accepting what cant be changed

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Teen Poetry #8

accepting what cant be changed

Gurl_unknown_11
Junior Member

since 2008-02-10

Posts 17
california

0 posted 2008-06-05 02:50 PM

I always though you leaving us was devastating
Something i wouldnt be able to handle
as the days went flying by
and the years creeped away
I found the void of where you were supposed to be growing
you were supposed to be there but you werent
i couldnt understand why you had left
or why you never came back

i always seemed to find the fault in myself
until i finally realized that it wasnt me
it was you
you didnt care enough about me or about us
to forget about yourself for once
you just wanted to live for you

i had to deal with this for so long
i had to lie to myself just stay alive
but it finally came to a point when i realized there was nothing i could do
i stopped careing and asking why
you didnt care
I had to depend on myself because
no one cared enough
to see that i was hurting
and that i needed you

my life was finally ok without you
i had finally learned to appreciate what i had
and to tollerate what i couldnt change

i knew who i was
and i took pride in what ihad become
i was enjoying life
until you came back into it
you didnt see who i was
you only saw what you wanted me to be
it crushed me
all i wanted
was for you to be there
or to atleast care
but you didnt

i kept trying to make you proud by changing who i was
i had lost myself again
just hoping that you'd being a part of my life
its so hard now
because for so long i wanted you back in my life
but now that you are its not what i expacted

i liked who i was
even if you didnt
but now i realize that
sometimes what you want isnt really what you need

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