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MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

0 posted 2009-12-17 07:11 PM

I've always wondered about those
young sophisticates who always
have the right words
  know this from that
and
    have it all together...
They say it's a gift.

Whoever "they" are
    and
Whatever "it" is

And this is I...
always talking out of turn
out of time
and
out of that place
where thoughts are as clear as bells

Caring more for the truth
than
for the appearance of it.
I've been told
I look too closely
  stand too strong
and
    want too much...
They say it's a flaw

But then -
"they" say a lot
     and at the same time...
nothing at all

No insult meant -
     or so I'm told
It's only to help me fit in.
But into what...
     I'll never know

So I wonder -
Is it that their happiness is contagious
    or
that their misery is lonely...

But until I'm sure -
    then
This is I
  as I ever was...
     Respectfully

If I don't say it...who will?

[This message has been edited by MorningStar (12-17-2009 10:17 PM).]

Earth Angel
Member Empyrean

since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

1 posted 2009-12-17 10:34 PM

Continue to march to the beat of your own drum! Who wants to be like 'them'! You're unique and special! ~ and I like you! This poem is so refreshing, honest, and real. Honestly, I think most of us feel like the proverbial square peg in a round hole! I actually like being a bit of a square! lol

Sending BIG (((HUG))) your way!

Linda

www.lindadowd.com

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

2 posted 2009-12-17 11:31 PM

Thank you Linda! Today was one of THOSE days. You know - everything goes wrong, and you can't do anything right... So, I've decided to just keep doing left!

If I don't say it...who will?

shalisadefa
Member

since 2009-08-13

Posts 114

3 posted 2009-12-23 07:09 AM

always hold on to your true self
everything else is 'relative'

SlowlyFallAway
Member

since 2008-08-29

Posts 279
North Carolina

4 posted 2009-12-23 12:36 PM

"No insult meant -
     or so I'm told
It's only to help me fit in.
But into what...
     I'll never know

So I wonder -
Is it that their happiness is contagious
    or
that their misery is lonely..."

That was amazing.
I'm struggling with that question as I read it.

2islander2
Member Ascendant

since 2008-03-12

Posts 6825
by the sea

5 posted 2009-12-23 12:39 PM

very clever poem, thanks for sharing

yann

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

6 posted 2009-12-23 07:09 PM

Shalisadefa - thank you for reading and for taking the time to comment - it means a lot.

SlowlyFallAway - thanks for your very kind words!! I too have been turning these questions in my mind. For so long, in fact that it had to use it.

2islander2 - Thanks for stopping by! I appreciate your comments.

If I don't say it...who will?

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

7 posted 2009-12-27 03:35 AM

Ha ha! You're right, MorningStar, The Emperor has no clothes.
Ida

LivingConfused
Junior Member

since 2009-12-27

Posts 40

8 posted 2009-12-27 11:52 AM

I like it. Reminds me (again) I am not alone. The portion I like and remember is "Caring more for the truth than for the appearance of it".

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

9 posted 2009-12-30 03:54 PM

Marchmadness & Living Confused - Thank you both. I appreciate you taking time to read my ramblings ;0)

If I don't say it...who will?

viking_metal
Senior Member

since 2007-02-02

Posts 1337
In a Jeep, Minnesota.

10 posted 2009-12-31 11:15 AM

Very good write, surely one of your best.

Fall in love early, fall in love often.

latearrival
Member Ascendant

since 2003-03-21

Posts 5499
Florida

11 posted 2009-12-31 12:55 PM

"And this is I...
always talking out of turn
out of time
and
out of that place
where thoughts are as clear as bells

Caring more for the truth
than
for the appearance of it.
I've been told
I look too closely
  stand too strong
and
    want too much...
They say it's a flaw"

No "Flaw" seen  here at all.  "They" are  not  listening. you are playing the game correctly. I just know you have some very good friends who understand you or  want to. If not, you have most of the PIP board on your side. Best to you, latearrival

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

12 posted 2010-01-03 08:52 PM

Paul - Aww, gee - thanks!!

Latearrival - you're right, there are those who love me as I am and those who don't... Either way, " I am what I am - and that's all I am". Thank you!

If I don't say it...who will?

The Lady
Member Rara Avis

since 2005-12-26

Posts 7634
The Southwest

13 posted 2010-05-12 10:51 AM

"So I wonder -
Is it that their happiness is contagious
or
that their misery is lonely..."

this is an amazing, clear work and I wish I had written it. it flows like water and speaks in an unconstrained voice.

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

14 posted 2010-05-12 03:40 PM

Thank you so much for you very kind words! I'm very glad you enjoyed.

If I don't say it...who will?

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