Open Poetry #38 |
- Gravedigger - |
Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
For my Grandma, Phyllis Long... Gravedigger No, I can't leave the past well enough alone remembering how you made me feel alive not so long ago. But, you're dead now so why should I care there's no point in moving on to breathe the potential of things I could have been. Nothing could have prepared me for the agony of losing you. I swear that I was the one who died that day and memories still wound the dirt you rot beneath; I force myself there clawing my way through the maggots, decay too stubborn to see you have peace now selfish I, slice my skin the torture. The copycat sky competed as I watched the gravediggers through storm eyes lowering you into the ground s l o w as if to tempt me to reach out and save you. Defiant I, held the makeshift shovel ready to dig you back up Holden Caulfield me unable to accept what is. Diabetes and cancer best beware there are no words of apology, redemption they'd feel this hate in me surrender helpless to my wrath. This pain so raw, so fierce I'd cut their hearts out like a bruised piece of apple. God dare not stop me forgiveness is never. Look what I've become a stranger in this flesh knowing that you cannot look down with pride. I used to be your sweet little girl I used to be the overachiever, strong but I am broken, I have given up suffocation I, am the depths of this emotional vomit. You'll be 'happy' again they claim but, that word is a profanity now. She's an angel they say smiles arrogant, careless comfort disrespectful to think that life goes on. Though this self-inflicted hell digs her up over and over again and she's rolling around in the grave of my mind. Melissa Long-Monette Intellectually I know that Canada is no better than any other country. Emotionally I KNOW that Canada is the best country in the world! |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Powerful, emotional words Melissa...the death of one we hold in such high regard is a most bitter thing. |
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scyzoryk_o4 Junior Member
since 2006-05-23
Posts 36Canada and Poland |
Well this is the second of your poems I’ve read and I have to admit you are great. It seems to me as if through poetry you express your anger which makes your poems powerful. Hope to read more of your poems in the future. Maksym |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
wow |
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Goldenrose Member Elite
since 2003-05-30
Posts 3665 |
The sheer pain wracked emotion in this seeps from the screen and tears roll from the words...a great and brutally honest poem...of respect..of loss..of love...thank you for bearing your soul.. Goldenrose. ''As the deer pants for steams of water, so my soul pants for you O God'' |
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playing.with.crayons Member
since 2006-01-02
Posts 362Neverland |
"You'll be 'happy' again they claim but, that word is a profanity now." Oh, what a write. I recently lost both my grandparents within 2 months of each other, and a lot of people say they are happy now, together again. Not that I am comparing - to each their own pain of loss - and I certainly felt the loss in this. Such a wonderfullly written piece. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Oh my. A 'Phoebe' spirit, you are. I am feeling your loss, through these words. When I first joined Pips, I remember reading you, and hoping that someday...I might write something with grace, style AND emotional fervor..the way this lady Honeybee writes. You never disappoint this reader. |
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lost4dm New Member
since 2006-05-28
Posts 6Louisiana, USA |
Oh, how I felt your pain when I read this. I won't forget this one. |
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Honeybunch Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-29
Posts 7115South Africa |
Having just written about grief I can well relate to your poem but find I'm somewhat speechless. Will a "Wow!" be enough? No? Okay - here's another - "Wow!". |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
indeed powerful Melissa, I know the heartache well.... And so it those we live with |
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