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jwesley
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-04-30

Posts 7563
Spring, Texas

0 posted 2015-02-17 01:33 PM

Door To Oblivion

So I looked around and found down deep inside me
that which had been beaten down so many times,
found the essence of my soul cowardly hiding
just before the door to oblivion,
found a spark,
fanned it to a flame,
a roaming malevolence that defied defiance,
that swore allegiance to the devil himself
rather than be beaten insensible again.

So I looked around from high above all
that would suck the essence from my life,
and pounded to the ground those that threatened
and aligned myself with perceptions ugly face.

I became those who prostituted themselves
to the beast that feeds on the misery of others.
I looked around again,
and there You stood,
as you always had,
with the same enigmatic smile You always wore
through all the abuse,
the browbeating,
the terrible things I'd accuse You of,
while I, Satan's prostitute,
considered myself so much more than You.

And I looked at the ground beneath your feet,
saw the bloody stains of my sins
and cried for the terrible things I'd done to You.

I looked around again,
saw You smile,
open Your arms,
invite me in…
and I knew with You
I'd never be the same again.

So I closed my eyes and slept
for the first time since I don't know when,
in the arms of the Father and the Son,
and the knowledge
that I'd never be alone,

again.

© wesley james beard, jr.

(Please don't assume everything I write is based on my personal life...)

[This message has been edited by jwesley (02-17-2015 08:09 PM).]

Margherita
Member Seraphic

since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

1 posted 2015-02-17 04:47 PM

Very intense and great visuals in this powerful poem of ... "ascension into peace", dear Jimmy.

To reestablish harmony within, forgiveness of one's own behaviors is necessary. The process is perfectly rendered here.

Peace,
Margherita

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

2 posted 2015-02-28 08:31 PM

nice to read...james

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

3 posted 2015-02-28 09:53 PM

O Jimmy,one never knows where you will go. High and rising or down to the deep but whatever road you take you always shine and brighten the way. loved it. JO

jjote
Senior Member

since 2002-12-25

Posts 1088
Ontario, Canada

4 posted 2015-02-28 11:52 PM

this is a good piece for meditation on a Lenten season that brings awareness that despite our past transgressions, Someone is always ready with open arms to welcome us to His embrace.

Pilgrimage
Member Elite

since 2001-12-04

Posts 3945
Texas, USA

5 posted 2015-02-28 11:55 PM

So well done. I like this very much.

Nan (Pilgrim variety)

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

6 posted 2015-03-01 08:28 AM

Jimmy-
Your work is so right on the mark. You always leave us with something profound. I'm always delighted to read you my friend. ~L

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