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tori Senior Member
since 1999-06-18
Posts 520Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA |
a place I could not go~ My lungs are full with wasted tears the air is not so crisp or clear My voice can't raise another octave, only whispers I can hear My mind is not racing fast, the thoughts are clear and calm And looking back on what I have, I see it now is gone I've read no books on what to do, on how much one should, or should not give I have no answer on what's right and wrong, but this one, I can't forgive I watched my child die today, he slipped out of my arms I tried to grab and pull him back, to force life in his lungs, but he would not breathe it in, now my child is gone I watched as his life slipped out of sight, as he calmly drifted on I gave him life, I bought him here, and I watched him drift from sight As I prayed so hard to go with him, on this cold and darkened night I seen color drain out, fade away, as whiteness filled his once tanned face His lips turning purple, as his mouth gapes open wide, Where once a smile that melt the sun, has gone away and died, And his looks, so handsome, a loving boy, is now as cold as ice, where once sweet laughter lived and rained, only death and coldness lies His eye's so big and bright that twinkled life and love, Now stare at me in blankness no sparks or embers there, no reflection to his soul, no resemblance to the child a mothers arms once held The mirror has has tuned black As my heart turned black as well For his soul is gone, forever lost, and not I his mother at any cost, can bring back his once so loving way's, there's no return, for him or I, no return to yesterday Today I lay my baby down into the earth into the ground, So little time, so short a time, to lower his body into that ground, The dirt that hits his casket, each and every gain of sand like counting the times I trusted him The times I held his hand I hear so clear, as a kiss, a kiss good-bye, forever missed As others cry and morn him they soon will find their way, new lives and happiness will come to them one day But Mother will hold till her time, every second, of every hour, of every day, as years no longer fly away His soul free and mine condemned to walk this earth alone Empty, heartless, echoes, with no place or peace to ever call my home So I say good bye to what may have been if he was still around, Knowing that he will never know, how much, I laid down, into that ground ... Will never know to be a dad with children of his own.. The cost we pay for our mistakes and lesions that we learn. Will never say I understand, now that I'm grown 'Tis but a boy, I bid farewell as I kissed his lifeless lips Forgiveness I've none, only a hollow shell of the me that use to be I should have moved, I should have screamed, I should have shed a tear I should have trust, So it show's no trust could make him live, so I have no trust to give Tori October 3rd 1998 6:42 AM |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Well done, tori... and if this is your story, I can only offer my deepest sympathies. |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
This was absolutely heart wrenching! I hope to God this was not you that experienced such awful pain! Per chance that it was, my deepest sympathy to you also! I have kids of my own and could only imagine the pain! Something none of us hope to experience. God be with you! |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Tori, This must have been difficult to write but it helps ease the pain. A very sensitive piece but very well done. |
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tori Senior Member
since 1999-06-18
Posts 520Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA |
My son's heart stoped three times after the experence with Jimson Weed.. so often after the fact when asked for trust we seem to drag them up.. in a very clear picture.... Thanks for the kindness and for reading |
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Sue Member
since 1999-08-04
Posts 383France |
How incredibly well you portray pain! Such terrible pain. |
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tori Senior Member
since 1999-06-18
Posts 520Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA |
Thank you Sue... this is one I'd like to forget..and it is getting better |
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