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Michael

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-13

Posts 7666
California

0 posted 1999-10-04 01:05 AM

NEXT TO NO ONE

With no one here to wipe the tears,
Can I really be crying?
With all I've tried to give, I'm not sure I've lived,
But, God, I know I'm dying.

A chilled bottle burns and soothes the yearn
To be something to someone.
That passive thought so soon forgot,
When you wake up next to no one.

As Destiny's call rings through the hall,
Demanding some sort of retribution.
A legacy of stone I face alone,
Against this world of institution.

Generating the hate, sealing the fate
Of a man marred by emotion.
It's the need of need which lays the seed,
But love, alone, sets it in motion.

An angelic cry from a darkened sky
Lightning rides forth the knell.
As thunder peals and the soul reveals
The blackness of my own personal hell.

For in all I've shared, I have never fared
A night with soft arms to embrace me.
Waking to the bliss of dawn's first kiss
To find her still there to face me.

Oh, but is that, indeed, the penance I bleed,
Fading in the folded arms of emptiness?
To never for real know how Love feels,
While ravished by her capriciousness.

The aftermath, envy and wrath,
The unfulfilled quest of a "true" wife.
While saltless tears reflecting wasted years
Pilfer the remnants of voided life.

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Michael Anderson

The coldest lies are often told in silence.

[This message has been edited by Michael (edited 10-04-1999).]

DreamEvil
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since 1999-06-22

Posts 2396

1 posted 1999-10-04 01:13 AM

I know a few divorce lawyers that would see this as a prelude to a feeding frenzy.

Sorry, humor eludes me at times. I've been feeling similar things and thoughts though I have no ex that is mine to disown. Excellent work, Dark Lord.

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Now and forever my heart hears ~one voice~.
DreamEvil©

Systematic Decay
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since 1999-09-15

Posts 1301
That place with padded walls and funny people in white.........

2 posted 1999-10-04 01:21 AM

Great poem....I especially liked the first line..."With no one here to wipe the tears,
Can I really be crying?" Its a thought provoker, like what came first, the chicken or the egg......

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"Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage."
-Billy Corgan-

Severn
Member Rara Avis

since 1999-07-17

Posts 7704

3 posted 1999-10-04 01:50 AM

Michael - this is deeply moving. Once again, you have molded words to create a work of art.

Christopher

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-02

Posts 8296
Purgatorial Incarceration

4 posted 1999-10-04 02:43 AM

Michael, Michael, Michael....damn man, I empathize with you.... You do nothing but feed my demons, day in and day out. And they always come back, hungry for more!
Magnificent portrayal of loss and despair!

Chris

Pufalove
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since 1999-08-18

Posts 119
Houston, Tx. USA

5 posted 1999-10-04 06:30 AM

Oh Micheal, I know these feelings and you have protrayed them well. (But you must get out more, your dispair is too much) Smile

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O all ye powers that he implanted, Arise, keep silence no more; put forth the strength that he hath granted, your noblest work is to adore.

Toerag
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since 1999-07-29

Posts 5622
Ala bam a

6 posted 1999-10-04 07:12 AM

Michael...great work..been there...but maybe ya should do as suggested above..get out more? But then again....I hate to offer suggestions to anyone, even close friends I've known for years, because nobody knows the exact thing you're going through..

True love's not always found
In single bars for sure,
But you can always go to the pound,
Cuz a dog's love is one that endures!

Nan

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-20

Posts 21191
Cape Cod Massachusetts USA

7 posted 1999-10-04 07:16 AM

*BIGGGGGGG Hugs* Michael...

suthern

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since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

8 posted 1999-10-04 07:44 AM

Beautiful poem, Michael... the first couple of verses could easily be mine... only I would have never written them so eloquently. *S*

hoot_owl_rn
Member Patricius

since 1999-07-05

Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA

9 posted 1999-10-04 08:28 AM

Michael, again the loss and sadness in your words moves me. Your talents are amazing, I only wish that you had happier things to write of now. This poem was an excellent piece of art, you have created life from loss.

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Man can not discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.

Iloveit
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since 1999-09-02

Posts 1121
NM

10 posted 1999-10-04 10:02 AM

everything of yours I read touches my heart, this one echos my own heart, my hidden longings, how I have wished and ached for a true love to greet the dawn with..... beautiful poem

Sally S.
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since 1999-06-07

Posts 847
Ohio

11 posted 1999-10-04 10:07 AM

...wishing your sadness away..as quickly as possible. (((HUGS)))

Tammy
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since 1999-09-09

Posts 90

12 posted 1999-10-04 10:16 AM

Michael,
It seems that your ex-wife really did a number on you.... I can only hope that she hasn't soured you on women.... For there are alot of us out here how aren't "bitches"
Keep looking and your one true soulmate will be found..
Tammy

JennyLee
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since 1999-09-01

Posts 1461
Northwestern, NJ.

13 posted 1999-10-04 11:25 AM

What can I say...but a chord has been struck once more....

Jenny

Lucie
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since 1999-06-20

Posts 1077
Houston

14 posted 1999-10-04 11:28 AM

I stretch my hand in friendship, let me ease your pain my friend.

Skyfyre
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since 1999-08-15

Posts 1906
Sitting in Michael's Lap

15 posted 1999-10-04 05:42 PM

This is enough to discourage just about ANYONE from marriage ...

I am one of the strange folks who believes that there is only ONE soul out there that is the other half of our own ... and unfortunately, I can tell you from experience that you often have to sift through many of the others before you find the one that fits ...

I wish you luck in your search ... (or in recapturing the one who fits the bill, as the case may be)

pFF, where are you..?

Nocht

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"Nunc lento sonitu dicunt, morierus"
(Now as I hear this bell tolling softly for another, it says to me, "Thou must die.")

passing shadows
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