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Scars that mark you
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Scars that mark you |
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rhia_5779 Senior Member
since 2006-06-09
Posts 1334California |
Crystal tears bleed from my soul scars of silence and painful memories just don't heal quick enough Forcing myself to fake a smile when all I want to do is just cry pretending my heart is still whole as the pieces have just broken Its the feeling of a skinned knee vulnerable- and open to the air as rubbing alcohol cleans it Making my friends come with me,now because I'm terrified I'll walk away Look back and they'll have disappeared as if they never existed in the first place Every few steps away I take Towards forgetting the loneliness ends in remembering vividly looking for my friends at lunch and knowing in a striking instant they were talking and laughing about me and that it would never be the same Fighting the urge to pull away and sink into the dark shadows waiting for the fall to come Whispered joking secrets spoke around me are the spark for a cascade of pain squeezing my heart brought back to the cruel comments spoken just loud enough for me to hear three months of shunning being Isolated so I’d break down Flaunting their exclusive friendship Listening to my ipod at Lunch They were afraid others would notice If they lost the image of no conflict Didn’t matter- I was still outcast When they were bored Pretended to let me in again A hilarious game- I just didn’t laugh Notes about exclusive sleepovers Passed through me to each other reminders of how much I’d lost as if I could forget- existing on the fringe |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
so many things... first... "Crystal tears bleed from my soul scars of silence and painful memories just don't heal quick enough Forcing myself to fake a smile when all I want to do is just cry pretending my heart is still whole as the pieces have just broken" this part knows me well. I lost my dad this past May, and it still hurts more than I have words for. as for the rest about those so called friends....please tell me you realize what a bunch of loosers they are!!! Exclusive? To who?! Only them. My God, those are exactly who you DON'T want to be around, let them exclude you, they are doing you a favor! The fact is, you see them for the monsters they really are, you see what they see in the mirror, that is why they are so mean to you, you are not a monster, and misery loves company....they can't have you so they try to hurt you instead. Know that you are better than them  |
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Falling rain
since 2008-01-31
Posts 2178Small town, Illinois |
Wow....... This just simply blew me away.. I know that feeling of being excluded from your friends all two well. And the firs two stanza's just fit with what i was feeling so well.. Sea is right about that. She's a very wise women listen to what she has to say.  lol. Great write hun. -Zach So together but so broken inside |
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rhia_5779 Senior Member
since 2006-06-09
Posts 1334California |
I"m not friends with them anymore and what actually happend was two years ago its just still hard to completely get over. My friends now are really good and love me. |
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GothicCherry Member
since 2008-09-16
Posts 471TN |
I honestly have to say that I have never lost any of my true friends. I'm probably too stubborn to really let them go. From the way you describe it, I am thankful for the companions in my life. I've lost many people, yet I know most of my friends will always be around. I'm glad you finally found a group of mates that you feel that security with. . . . Good write. |
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