Passions in Prose |
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"Just One More Day" |
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Kellie_Cantrell Senior Member
since 2002-05-22
Posts 1667New York ![]() |
The room is hazy. I know I left the shower running, the pain in my head feels like I am being bashed with a baseball bat. Blood continues to drip from my wrists and fall on the tile floor to mix with overflowing water. I wrap my fingers tightly around the shards of glass from the mirror. How did I break it? Is this really happening? I forgot to say goodbye. I cannot move. I try to raise myself to shout out for help. The haze is getting thicker, I can barely see in front of me. I try to lie down, I hear voices. “Come quick, Kellie’s bleeding, call 911.” The hysterics I hear around me are torturing me, inflicting more pain than what is already present. I let myself go, slowly at first. “ How could she do this? What happened to her” I closed my eyes in desperation? The pain is unbearable, that’s my mothers voice I hear, she is so upset I feel bad, what have I done? I cannot hang on any longer my lungs are heaving drawing in no air, just gusts of bloody water the heaving of my chest is almost motionless. I hear loud sirens and shouting voices, “I love you baby, don’t leave us. We’re here for you. Baby what’s going on? Is everything really that bad?” I finally accomplished what my whole goal was. My life is over. I don’t want to return to this hell I’ve been living in. But my mom she loves me so much. I love her too. Could there be hope? Should I give life another chance? Maybe just one more day? I suck in air. My concentration Is focused on the task at hand. Breathe in… hold…breathe out…hold…breathe in…hold…breathe out. My body is numb and I am in so much pain. “Sweet heart hold on, I love you! I don’t know where my life will be without you! Mommy I am trying, I am trying so hard, it’s this pain that’s taking me captive, mommy I love you too. I don’t want this now mommy. I want you to hold me in your arms and read me a bedtime story. I want to sit on papa’s lap and eat laffy taffy. Mommy! I want just one more day. (¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨) |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Intense, amazing and powerful. Kethry Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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Amara Member
since 2003-02-23
Posts 158East of the moon, west of the sun. |
Wow. Amazing, full of emotion! And I love your critique quote. ^^ Your signature too. Every heart has hidden treasures...a secret wish, a silent dream, and a cherished love. [Unknown] |
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Larry C![]()
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Kellie, Not an easy read for me. Guess that means it was well done. ![]() If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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CwboyAtHeart Senior Member
since 2001-04-14
Posts 541Selah, WA, USA |
This is good... I know you can make it through this, and I'm here for you. - Cody - |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Kellie - this one is just amazing - awesome write: and this - hurt - I want you to hold me in your arms and read me a bedtime story. I want to sit on papa’s lap and eat laffy taffy. Mommy! I want just one more day. Me too Kellie - me too Peace to you xxoo |
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Jason Lyle Senior Member
since 2003-02-07
Posts 1438With my darkling |
I dont know what to say, I have really enjoyed your writes, you have much talent.But this smacks of suicide and weakness.sorry if I have read it wrong. Jason |
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Kellie_Cantrell Senior Member
since 2002-05-22
Posts 1667New York |
Kethry:"Intense, amazing and powerful. Kethry" Thank you. Yes, it is intense, lucky for me I am able to go through a lot and then let the pain seep from my heart with words instead of action! amara: "Wow. Amazing, full of emotion! And I love your critique quote. ^^ Your signature too. Amara" Thank You..about sig and critique messages.. Yes emotion where would we be with out it? Larry: "Kellie, Not an easy read for me. Guess that means it was well done Larry" I do apologize for being so graphic in the nature. I am so thankful for the courage you have given me to change from someone who in the past had the capability to live this story to now a person with the strength to release the powerless feeling in writing. Thank You for everything! Cody: "This is good... I know you can make it through this, and I'm here for you. - Cody -" Hey! Your an awesome friend.. Thanks for chatting with me on AIM. I will make it through this I know I will. Even though I may feel on the contrary. I will not lose hope because God has an awesome future for me!!! ![]() Little Wing: "Kellie - this one is just amazing - awesome write: and this - hurt - I want you to hold me in your arms and read me a bedtime story. I want to sit on papa’s lap and eat laffy taffy. Mommy! I want just one more day. Me too Kellie - me too Peace to you xxoo littlewing" Thank You... Yes, my memories of my childhood! I wish they were still around! Jason: "I dont know what to say, I have really enjoyed your writes, you have much talent.But this smacks of suicide and weakness.sorry if I have read it wrong. Jason" Well Jas...Your right it is 100% about weakness and suicide and the wish to overcome it. To go bck to a childhood that is dearly missed. Thanks!! (¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨) |
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