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Smiling
Junior Member

since 2007-05-27

Posts 12
Barbados

0 posted 2007-07-23 10:14 PM

                                                    Undeserving

             Today at class seemed strange to feel

             But there was no mistaking it my remorse was real

             I was buried in my book you seemed oblivious to me

             You did not return my emotional looks
             Was this real? Was this true?

             Were you really disregarding me?

            To ponder this wrenched my heart

            It Crippled my insides it made me uneasy?
           To be painfully honest maybe I read too

           Deeply into you?

           Read too deeply like I always do

           Could this be how much I admire you?

          Admire the way you do the things you do



         It must be the fact that you loved me for two years

         Loved me when I didn’t love myself

        In this way my pain became your pain

        And your strain became my strain

        Strain

        Pain

       Game!? Was it all a game that you spoke no words to me?

       Was it all a game when you smiled with heartbroken sincerity?
       My heart knows that it has no claim to your wondrous affection

       But whenever we kissed , inside your arms felt like perfection

       Now all that’s left is pain and anguish

       Your love for me throughly extinguished



     I concede you are the only one to know me say the words “I love you”

    I concede you are the only girl to know me to say the words “I hate me”

   So this is me crawling, begging with heartbroken clarity

   Asking for forgiveness because I know that meeting you was destiny
  I accept the fact that I can only know you as a friend

I accept that I do not deserve for you to pour your heart out to me whether by voice or by pen

Even though I don’t deserve it I instinctively cling to it knowing there is something amazing about you that lies beneath your cover

Something about you I have yet to discover

So yes , this is me , pleading with you to let our friendship last forever

Smiling

Hyaunt
Member

since 2007-07-12

Posts 74

1 posted 2007-07-24 12:59 PM

nice! Hyaunt

JamesMichael
Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

2 posted 2007-07-24 05:02 PM

A nice flow of emotion...with the acceptance that we have no control over another...we stop thinking of forever and try to enjoy every moment that a friend shares with us...those moments belong to us...James

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