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rosepetals25

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since 2000-05-31

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0 posted 2003-01-19 09:08 PM

I stopped in to give another update. I am leaving for Texas on Saturday 7:30pm (est time).  I will be in Houston TX around 1:30pm Jan. 27th.

I got to visit my dad's side of the family this past week.  I spent a week with him and my sister, jumping between the two.  It was good to see everyone again.  I got to spend some time with my nephew, Jake.  He is going to be 2yrs old and he is the most beautiful little boy in the world.

My family on my father's side support me completely.  They think I'm kinda insane for doing this, moving to TX, but they support me.  I wish I could say the same for my family here.

Mom's side of the family consider me pretty much the most rotten and evil person on earth.  They all tell me I'm deserting the family, they thought I was a better person than this, and how disappointed they are in me. They think I should spend the rest of my life living and taking care of my mother.  That would be fine if that is what I want, but I don't. It's hard.  I try to keep telling myself that I deserve this chance to start my own life.  And that I'm not a bad person for wanting this.  I know that is true and they are wrong, but it is still so hard.  I learned so much about my "family" this past year, and it disappoints me.  It's painful to realize that your family never really knew you, or quite possibly loved you.  If they loved me they would know how hard this is for me and how many tears I've shed about leaving my family and home.

I will come back and let you all know how it is going when I'm in Texas.  Hopefully once I'm down there I will be able to lose some of the stress and hopefully start writing again.

that would definately be nice.

Hugs to you all,
Tara

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

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Between the Lines

1 posted 2003-01-20 02:31 PM

You are "right" in doing what you are doing Tara. They are being selfish in keeping you from living your life. And your mom should be happy for you. You need to do this to give yourself a chance.
Hugss if you need them and I wish you the best of luck and love.
Maureen

Nan

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since 1999-05-20

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2 posted 2003-01-21 08:54 AM

Be true to yourself, Tara - You do indeed deserve your own life - Don't feel guilty... Have fun!...

SEA

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with you

3 posted 2003-01-21 08:59 AM

Tara, they are selfish. YOU ARE NOT! It's about time you were happy.They should be happy for you. GO, enjoy your life, and please, don't regret your choice. It's simply your time. Shine on Tara

and do let us know that you got there safe, ok?

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

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Gaia

4 posted 2003-01-21 09:09 PM

Tara, each of us only has one life on this planet (that we know of for sure) and you really should follow your own pathway. The family will get over it. It sounds as if they have love confused with possession. Spread your wings sweet lady, and follow your heart. And even if all things don't go as perfectly as planned, please don't regret your decision to step out of the arms of your family and into the arms of the man you love. I look forward to seeing new posts from you soon.

Have a safe journey.

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