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It Scared Me
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It Scared Me |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana 
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 I was up to here with poetry and transgressions but wasn’t in tune with the real of my reality not ready to don my genuine identity to the world I was so close the poetry made of me something real not like my fraudulent self it scared me I was pouring out the words of life on the street the women, the drink, the drugs and in these poems so very amateurish in the beginning but they were how I was it seems I was discovering another Jerry one I never knew was there it scared me slowly the poems became more organized tried different styles studied the craft learned from some of the masters my words, in many cases were rude, crude and venomous many times I wondered where the words were coming from but I knew and it scared me they were coming from old wounds and scars somehow I knew it was imperative I write about them the pressure was great I was so full of poverty of the soul it was a make or break time I had to hold firm and take hold of my inner demon it was a bumpy ride and it scared me still . . . I persevered and my friends through it all, through it all I wrote myself into who I truly was ©January 29, 2014 / Jerry Pat Bolton ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
I can so relate to this, Jerry. I have found that the more I write the more it slowly improves and it has bee great therapy for me. Ida |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I know that I am not alone, Ida. Without my writing it truly does scare me to think where I might have been. ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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Lori Grosser Rhoden Member Patricius
since 2009-10-10
Posts 10202Fair to middlin' of nowhere |
"...and it scared me." The perfect line to repeat. Growth is scary, unglamorous and very underrated. It is good to see you hold the torch high for the rest of us my friend. Good morning Jerry! Lori  |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
Good early, early morning to you, Lori. Headed out to a doctor's visit. Thank you for being here. ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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2islander2 Member Ascendant
since 2008-03-12
Posts 6825by the sea |
hi jerry, a very confession, we are so many to write for surviving, for knowing some truth about old wounds, your poem give directions to prospect and emotion to consider with humility, have a nice day yann |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I'm beginning to believe, Yann, that all poets, at least all serious poets write for survival and to unearth the real selves. Thank you for stopping by. ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Hi Jerry. I think what you are beginning to believe is totally correct but there's this thing at the back of my mind that tells me that I may have survived better if I hadn't been led into the writers web. I may not have known my "true self" as you say but I think survival would have been easier because what I uncovered doesn't seem to fit into this wild, wild, word - and that's scary! |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
I hear you, Helen. I know the feeling because I was there once. The only thing I can say to your words is that maybe you just haven't dug deeply enough. I finally did dig deep enough, so deep that I found myself forgiving myself. I truly believe that is the crucial step to being able to forgive others, to truly forgive others. Then peace comes to you. ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
I like that you have been able to purge yourself of all those old haunts.You found the better person and must have known he was there all the time.I am a huge believer that we are all of us many persons inside and you have proven that, as you grew through your delving and writing. Now that you have made a pact with your other self, life is still open to you.Who knows what is lurking around the corner? Smiling broadly here for you.Take a part of it it and use it openly.Best to you, JO |
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JerryPat2 Member Laureate
since 2011-02-06
Posts 16975South Louisiana |
Jo, I thank you very much for your thoughts on my poem. I'm of the age where my future may not be too long, although I am in pretty good shape, thanks to what I call my miracle drugs. That I may not have too many years left doesn't bother me a lot. I am grateful that I have found peace of mind after all these years. Your comments were very sweet, and I thank you again. ~*~ If they give you ruled paper write sideways. ~*~ |
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