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Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

0 posted 2013-06-23 12:23 PM

I'm Queen of denial
comfortably reclining
on my barge of bovine fecal bliss

I refuse to accept
my self inflicted
and autoimmune
To give my body's
fragile health
only healing things

As sure as
I am putting these
words to paper
I'm killing myself

I am the perfect storm
With chocolate as
my witness
I swear
I am a stroke
waiting to happen

A massive heart attack
on my horizon
does not detour me
from my compulsions
and addictions

Depression is my shadow
and it is never
high noon
in denial
LGR(C)6/23/13

JerryPat2
Member Laureate

since 2011-02-06

Posts 16975
South Louisiana

1 posted 2013-06-23 12:57 PM

I don't think what you say is funny, although it was meant that way. I almost killed myself before I admitted, really admitted, that I was committing suicide and I took preventive measures. Hope you will do the same . . . soon.

~*~ If they give you lined paper, write sideways. ~*~

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

2 posted 2013-06-23 01:49 PM

I was trying to sugar coat the truth I guess. And you are right, my dear friend, SOON is the key word.

Michael

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-13

Posts 7666
California

3 posted 2013-06-23 02:57 PM

Wow... what an awesome ending. At least you dared to peek in on yourself, most never will, and be anywhere near honest with themselves about what they saw. You know I am geared toward darkness anyhow, so you're probably not surprised to to find I absolutely loved this entire piece. Well done.

Michael

Alison

Member Rara Avis

since 2008-01-27

Posts 9318
Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy!

4 posted 2013-06-24 06:50 AM

Ditto to the "Wow".

Krawdad
Member Elite

since 2001-01-03

Posts 2597

5 posted 2013-06-25 01:54 AM

Hard to pull that plug
or even reach for it . . .

I sometimes
look into a mirror
and wonder at my disguise.

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

6 posted 2013-06-30 08:00 AM

Michael, forgive my lateness in responding to comments on this poem...Denial and adversion seem to be coconspiritors. I have referenced this subjuct before as slittling my wrists with a butter knife. Yes, you do dark very well, too well for me some times,
I can only read you in small doses. You paint pain with Norman Rockwell accuracy.

Lori

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

7 posted 2013-06-30 08:02 AM

Allison! Always good to hear from you! Thanks for the WOW! It means alot coming from you.

Lori

Lori Grosser Rhoden
Member Patricius

since 2009-10-10

Posts 10202
Fair to middlin' of nowhere

8 posted 2013-06-30 08:07 AM

Krawdad, I love it that you used the word disguise... we do become masters of it don't we. Very insightful. Thanks for your comment

Lori

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