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HersheyKiss
Member

since 2008-06-02

Posts 137
New Jersey

0 posted 2008-08-11 09:03 PM

Behind Closed Doors

When I face my family,
And when I face the world,
I put a smile on my face,
And act like a happy girl.
I dance around the living room,
And laugh like I'm care-free,
I sing along to happy songs,
And am as merry as can be.

But when nobody's looking,
I let that smile fall,
When eyes are turned away,
I become frail and small.
When I'm in my bedroom,
I don't laugh as I dance,
And I don't sing happy songs,
The songs I sing are sad.

When I lock the door at night,
I let my defences fall,
I remove that shield of armour,
And knock down that hard brick wall.
When I turn the lights out,
And lay down on my bed,
I let the tears run,
As these thoughts invade my head.

But when I face the world again,
That armour is back in place,
My wall is in position,
And that smile is on my face.
When the doors are open,
I laugh and smile and sing,
My performance continues on,
Before I return to my bedroom wing.

When I'm back in my bedroom,
I can take my costume off,
I can remove my mask,
And let that smile drop.
I no longer touch that razor,
That's in my bedside drawer,
But I let my tears come spilling out,
When I'm behind closed doors.

eternally_singing
Member

since 2007-12-18

Posts 123
PA, United States

1 posted 2008-08-11 09:39 PM

This was such an amazing write yet utterly sad. I am sorry for all you have gone through.

My prayers are with you.

Assassin_of_Verse
Member

since 2007-10-23

Posts 330
that So Cal

2 posted 2008-08-12 01:50 AM

Wow. When I read through your first two stanzas, I thought it was okay...
But when I hit your third stanza, it just really picked up from there.

The strong emotions are clearly evident in your words. It seems like the first two stanzas fooled me.

Great poem, hope to see more!
-Andrew

There is power in the pen.

Just.Another.Falling.Star
Member

since 2008-05-08

Posts 422
Canada

3 posted 2008-08-12 10:16 AM

this was utterly amazing. the words seemed to pick up a new meaning with the way you worded them...and it just all fit together perfectly. such a sad poem, hope things start to get better for ya soon.

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~*Julianna*~

"You don't know me...but I know you. That's all that matters right now... Mr.Rainey!" - Secret Window

BeyaK
Member

since 2008-08-07

Posts 126
Philippines

4 posted 2008-08-12 02:49 PM

hard to wear a mask to hide what we truly feel at times. but sometimes i feel safer in my room... but leave the razor behind ; )

~~*Kaye B.*~~

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