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My Knight In Shining Armor
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My Knight In Shining Armor |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
This is still a little rough around the edges I think, but I wanted to share it with all of you anyway… There is another side… My Knight In Shining Armor Since the beginning… When the agony extinguishes all life giving rays, I begin drowning in sorrow and disparity, and my soul begs for relief, in a far off land he senses my cries, releases all that binds his attention and quests them out. Hi is formidable, this little warrior; Gibraltar’s mighty Rock. With a love all encompassing, inner currents lead him to my weeps. With courage far beyond his 9 winters, he boldly faces the pitch. Erect is his stance. He is ready to do battle. His weapons? The deepest topaz blues, unwavering, filled with immense knowledge and life. A smile so confident, so bright it casts its glow throughout all of the kingdom. Two small arms so great with care, so deep with compassion, they envelope and consume. And six little words that resonate volumes so massive they quake and shatter the solid stone walls of grief that imprison me: “It’s ok mom. I love you.” Crashing waves of searing salt are instantly calmed. The sun once again rises. The open wound of my heart is given yet another stitch. Sagging skeleton is brought upright. He knows he can claim victory; for my brightest smile tells him so. I fold him within my arms and hold him oh so tight. I sing to him of a love and need as great as the heavens that he longs for and deserves to hear. He is my knight in shining armor. He is my heart, my soul, he is the very essence of me. My hope. We reward each other for yet another battle fought and gloriously won… Off, around the neighborhood, him on 2 wheels, me on eight. Smiling, laughing together, enjoying a bike ride and skate. |
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hiddensmiles Senior Member
since 2008-02-07
Posts 514at the beach... i wish |
great and beautifully written JJ |
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xTr3m3sT Member
since 2008-03-03
Posts 415 |
Wow, this is like a motion picture unfolding through these words.... Excellent Imagery. |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
just beautiful Tammy...(((((hugs))))) love RDB Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight......... |
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CMGrimm Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 685USA |
beautiful picture.... and real... I love it.. Never be a carbon copy of anybody...make your own impressions. - ANON. |
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Marchmadness Member Rara Avis
since 2007-09-16
Posts 9271So. El Monte, California |
You're lucky to have such a galant knight to come to your rescue, Tammy. Ida |
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NeonKnight Junior Member
since 2008-04-12
Posts 36New South Wales, Australia |
That was very beautifully written. I will look out for more of your work on here. |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Tammy dear, I love this write with all my heart. Your little Knight is a beautiful boy and probably more mature than others of his same age, because of what he witnessed. Oh those words that he offers you ... they are a wondrous healing gift! Beautifully written! A very very touching write. Love and hugs, brave Mom. Margherita  |
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K-K Member
since 2008-03-13
Posts 153Indiana |
I find it amazing how brave they can be when our worlds crumble. Keep him close like your security blanket, for he needs all the love and comfort you can manage, Bless you, and thanks again for your wonderful write@!! |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
A joy to read...James |
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effjayel Senior Member
since 2007-09-30
Posts 1474At the Crossroads of Infinity |
Sweet Tammy, I bet Darrin is an enormous comfort to you...And I'm sure you are aware but he too feels your pain and young as he is, he is trying to ease it as much as he can in his own little ways. Obviously he is doing a good job and for that I am very happy...( smiling here at the thought of you trying to keep up with that little whirlwind !) Heart Hugs..John |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Hiddensmiles, Thank you so very much… I am so happy you liked it. ------------------------------- xTr3m3sT, Thank you my friend… You have just made my day! I am so happy you could actually see it happening…  ---------------------- RDB, Thank you so much my dear friend! BIG, GIANT HUGS BACK TO YOU!!! ------------------------------ CMGrimm, Thank you so much… I am so happy you could see my little knight! ____________________________ My dear Ida, Yes, I am so very fortunate to have Darrin… He is my heart and strength and my reason… He is like his brother in that he has a huge heart as well… __________________________________ NeonKnight, Thank you so much for such an awesome compliment on my writing… It means more to me than you could know. _________________________________ Oh dear Margherita, Thank you from the bottom of my heart… I am so very happy that you loved this one, I thought you might. You are right my little knight is more mature now as he knows true heartache and loss at such a tender age, but he has