As this Tragic Year Ends (rp..somewhat)

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Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

0 posted 2007-12-28 02:31 PM

This was written on her birthday and what I left at her grave..seems appropriate now as we bring a close to '07 (with still no justice)...

Dearest Chelsea,

Baby Girl your presence in this world is missed more than words can express.  We all long to have you and Matt back.  We turn our rage towards the one(s) that took you from us.  We will not rest until they pay.

My memories of you are far too few as she liked to keep you to herself and I was just a Mom after all.  But I remember your sweetness, your innocence.  The time you spent two weeks with us helping us move.  My heart bleeds for the pain this tragedy has caused.  She hurts every day missing you.  But you would be so happy for her.  She is strong and doing well despite the piece of her heart that is missing.

No one that knew you will ever forget you. You are the baby.  The baby of a group of friends so tight that not even death will tear you apart.  Every get together, big or small, you will be remembered.  They will tell funny stories of other times.  They will learn to laugh again with the memories of who you were and how much you are loved.

Happy Birthday Baby Girl.

With all my love,

Your best friends Mom.

Outline

I am traced
Smeared outline of what I use to be, this life has taken a turn I could have never foreseen
My skin tingles with anticipation of touch that never materializes
Transparent, a shadow of intention never quenched
I am lost in a world of invisible need

I miss you
My memory now serves as a taunting reminder
Of what has gone, a haunting detail tangible only in tears
Bleeding the sweet, screaming obscenities for its sacrifice
It shouldn’t have been like this

I believed
In something, that is just beyond my recognition
Knowing once it was identifiable, yet never real
Wanting it enough to think I could make it touchable, painless
It could have been so much more

I ache
For a viable solution, a counter offer to misery
An alternative to this hopeless destiny
A world with the you I love, a world in which no one leaves, lies, pretends or dies.
It would have been everything.

© SCO, 7/07

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

1 posted 2007-12-28 02:41 PM

I hope that eventually they find out who did this so all of her friends and family can have peace in that knowledge that they are caught.

A beautiful tribute to two lives cut short.

M

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

2 posted 2007-12-28 05:31 PM

There are no adequate words to express my condolences for the pain and suffering friends and family of Chelsea and Matt must endure.
May the new year offer solace, as well as justice.

Just another Pete
Member

since 2007-12-06

Posts 74
Scotland

3 posted 2007-12-28 05:37 PM

I have no words, very emotional, very personal to you. I hope you find a peaceful place to look back, smile and remember the people they were.

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

4 posted 2007-12-28 05:42 PM

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

5 posted 2007-12-28 07:10 PM

Susan,

your daughter has taken one of the biggest
steps she will ever take in her lifetime;
and thank God for you, her biggest supporter
of memories.

Thank you, m'dear.

Margherita
Member Seraphic

since 2003-02-08

Posts 22236
Eternity

6 posted 2007-12-28 09:46 PM

(((((Susan)))))

Your hearts bleed in sorrow. May you embrace what is and put your heads on God's shoulders for comfort.

Love and hugs.
Margherita

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

7 posted 2007-12-29 08:27 AM

Thank you.

The AMW clip...
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=19856584

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

1slick_lady
Member Ascendant

since 2000-12-22

Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace

8 posted 2007-12-29 08:07 PM

susan
could you please send the clip to my email i cant seem to get it to run here thanks helen

Marchmadness
Member Rara Avis

since 2007-09-16

Posts 9271
So. El Monte, California

9 posted 2007-12-30 04:34 PM

So very sorry Susan, May 2008 bring you some peace.
Ida

LeeJ
Member Patricius

since 2003-06-19

Posts 13296

10 posted 2007-12-30 05:46 PM

ohhhh Susan, I am so sorry, I didn't know....please know my heartfelt sincerity, you are all in my thoughts and prayers...

Hugs to you and yours....and may peace be with you all....

Love

Lee J.

Magnus

Member Laureate

since 2001-10-10

Posts 14135
South Carolina, USA

11 posted 2007-12-30 09:31 PM

Susan, I hope your new year brings you
some peace....tragedies such as this don't
wash out, so...here is a hug and a prayer
for you...

Ceinwyn
Member Elite

since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

12 posted 2007-12-30 10:38 PM

my heart and prayers go out to all of you. May God bring you all peace and justice this coming year.

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

13 posted 2007-12-31 05:43 AM

I am so sorry for the sadness and pain you and your family and friends are feeling. May the New Year bring you all some relief.

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

14 posted 2007-12-31 07:40 AM

Thank you all...

I hope this year is the year they put away who did this away..

And the detective that keeps in touch with my daughter? Thank you.

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

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