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xTr3m3sT
Member

since 2008-03-03

Posts 415

0 posted 2008-03-30 07:38 PM

My body has pain but it is not physical,
Went through a breakdown yesterday, now I am mental,
Impossible to use meaning in coherent terms,
Because infection is spreading, i caught the depression germ.

There is no cure for this sickness,
I am alone, I am the only witness,
Of my Anger and Sadness increasing in power,
Sooner then later I will reach my final hour,

And end up being carried shoulder high,
With my parents underneath me on either side,
Placing me into a portal that I can't escape,
And they place the soil on top of me, sealing my fate.

Alison

Member Rara Avis

since 2008-01-27

Posts 9318
Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy!

1 posted 2008-03-30 10:00 PM

You know, adults sometimes blow off teenage depression assuming that it is a passing phase.  Often it is not.  I implore you to talk to someone.  Show someone you trust this poem (hopefully an adult).  I am not sure that people realize that loss from death is not easy to get over.  When a person thinks that they could have done something -- that is the cruelest thing we can do to anyone, especially people that we love.

Part of me wants to blow your words as poetry - freedom of expression.  The other part of me takes this very seriously.  Talk to someone.  Take your poem to someone.  Get advice.  Work through the problems in your mind.

You are not alone.  You feel like you are maybe - but you are not.  Have the strength to work through these feelings.  Believe me, you will become a stronger adult because you did.

Alison

Roniece Dawson-Bruce
Member Ascendant

since 2000-01-29

Posts 5689
Sydney, Australia

2 posted 2008-03-30 10:26 PM

wise words from Alison my friend...if you have written this about yourself, then I too, implore you to speak with someone that you trust... holding you in my thoughts.. love RDB

Be kind at heart....for everyone you meet has their own battle to fight.........

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

3 posted 2008-03-31 03:03 AM

Listen to Alison, she is giving you very good advise. Don't do something that will hurt others and you can't take back.
Ida

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

4 posted 2008-03-31 09:50 AM

yeah I can relate to this well

I finally had to go on Lexapro and it seems to be helping so much!

hang in there...it does get better

ayearofdust
Junior Member

since 2008-03-31

Posts 11

5 posted 2008-03-31 08:17 PM

It's both wonderful and worrying to see someone write something that echoes what I have sometimes felt. Listen to the advice you get.

xTr3m3sT
Member

since 2008-03-03

Posts 415

6 posted 2008-03-31 11:16 PM

Thank you all for your kind words

I'm setting up an appointment to that doctor guy so I can get some professional help.

Alison

Member Rara Avis

since 2008-01-27

Posts 9318
Lumpy oatmeal makes me crazy!

7 posted 2008-04-02 11:05 PM

I am proud of you for making such a compassionate and adult decison.

A

Seoulair
Senior Member

since 2008-03-27

Posts 807
Seoul S.Korea

8 posted 2008-04-03 01:00 AM

well expressed in poem. and it is good that you are going to see a doctor.

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