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MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

0 posted 2009-11-02 12:46 PM

Dear Daddy,

Today I sat down to write you a letter
but it's been so long since we last spoke
that I didn't know what to say
We never needed words before...

Of course I remember
a love that was quiet and sure
How you loved...how I trusted you
What words speak more clearly than that

Now seated at my desk
accompanied only by hollow silence
I cry

In the past
our silences were soothing and loving
filled with compassion and understanding
a quickness to forgive...the chance to be forgiven

But now, as I sit staring at this blank page
the silence is more than I can bear

So I cry - for us,
for what could have been
for what should have been...
and for what is

I search for the words that will erase the past
needing to hear, have done, or have said
that one thing that will take us back
Make it all right again

But in my heart I know
some things once said - can never be unsaid
some things once done - can never be undone
and some places once gone - can never be returned

Today I sat down to write you a letter
and all I could do was cry
It's been so long since we last spoke
I didn't know what to say

So only tears filled the page

If I don't say it...who will?

Mysteria

Member Laureate

since 2001-03-07

Posts 18328
British Columbia, Canada

1 posted 2009-11-02 12:54 PM

So I cry - for us,
for what could have been
for what should have been...
and for what is

So poignant, and true for many of us. I think we cry for what could have been, but never was.

Very well done.

Mysteria

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

2 posted 2009-11-02 04:38 PM

I cry for my Daddy... but it helps that I have very few regrets... we had time and had talks and I did the best I could. The story's a lot different for my Mother... these words resonate deeply:
So I cry - for us,
for what could have been
for what should have been...
and for what is

This is a wonderful, painful write... words can't be unsaid and actions can't be undone... but forgiveness is always possible.

Alison

Member Rara Avis

since 2008-01-27

Posts 9318
Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy!

3 posted 2009-11-03 02:18 AM

I'd send him this poem. Oh and your picture - I'd send him that too if he doesn't have it.

This poem is a keeper for any daughters who have had issues with their fathers - unresolved issues. You speak to a hole in my heart.

Alison

SlowlyFallAway
Member

since 2008-08-29

Posts 279
North Carolina

4 posted 2009-11-03 10:53 AM

Beautifully said

oh_ok
Junior Member

since 2009-07-20

Posts 17

5 posted 2009-11-03 12:37 PM

Painfully beautiful.

AncientHippie
Member

since 2009-10-15

Posts 411
Surfing the Cosmic Flow

6 posted 2009-11-03 01:55 PM

Beautiful piece, MorningStar. I am so glad that this is not an echo of the relationship I have with my three daughters. Very poignant, and well crafted. You have the art!
Jim

"We are stardust: we are golden: and we've got to get ourselves back to the garden." --Joni Mitchell "Woodstock"

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

7 posted 2009-11-03 03:12 PM

Thanks everyone! This was really, REALLY hard to write, so thank you so much for the support.

If I don't say it...who will?

viking_metal
Senior Member

since 2007-02-02

Posts 1337
In a Jeep, Minnesota.

8 posted 2009-11-04 12:40 PM

Let the page dry out, and write him a letter. Fathers like that sort of thing.

This was touching. I know the feeling. I'm the same way with my mother.

I love my dog, and my truck. It's that simple, really.

kindredspirit
Member

since 2009-05-19

Posts 156

9 posted 2009-11-05 11:45 AM

This is beautiful and poignant.
Write to him, and perhaps include this poem.

Osprey
Member

since 2009-04-12

Posts 249

10 posted 2009-11-07 08:04 PM

Many will relate to the poignancy of you well-written poem.
A mass of knotted thread can never return, undamaged, to the reel; but it can be untangled.

MorningStar
Member

since 2009-10-26

Posts 290
Pittsburgh, Pa

11 posted 2009-11-07 09:32 PM

Paul & Kindred - thank you both for the support. In this area it is especially appreciated, since this is a very tender subject for me.

Osprey - what an encouraging sentiment. Your words did my heart good. Thank you!

If I don't say it...who will?

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

12 posted 2009-11-10 06:28 PM

Just send him the poem. It says it all in such a beautiful and touching way.
Ida

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