Dark Poetry #5 |
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voice2bheard Senior Member
since 2007-10-19
Posts 591New York |
I don't think that I could ever possibly explain any of this that's been happening, can you? Trust me I've tried to walk away so many times now, more than I could count and that sure didn't work either You would think that you leaving would make things easier, but that's wrong, it only makes me want you more Why are things like this?, only within a months time? Yet over and over again you, I can't seem to shake the feeling.. as I am yours, and I still want you to be mine I've tried to hate you, as that didn't even last an hour Trust me it got so bad, I even spent some time crying in the shower So what do we do as neither one of us want to walk away? I've still kept so much inside, as there's so many things to tell you, things I have left to say But I won't tell you a thing, as that is who I am I've always felt for the longest time, that no one would understand What its like to be around you, how you make me feel I can't count the times, where I would never believe a word from your mouth being real Yet you would prove me wrong time and time again So what does this mean for us, as I know I don't want us to end I'm not going to wait until I lose you, to know how good I had it, because I know it now I don't care how long its been between us, as we've both made it known As you've given me someone else that I want in my life, where for the first time in a long time, I don't want to be alone Your voice and how it sounds, I can never get it out of my head Its as if its a complete turn out, hell you don't even need to get me in a bed I understand that you've experienced life a bit differently than I have Yet still for some reason at times, it almost feels as if things between us, its only the beginning of what has yet to come So why is it at times that I feel like I may just be a game that you've won I realize that my trust is hard to achieve Just as any words from your mouth are hard to believe Still for some reason I really don't know what it is about you Why I like you so much, how you do the things that you do Every time when you come up behind me and whisper in my ear Even if its something that I don't or do want to hear The things that you've done, in such a short amount of time The thoughts that have been constantly on my mind When its full of what ifs and maybes or I don't knows In the end, what will we have to show for ourselves, what if you leave, or I go I know I've already said that I never want to say goodbye Its already been difficult for me, as tears have already fell from my eyes When all it took was you telling me that you'd be leaving To accept my true feelings for you, even if I still don't believe them I feel like its impossible, as we both still don't know Everything about each other, honestly admit it, we've just begun to grow So then why do I feel this way already A million miles a minute, a heartbeat that's never steady Butterflies that turn to moths to a flame Sunshine replaced by stolen kisses in the rain As I once again feel I am tempted to have forbidden fruit I'm just scared from previous experiences, of the possibility of being used If I am to let my guard down with you, then what does that say? Will these feelings be allowed, am I able to breathe, will we be okay? I hate promises, as most end up being broken You say you'd still be around, as if I'm the one who chose this I didn't know that this would happen, I didn't know there'd be someone like you Still no matter what I can't seem to back away, even after all that we've been through Is it possible to be honest, and tell you what I really have to say? If it is then why am I so nervous? As I'm feeling as if this may not be okay I've told you before that I didn't want to get hurt Yet how far am I really willing to go, how much to me are you really worth? More than I thought, that much I know As I hate saying goodbye, and I never want you to go If there was ever a possibility of you leaving my life I'd want you to know everything, I'd want to do my best to make things right Sometimes the best things in life are the hardest ones to fight for So should I really continue this fight, if it means getting knocked down once more When its so hard to breathe, and within just seconds of time You have no idea what its like, how badly I want you to be mine Its really gotten to the point where I don't know what to do Its very scary on myself, realizing that I may truly love you Kate |
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Clare Ite Member Posts 66 Where The Pallet Pins Play |
Yes, dear voice, you must express your feelings fearlessly and remain completely vulnerable. No risk? No love. It's the nature of it all and all that is in our nature is not bad. I always have time for you... |
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