Open Poetry #18 |
The Land of Nod |
serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
it's 3 a.m. and every drop of blood is trite. Here I am haunting my skin and I've forgotten how to write. to explain the "why" of eyes so wide they strain they can't cry-- I can't complain I cannot let me go again... Yep, here I am at 3 a.m. my friends, that I've been donning inkless pen-- afraid to go where I have been afraid to start what has no end... my heart in two to share a piece of me with you? If my weep begins I fear there is no end-- we'll drown in tears... (It's what they say.) I fight to live to fight each day. I watch the sun cast shadows' play. I welcome dark, in shades of gray. I wonder how I got this way. Who cares? I don't. I'm castaway... I want to dance. I want to sing. I want romance. I want the blessings. I want SIN. I want to feel alive again. forgive me, for all that I have yet to be... Oh my mother, be my friend, say that we will laugh again. Woman's moon-- springtime shall be coming soon. Son and Brothers? fiery might-- sun shine on me to smite this night. I forgot. How to cut through all my knots. I forgot to dip my pen in open vein of blood's amend. I neglected salt of grieve-- I left, and yet, I did not leave. I forgot to be myself-- I chose, self-mockery... I was and I remain afraid that should I cry-- the way be made for all the torrents of my love, unanswered should deluge a flood; and wash all that is left, away and leave me with nothing to say. without a God. Forsaken-- to the Land of Nod. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I am so strong. (It's what they say.) I fight to live to fight each day. I watch the sun cast shadows' play. I welcome dark, in shades of gray. I wonder how I got this way. Who cares? I don't. I'm castaway... I want to scream. I want to dance. I want to sing. I want romance. I want the blessings. I want SIN. I want to feel alive again. Oh dear father, forgive me, for all that I have yet to be... Oh my mother, be my friend, say that we will laugh again. ========================== Forgive me, poets. I forgot. How to cut through all my knots. I forgot to dip my pen in open vein of blood's amend. I neglected salt of grieve-- I left, and yet, I did not leave. Forgive me. I forgot to be myself-- I chose, self-mockery... I was and I remain afraid that should I cry-- the way be made for all the torrents of my love, unanswered should deluge a flood; and wash all that is left, away and leave me with nothing to say. ================================ baby if THIS is having an "inkless pen" and "nothing to say" then may I PLEASE have your pen. I'm sitting here shaking my head at this amazing purge of rhyme, and soul of serenity (and thinking of the one you posted as I headed for bed) and let me tell ya me twin...there aint nothing wrong with your pen..this is such a powerful, touching write Karen ...the depth of your expression and the pure unadulterated honesty in which you bleed down the page is both impressive as hell and proof of how in touch with your muse you are. I understand what your saying in this baby...all too well...this you know. youre tired baby...but the poetry hasnt left you. I'll hush now... SEE how your words effect!!!! love you me twin ...see this thru my eyes ... what was that you said to me last week? "time to love yourself" good advice baby...now look in the mirror We wish ourselves beautiful ... we cry in the night. It's not the love you feared ... but the fall from the height. E.M. [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (01-22-2002 08:14 AM).] |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssssss) Oh Karen, this is sooooooo heartwrenching, my heart goes out to you and the angst you feel in your words! (sigh) The poetry has never left you, sweet friend, its beauty always shines in your heart just as it shines right here! Always love and believe in yourself, and you will bring so much hope and joy to yourself and others! (kiss on cheek) My heart goes out to you, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Karen, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Oh my, I am almost speechless. So much to read in awe here. "I want to scream. I want to dance. I want to sing. I want romance. I want the blessings. I want SIN. I want to feel alive again" Oh boy, me too!!! How do you feel alive again? Any ideas? The last stanza, too, was special to me. Hang in there, I will if you will. Huggs Sandra |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
*forgot to put in me library* |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Serenity, I felt all that JM said and more. An excellent piece of work. *L* |
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EagleScorpion Senior Member
since 2000-03-08
Posts 1644Here, Now, Forever |
Wow. I'm just...speechless |
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Logan Senior Member
since 2001-05-28
Posts 1641Arkansas |
And out of the land of Nod, you stride with head high still in your strength..Ahh, Serenity, you can make the angels weep with your words..You give much..save for yourself as well...very gentle smile |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Karen, I echo Logan's thoughts. This is an exceptionately powerful write. WOW! Left me sitting here just staring at the screen! Incredible feelings revealed with this one. Fantastic! ~Hugs, Nancy~ ~Time has cast a spell on you, |
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emily Member
since 2000-10-03
Posts 142USA |
Powerful and intense. This came from another realm. Emily |
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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
Powerful writing, Sweet Lady. Wasn't it you who told me to always remember someone somewhere was feeling how sad I am when I am? Something like that I suppose..remember I'm here! |
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Vacuity Junior Member
since 2002-01-22
Posts 12 |
i find it humorous that know matter how many people feel the same way, you still are left feeling alone-or at least i am... |
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Tim Senior Member
since 1999-06-08
Posts 1794 |
taking lessons here. an excellent penning my poetic friend. take care. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
I wanted to say thank you. This one still smarts, tho...but it's enough to know, that I'm understood. I don't feel so alone now. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Serenity-- Thank you for this poem from the inside out of you...it is deep and powerful and full of your strength and beauty. |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
S T U N N I N G very powerful....very well written... sweet dreams~ Lauren~ Tomorrow's another day and I'm thirsty any way so bring on the rain [This message has been edited by Greeneyes (01-23-2002 08:23 PM).] |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia |
Hello Karen How very moving and heartfelt were your words. I often wonder about you and hope that you are okay. Take care....Sue Suetang |
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