Living and Dying in My Mind

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JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

0 posted 2010-10-08 10:34 PM

Living and Dying in My Mind

Time was ticking,
six years had turned into three
and I was starting to believe
that I might make it
through another winter and summer
and another and another,
until it was the year of my release
from this prison somewhere in hell,
where few survived with storys to tell,
and why would they want to tell
this story from hell.
To even think of it is to relive it.
Many times, I would think crazy things,
things like my tormentors forgetting about
my release date, or throwing away the key,
perhaps wanting to forever torment me.
If I let my mind wander
I could temporarily release the pain
and misery living inside my mind
and the physical pain of hard labor
that was slowly but surely destroying
my mind and my body in kind.
Nary a day goes by without
me thinking this, "If I could die today
I would release myself from this sorrow
and my life would be simpler and easier
in the freedom of tomorrow."

JamesLee
07October
2010

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

1 posted 2010-10-08 11:05 PM

Aww geez James, this is a sad tale although your ending was freeing.
Your captured the torment and the struggle so vividly and I felt you here.

Now then, tell me this isn't a true story?

Best to you~

Yuka
Member

since 2010-08-19

Posts 71
china

2 posted 2010-10-09 04:28 AM

to be or not to be
always a question
good day and good luck to you, James

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

3 posted 2010-10-09 01:25 PM

Startling glimpse of the real James.
Ida

s1nfully_1nn0c3nt
Senior Member

since 2003-10-26

Posts 1105
Watertown, NY

4 posted 2010-10-09 02:42 PM

Nary a day goes by without
me thinking this, "If I could die today
I would release myself from this sorrow
and my life would be simpler and easier
in the freedom of tomorrow."

Tomorrow is so promising is it not? I really like this...I'm glad i found this right before bed, cause when I wake - it'll be tomorrow. Lovely.

There are places in the heart that do not yet exist; suffering has to enter in for them to come to be - LeonBloy

bel1e
Senior Member

since 2006-07-24

Posts 1631

5 posted 2010-10-09 07:37 PM

~~enjoyed this~*~*

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

6 posted 2010-10-10 11:29 AM

enjoyed

Andrew Scott
Member Elite

since 1999-06-24

Posts 2558
Redlands,CA,USA

7 posted 2010-10-10 05:55 PM

I'm sure that many others have thought the same. At first I thought this might be a piece on trying to survive cancer, but reading further on led me elsewhere. I think this piece as multiple possibilities... a good sign in my mind.

"We'll chase them like rats across the tundra."

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