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Stefanie71
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since 1999-09-16
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0 posted 1999-09-19 12:23 PM


it took a while, i must admit
for the hurt to go away
now i'm just more than numb
to love in future days

many things i had to think
many factors to churn about
now i see the whole picture
how he feels, there's no doubt

so many things- shall i name them
let see, here's the list
albiet, i may sound bitter
let me start with the first kiss

oh so lovely and reassuring
i found the man that desired me
little did i know in 10000 hours
he'd no longer be kissing me

the loss of attraction, im no longer new
the thrill i thought i gave him
his wandering eyes dont look at me
it was as if we'd never been

doesn't know what he wants
with me or if to begin
it has alot to do
with the state i'm in

for you see, i have three little ones
in my life they'll always be
but to him a condemning life
one that would not let him free

and the fact he's my best friend
makes it harder in every way
i cannot change what i am
to make him want to stay

his moody side hurts me so
cause i know i caused the grump
his stone sold face, and longing eyes
anyday he's going to dump--

Me- of course, it never fails
when i trully love a man
they run and hide, and get away
as fast as they can

the one before me, the Queen
stuck a dagger in the knight
even though i pulled it out
he's still bleeding every night

I try to suture the wound
to stop the blood for a while
he ends up ripping the bandages
exposing flesh, just like a child

he wont let go, he cant let go
it's not in his nature
even if i loved him more
his memory will not mature

he's seen the tears and read my thoughts
knows exactly how i felt
i have no choice but to go
his heart i cannot melt

im living in a graveyard
one he's built from his past
im just another person
in his life filming cast

nothing significant, just a friend
who's comfortable as a shoe
something warm, something soft
when he's blue to cuddle to

no passion in his eyes, any fool could tell
he no longer wanted me
no fire in his touch, no I love you's
i should just leave him be

but i have a vow to keep
no matter how much it hurts
to be his friend, till life ends
maybe thats my one true worth

so goodbye-- to my love
the one i desired for me
at least i learned a lesson and wrote
an Ode to Mistake #3.



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Isis
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since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
1 posted 1999-09-19 12:41 PM


So sad.. But having kids should make no difference to him. He's a fool by the sound of him and always will be. Your luck and love will change. Meanwhile you have many friends here.

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Words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels.
~Isis~



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