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Eleven Years Ago Yesterday
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Eleven Years Ago Yesterday |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa 
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ELEVEN YEARS AGO YESTERDAY 29 April 2013 You, Flicka, the horse-angel of my dreams and my reality of twenty and a half years together, and my unabated joys, left this earth eleven years ago yesterday after thirty-seven and a half years that you blessed this earth. All those who met you instantly felt your love for all humanity and living creatures. Horses and dogs and cats and ducks and people were drawn to you and automatically were unafraid of you and loved you as you loved them. We had all sorts of conversations about succulent grass and how the rotation of the earth on its tilted axis causes day and night and how the revolution of the earth around the sun causes the seasons and I miss those conversations so much. Nobody else listens to me as you did nor nuzzles me in agreement. I forever feel your forever love every day in the sky and cloud messages you and Tigger and Daisy paint me as you all gambol across the sky. Forgive me my darling horse that I still cry my eyes out without you. I know that you know that I don’t begrudge you your happiness in Heaven and I know that you and Tigger and Daisy will await me when I join you, but my sweet, sweet, horse, it is so difficult without you. Time doesn’t heal. Owl |
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EmmaRose Senior Member
since 2011-03-02
Posts 1376Midwest |
Your eloquent words give credence to the manner in which an animal can have a most profound impact on our lives and how safe we feel loving them knowing they are incapable of such 'human' qualities as greed, deceit, abuse, rudeness, etc....the list goes on. How wonderful to have the opportunity to feel this deeply about your dear ones. |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you, EmmaRose, for your compassionate understanding. For many, many others, some whom I hardly knew or didn’t know at all, Flicka was a legend and a loving and loved friend. For me, he was my life, my rock, my joy - and my time with him was the highlight of my every day for the 20½ years that we belonged to each other, during the 37½ years he spent on earth. Owl |
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Kit McCallum
Administrator
Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
This put a lump in my throat, yet a smile on my face Owl. You have captured your friendship beautifully. This brings back a host of wonderful memories of my own furry friends who have lovingly passed. Thank you for this lovely read this morning.  Best wishes, /Kit |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you, Kit. Flicka was the most wonderful horse on the planet. I was so very, very blessed to have been his mother for 20½ years. I have always said that the level of pain at the loss, shows the greatness of the gift, and oh boy, do I know how greatly I was blessed. Owl |
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Lighthousebob Member Elite
since 2000-06-14
Posts 4725California |
What a nice tribute to Flicka and the relationship you had together, (Sigh of condolence), but, at the same time, you did put a smile of optimism on my face because of your faith that Flicka as well as your other pets have gathered together in their painting of the sky and in wait for your arrival. Enjoyed! |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you, Bob, for your beautiful and compassionate reply. Owl |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
"It has been said," 'time heals all wounds' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting it's sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." Rose Kennedy Hugs, Diana. Ida |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thanks for understanding so well, Ida, and for the hugs. Rose Kennedy is right, not that I have experienced too much lessening of the pain, though. Owl |
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2islander2 Member Ascendant
since 2008-03-12
Posts 6825by the sea |
hello Diana, your feelings are so true, I am proud to know flicka and honoring animals in their gentleness and friendship, I was so surprised three days a go, when I dreamt of a dog called "Jam" who died 20 years ago, this meant that animals are really sharing life with us.... have a nice day yann |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you for your beautiful reply, Yann, and especially thank you for being proud to know Flicka - that means such a lot to me. Thank you for loving Jam. I am sure that he/she, in Heaven, knows that you dreamed of him/her. At the moment I am trying to save the life of a dog called Rambo who can be killed by the SPCA any day if he they haven't already done so. It is a long story that I don't have time to tell now. Time is of the essence, and I have to do everything I can. Have to rush. Owl |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
and I miss those conversations so much. Nobody else listens to me as you did nor nuzzles me in agreement. I forever feel your forever love every day The entire poem touches me deeply - but you know why these lines go straight to my heart... and down my cheeks in tears. We are lucky to have shared their lives and known such love and delighted in their personalities... but oh, their passings leave so much empty. Hugs to you. |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Yes, Ruth, I do know. It is so true that the greatness of the pain in their passing is because of the greatness of the gift of them in the first place, but that doesn't stop the pain. Thank you for your kindness and compassion, to me, to my beloved animals and to yours. You are indeed a blessing to us all. Owl |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Fine emotional writing...I believe that time does heal as we are able to let go...still I know that no one wants to let go of love...yet it is the attachments we must release not the love...James |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thanks for your reply, James. You are welcome to your opinion. However, it is not a case of what I must or must not do. I choose the attachment and I won't let it go. I need it and I want it. Owl |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Forgive me if you believe I am telling you what you must do...James |
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Alison
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
We had all sorts of conversations about succulent grass and how the rotation of the earth on its tilted axis causes day and night and how the revolution of the earth around the sun causes the seasons and I miss those conversations so much. Nobody else listens to me as you did nor nuzzles me in agreement. ---- What wonderful conversations you and your Flicka shared, Wol. Perhaps she is writing poetry in the clouds that you look up at - to share her poetry with you. xoxoxo Alison |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Nothing to forgive and no hard feelings, James. Just had to say that I am not letting go of the connection as he (my horse, Flicka) was my life for 20½ years (he was 37½ human years old when he went to Heaven and fit and healthy up to 6 days before he went to Heaven) and I am not letting go of it, as that connection with him is my life and sustains me, as is the connection with my dog, Daisy who was 14½ when she went to Heaven, and my cat, Tigger, who was 15½ when he went to Heaven. Thank you Alison, for your lovely message. You are right. He and Tigger and Daisy write me cloud and sky messages every day. That started before he went to Heaven. Gilbert, the head groom (who had been working at the stables for 30 years), went to Heaven 3 months and 15 days before him and sent Flicka and me cloud messages every day and Flicka and I talked about it. That was where he got the idea from when he went to Heaven. I think Gilbert may have taught him how. Then when Daisy went to Heaven, Flicka taught Daisy to help him. Then when Tigger went to Heaven, Flicka and Daisy taught him and now they do it all together. I don't care if anyone reading this thinks I am crazy. Owl |
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Alison
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
I think you are wonderful. |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Thank you, Alison. You have no idea how much I appreciate that and how it is helping to keep the bits of me together. It couldn't have come at a better time. I want to tell you about Rambo, a dog, when I am strong enough, but that isn't now. I will email you about him when I am. I am sure you know that I think you are wonderful too, but just in case you don't, I do. Wol |
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