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rhia_5779
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0 posted 2009-01-03 12:18 PM



Crystal tears bleed from my soul
scars of silence and painful memories
just don't heal quick enough

Forcing myself to fake a smile
when all I want to do is just cry
pretending my heart is still whole
as the pieces have just broken

Its the feeling of a skinned knee
vulnerable- and open to the air
as rubbing alcohol cleans it

Making my friends come with me,now
because I'm terrified I'll walk away
Look back and they'll have disappeared
as if they never existed in the first place


Every few steps away I take
Towards forgetting the loneliness
ends in remembering vividly

looking for my friends at lunch
and knowing in a striking instant
they were talking and laughing about me
and that it would never be the same


Fighting the urge to pull away
and sink into the dark shadows
waiting for the fall to come

Whispered joking secrets spoke around me
are the spark for a cascade of pain squeezing my heart
brought back to the cruel comments
spoken just loud enough for me to hear


three months of shunning
being Isolated so I’d break down
Flaunting their exclusive friendship

Listening to my ipod at Lunch
They were afraid others would notice
If they lost the image of no conflict
Didn’t matter- I was still outcast

When they were bored
Pretended to let me in again
A hilarious game- I just didn’t laugh

Notes about exclusive sleepovers
Passed through me to each other
reminders of how much I’d lost
as if I could forget- existing on the fringe

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1 posted 2009-01-03 10:14 AM


so many things...

first...

"Crystal tears bleed from my soul
scars of silence and painful memories
just don't heal quick enough

Forcing myself to fake a smile
when all I want to do is just cry
pretending my heart is still whole
as the pieces have just broken"

this part knows me well. I lost my dad this past May, and it still hurts more than I have words for.

as for the rest about those so called friends....please tell me you realize what a bunch of loosers they are!!! Exclusive? To who?! Only them. My God, those are exactly who you DON'T want to be around, let them exclude you, they are doing you a favor! The fact is, you see them for the monsters they really are, you see what they see in the mirror, that is why they are so mean to you, you are not a monster, and misery loves company....they can't have you so they try to hurt you instead. Know that you are better than them

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2 posted 2009-01-03 10:26 AM


Wow....... This just simply blew me away..  I know that feeling of being excluded from your friends all two well. And the firs two stanza's just fit with what i was feeling so well.. Sea is right about that. She's a very wise women listen to what she has to say. lol. Great write hun.

-Zach

So together but so broken inside

rhia_5779
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3 posted 2009-01-04 06:40 PM



I"m not friends with them anymore and what actually happend was two years ago its just still hard to completely get over. My friends now are really good and love me.

GothicCherry
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4 posted 2009-01-27 09:56 PM


I honestly have to say that I have never lost any of my true friends. I'm probably too stubborn to really let them go. From the way you describe it, I am thankful for the companions in my life. I've lost many people, yet I know most of my friends will always be around. I'm glad you finally found a group of mates that you feel that security with. . . . Good write.
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