A hopeless romantic, I have often dreamed when I will meet my destined soulmate. We would meet by an unexpected glance, and we'd just stay transfixed, gazing into each other's eyes, peering deep into our souls. And our love would bloom from there, intertwining us, forging a bond stronger than diamonds. And how we'd spend our night just cuddled in the couch, wrapped in a soft blanket, I holding her close, and slowly taking in her perfection. Everyone has probably dreamed of that perfect lover. That destined lover for eternity. But alas, for me, those dreams will just be what they merely are, just dreams. I am cold and very distant. A bit anti-social, a loner. I am a misfit in society, and will never belong. With that, my chances of finding love, or even someone to like me, for that matter, is slim to none. I am definately no Prince Charming. I'm like a toad that spits out water to anyone who tries to come near.
Do you believe that everyone has a soulmate? Ever thought that there are some who are just destined to be alone? Not allowed to feel requited love. I do, and I've accepted that I will be one of those people wen I grow up. I mean, even now, love is so distant. All my "friends" at school keep dreaming about love. How dreamy that guy is or how hot that honey looked. Their biggest fear is not having a girlfriend for more than two weeks. All those teen hopes and fears...I do not have them. I dream of living a lonely life in some dreary suburb where I disappear from the face of the Earth. My biggest fear is having no one come to my funeral when I die. Love was not meant for me. I'll probably die without getting my first real kiss. Sigh...I can't even get my feelings out rite. This looks like a rant of foolish words. Nobody loves me, everybody hate me...i dont care and there are no more worms.
I already know I'm to grow lonely, but there is still that little part of me that wishes my fate could be different. That I would love and be loved, and my deepest dreams would be made reality. To whoever readin this, if you have aheart at all, don't laugh at what about to say next. I actually want to be with someone, but that fantasy is out of my reach. There will always be sum otha guy who can give much more than what i can. All I have is my loyal devotion to whoever actually wants to take the time and melt the icy barrier to my heart. I've put very high defences bcuzz my life is already painful, an I dunt wanna add a broken herat to the list. But if u manage to get through...my heart is yours forever. All I have shall be yours. All your needs I'll try to fulfill to my abilities. You can take my heart and crush it, and I will still love you, for you took my heart and it's now yours. So, if you think that I'm actually worth your time, walk a lil closer. Dig deep euff and you'll find I'm not as cold as people thought. That my heart beats too. And that I have this great pool of devoted love waiting to be laid at your feet. To whoever destined to be her, if any at all, i silently wait for you...