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Rocks and Hard Places
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Rocks and Hard Places |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere 
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Okay, so maybe I was wrong, I’m not as cool with things as I thought I was. Habituated to there’s nothing I can do to stop it anyway ideology, the unacceptable takes a seat at the table in the comfort zone. Between a rock and a hard place, they say, is a dangerous position to be in if you are of the depressive type. From experience I can attest, it's true. The hell of helplessness cries for mercy, pleads for the peace of purgatory. What worries me is only a waste of my imagination. How do you stop something from forming in the back of your mind, before you even know it's there? Worry creates anxiety that triggers panic I can not afford to feel. Like a pillow over its face, I try to smother it with food, so I’ll feel better for a bit Then the food makes me feel worse. Between rocks and hard places it is hard to breathe. I’d rather not go there, I can not function in fear. I say with a smile It is a form of denial. Whatever gets you through the day I say as I succumb to my sugar addiction. Sometimes you deal with the facts by living in fiction. LGR(C)5/19/20 |
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666California |
Any addiction can be a scary thing. We tend to beat ourselves up more and do more damage to ourselves than if we'd just accept a slip and walk away. Someone once told me guilt is motivation, and it's true. While the world will guilt-trip manipulate you into anything it wishes, self-guilt seems to come with a much higher price tag. A wounded person whose walk pulls them to the left or right finds themselves walking in circles. The harder they press they press themselves, the quicker they come full circle. They wonder why they never get anywhere. There are other choices out there, different directions to try and walk, different things to set your eyes on, goals that could or would fulfill you more than whatever your addiction of choice is. or you could do like some of us do and just stop walking. Only real truth I know is life is too short to keep beating yourself up. the time for questioning your action is before, not after consumption. It's the only time you can do anything about said action after-all. |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Michael, I appreciate your kind and wise words. I'm literally killing myself with my lifestyle (recliner riding, carb consuming smoker) I am making progress with baby steps, one day at a time. Thank you for your support. Bless your heart. ~L |
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2islander2 Member Ascendant
since 2008-03-12
Posts 6825by the sea |
you say wonderful things, i think we can't function in fear, better in smiles, all addictions build illusions, for a while, then it is worse, sugar is not a solution, i like the ending, a way to find other writes, for getting along moving poetry here, thanks yann |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
Oh Yann! Bless your heart. I always enjoy hearing from you. Thank you! ~L |
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