a big and strong heart and I think it may grow his compassion even more rather than make him cold… He is a tender heart like his brother and their dad. That is ALWAYS a good thing. And those words of his are a true gift from the heavens to me and his dad… ______________________________________________ K-K, Thank you so much my friend… Yes, I keep him so close without imprisoning him and always show him my love… He deserves it and Larry would haunt me if I did it any other way… __________________________________ James, Thank you so much my friend… I am so happy you enjoyed it. _______________________________- My dear John!!!! You have it backwards my friend!!!! That little whirlwind AND his friends have a hard time keeping up with ME!!!! hahaha I do not act or move my almost 40 years!!! Larry conditioned me for his little brother!!! And yes, Darrin is a HUGE comfort to me… He always senses when the tunnel has sucked me or his dad in and he is always right there to pull us back out. He does a fantastic job and we in turn make sure that he is comforted when he needs it and we make double sure that he knows how very happy we are that we still have him and that he is our world… Thank you my sweet friend… from the bottom of my heart… Tammy<333 |
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x-tears-x Junior Member
since 2008-04-13
Posts 43England |
I'm not going to pertend i get all of it.  but it sounds WONDERFUL. It is absulotely beautiful x |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Thank you so very much Tears… My oldest son Larry died, but his little brother, my 2nd and youngest son is still here. Every since his brother died I never believed in hiding my grief and pain from him but I do believe in letting him know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I love him every bit as much as his brother and letting him know how happy I am that he is still here with me. I would NEVER want him to think for even a split second that I would rather it have been him who died, so instead of hiding my pain from him and letting him think we shouldn’t cry when we hurt and miss someone or instead of him feeling that I don’t care that his brother is gone, I show him my pain, HOWEVER I allow him to be the one who stops the tears and brings a smile back to my face and he has yet to fail me… He is my knight in shining armor! Always there to help ease the pain. I love him every bit as much as Larry and he deserves a mom that smiles and laughs with him and “lives” with him… He deserves the same mom that Larry had. Tammy<333 |
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Alison 
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
Tammy<333, I am so glad to read of this knight in your life. I have read your web page and wondered how your son is doing. He sounds like a great joy in your life and your husband's life. Tell him from me that brothers may die but they live forever inside us. He will tell stories of his brother to his children some day - and those stories will keep Larry alive. I bet Larry was very proud of him too. Thank you for sharing this poem - I have kind of been looking for it. With love, Alison |
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Larrysmom Senior Member
since 2008-04-03
Posts 533Florida, USA |
Dear Alison, Thank you from the bottom of my heart my dear friend… I was so hoping that someone was waiting for this one. Darrin is every bit my heart and soul, the exact other half. I love him every single bit as much as I love Larry and I try very hard to give him the same mom Larry had, he deserves a mom who smiles, laughs, plays, and enjoys life with him… He deserves to know that he is my world and I love and need him. I know beyond all and everything that Larry truly, absolutely, and UNconditionally loves his little brother and yes, he is so very proud of him. Always has been. You wouldn’t think they would be so close with almost ten years between them, but I can honestly say they were so darn close it was unreal… Darrin was devastated the day Larry died and he still misses him terribly. He still talks to him every single night after bedtime prayers. The words on Larry’s headstone, “It will NEVER be the same without you.” are Darrin’s words and he repeats them all the time… “I love you Bubba and it will NEVER be the same without you. Not ever.” If I were to wrap myself so deeply in my grief that I ended up ignoring and pushing Darrin away, Larry’s spirit would be crushed and he would be so hurt by and with me. He adored his little brother. Tammy<333 |
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Alison
since 2008-01-27
Posts 9318Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy! |
:: smiles as I read the beautiful response :: |
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sewasham Senior Member
since 2006-09-11
Posts 714Oklahoma, USA |
Very beautiful. You always write with such feeling. Take care and Have fun. Steve |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Indeed, you little knight in shining armor is "bigger" than many men. He is the silver lining to your dark cloud. I am feeling so much love for him ~ and I do not even know him. However, after reading this spill from your loving, appreciative heart, I believe I now do. This poem will be something that he will always hold close to his heart, to be sure. I send my love to you and your family, dear poetess. Linda  |
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