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I just wanted you to know |
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Roger Leewright Junior Member
since 1999-09-25
Posts 28Beaverton, OR.USA |
I just wanted you to know I wanted to write some things down for you, Before we decided our marriage was through. So much pain and so much strife, God baby, we’ve had a hard life. I pushed you away when I needed you the most, The pain in my mind a horrible ghost. I found in another, joys for my heart, Yet thought of you often while we were apart. Crimes of the heart, are worse than are said, I promise you this, she never slept in our bed. I ended it cause it was the right thing to do, The price I paid, was my marriage was through. I never have sought comfort in the arms of another, My vows in tact, I have lusted for no other. The sorrow I have brought you I cannot repair. I know you were lonely and filled with despair. I wish I could take it all back now, To make you understand, and love me somehow. The pain I have caused has diminished your light, My spot in you heart, now turned to night. No other woman can compare to who you are, You’ve been the only woman I’ve loved in my life so far. The two we created are almost all grown, What a beautiful thing, the seeds we have sown. I’ll always remember the fond memories, Like making love in the tent, under the Redwood trees. We’ve have some wonderful memories, you and I, God, honey it’s so hard for me to say good bye. With mist in my eyes, I wanted you to know, That the hardest thing for me is to let you go. Lying awake, and alone by myself, Crying so softly, at pictures of you on my shelf. Only one thing, for you I feel I did right, Was empower my woman with the ability to fight. As a nurse under pressure to save one’s life, For this, I was always proud to call you my wife. I’ll never stop loving your eyes so blue, For look into mine and you’ll find that’s always been true. I want all the fighting to come to an end, I really need you to be my best friend. When I saw you finding comfort in the eyes of another, Seeking counseling for us, heck why bother. The truth in your heart you were unable to admit, Was you have had enough and it was time to quit. I tell myself I’m happy that you’ve started to date, But this has only sealed our inevitable fate. I guess that I should go out and try to do the same, But please, when we’re together, don’t utter his name. I will respect the life with him you may make, But let’s keep our promise to our children, for heavens sake. To give them the parents they need and deserve, For it’s their feelings we should really try to preserve. I don’t blame you for the decision you’ve made, For your soul I have pierced with the point of my blade. I want to release you from any guilt and shame, Hell, if I were you, I probably would have done the same. I hope you understand this poem that I give, So on with your life you are starting to live. Just these words I still need to impart, "I love you", and you will always have a place in my heart. |
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Dragoness Senior Member
since 1999-08-07
Posts 513 |
Oh Roger{{{{{HUGS}}}}} I'm so sorry! Excellent work here. ------------------ Set you heart free and your mind will follow. |
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freespiritfem Junior Member
since 1999-10-07
Posts 49Cordova,Alabama,USA |
OMG....Roger.....what "deep" and beautiful words...i wish i could give you a great BIG_O_HUG...(((Roger))) Paula Diane S. ------------------ Paula Diane S. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Roger: Thanks for pointing this one out to me... your pain and regret pour off the page. I hope that understanding the cause and effect and sequence of events will help your healing to start. |
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Julie Senior Member
since 1999-08-20
Posts 739Houston, TX |
Oh Roger...a (((BIG HUG)))) from me too. Your poem deeply touched me...especially including the desire to continue to do the best for your children...I hope she feels this way too. ------------------ Julie ------------------------- Thou who has given so much to me, give one thing more: a grateful heart. >George Herbert |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Rodger, I'm sorry...I hope you shared this with her |
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Systematic Decay Senior Member
since 1999-09-15
Posts 1301That place with padded walls and funny people in white......... |
Beautiful poem, Roger. I know you asked for my input, and I feel hesitant doing it.....I think maybe you should have put it in critical analysis? I really liked the poem, but I think perhaps this could have been done better in free verse. It just seems that you were really struggling to find something to rhyme with it...I think you could make it even better if it was expressed in a less confining way. Sorry if I sound rude.... Still, great work.  ------------------ "Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage." -Billy Corgan- |
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Munda Member Elite
since 1999-10-08
Posts 3544The Hague, The Netherlands |
Roger, while reading your poem tears trickled down my cheeks.....I wish you strength, but above all Love. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
oh gawd!  this is touching |
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