She not mine for the rest of time

by Randy Arnold Shine

I was young and selfish
My first reel love
She left me and I thought nothing of it
At first
Then I collided with the reality
So I tried to drink it away
The years came and went
When we saw each other again
Her smile, her brown eyes, her soothing voice made me fill like not a day had gone bye
She dint look at me with her familiar gaze of love
Would she ever take me back?
She had some one
Others came and went like time
But she never considered me
I was there when she needed me
Did every thing to let her now I loved her
Ended relations because of my love for her
A small flame of hope remained
Until the day came
When she received a ring
She looked so in love, just as she did with the others
Hes always gone she barley knows him
His dog tag hangs from her neck by the cross my mother gave her
My family fills betrayed by her
I could fill my world crumbling
I still remained
The mention of his name is the deepest pain
Where do I go now?
Does she know how I fill
Would it change anything
Can she see threw my fake smile
It doesn't matter anymore
Because it will never be
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