
-Jaya Ballard, Task Mage

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4 posted 2000-02-19 04:15 PM


This is a good poem, but the story is very sad. I hope you get through this ok.

 "To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world"

Tamma
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5 posted 2000-02-23 04:09 PM


Question: Whenever I let anybody read any or my writing they always say "Thats deep!" but i don't see it any help?  

 "In a secret, I lIve, InvIsIble to all"
-Me :)

Crystalina123
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6 posted 2000-02-23 04:35 PM


Tamma,
I'm sorry for what happened to you. I too lost my ex boyfriends baby, but I never even told him I was pregnant. I truly am sorry you had to experience this. If you ever need to talk my address is Crystalina123@yahoo.com

-- Crystal

 "The worst of what people do to one another is deceive.
Because when you love someone you control their version
of reality. If you lie to them that's like making them
autistic so that what they believe is reality is in fact,
not their true situation at all.

Gadget28
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7 posted 2000-02-24 01:27 AM


Oh, God! I had made a poem that is almost identical to this one, I too lost my ex-boyfriend's baby because he had been so abusive to me, the only difference is is that my sons (they were twins) would have been nearly two months old by now Through the whole time I was pregnant, my ex denied the babies being his and turned so many people against me! I'm sorry that you had to feel this pain too, I know how hard it is to think about how your baby would look, act and even cry! It hurts soooo much! I don't think I'll ever forgive my ex!

I can totally relate to the part where you  heard your baby say, "Mommy, what did I do...?" I wish I could do anything to bring them back, but I realize it's totally out of the question, and they're in a better place now!  If you ever need me, please e-mail me, it's in my profile!  Good luck and stay strong!  My best wishes to you!

Sara
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8 posted 2000-02-24 02:08 AM


Another poem that hits close to home.  Too many of my friends have been abused.  My closest friend just had a baby and the thought of her possibly losing it because of an abusive boyfriend is too awful.  I hope things are going a little better, although I'm sure it's never going to leave you completely, how could it?
trevorskogsbergh
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South Pasadena, CA
9 posted 2000-02-24 07:45 PM


Guys like that tick me off man. I hope and pray to God that you called the police and took this guy to court. Even though there's not enough money in the world that is equal to a life, you should have gotten some sort of justice for this. A man should never hit a woman, much less a pregnant one. It saddens me that there are men out there who can do this to someone. Someone they say they care about. I am really sorry Tamma.
      Trevor

 If you want to walk with God, you've got to go His way!

Jer
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10 posted 2000-02-25 01:06 AM


Hugs! Wow... this brought a tear to my eye. I'm so very sorry that you had to go threw all that. I send you my deepest condolences and hope you get the help you need. Remember, we're all here for you. All you have to do is just ask.

 "WRITING IS EASY. ALL YOU DO IS STARE AT A BLANK SHEET OF PAPER UNTIL DROPS OF BLOOD FORM ON YOUR FOREHEAD." Gene Fowler

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