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Larry C

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0 posted 2005-07-30 08:23 PM

Night Knowledge
By Larry Chadwick

I had no idea
that I slept in the comfort
of knowing you were there.

And then you were…
gone.
I attempted to sleep
as I always had.
Instead I laid awake
for fear that in sleeping
I would lose you.

Eventually, I came to understand
that no one can take
what we already had shared.
A weak compensation
for losing you.

So now I can sleep
though occasionally I awake…
too soon.
Last night it was to hear
the song from your funeral.

I slept again because…
now I have confidence
in the memory of you.
Compensation enough…
I am sure it would be okay with you.
July 30, 2005

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Midnitesun

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Gaia

1 posted 2005-07-30 08:32 PM

and within your heart, she will always be sleeping peacefully nearby

Martie

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2 posted 2005-07-30 08:33 PM

Larry

You have given me something to think about here...something I never thought of. Now I have night knowledge too!! Thank you.

scorpio
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since 2002-10-02

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right...there

3 posted 2005-07-30 09:03 PM

"Confidence in the memory of you"...heartfelt and profound Larry.

believe in what your heart feels...

Enchantress
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since 2001-08-14

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Canada eh.

4 posted 2005-07-30 09:56 PM

"I slept again because…
now I have confidence
in the memory of you.
Compensation enough…"

Yes...understanding this Larry.
Hugs~Nancy Lee

Something tugs at me, I've no doubt of that.
Something from the sea, whichever one I'm near.
When I stray too far from beachland, it calls me back

SmartChick
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since 2001-09-23

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On A Journey To The Unknown

5 posted 2005-07-31 10:41 AM

You'll always have her in your heart, Larry.

SEA

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since 2000-01-18

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with you

6 posted 2005-07-31 12:24 PM

you make the tears damn near burst from my eyes sometimes...just the way you say it....

goes right to my heart...

GG
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since 2002-12-03

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Lost in thought

7 posted 2005-08-01 06:15 AM

It's a hard thing to learn how to do. And one that, for me at least, has to be learned and relearned over and over again. It's always so awesome to see how your love for her seeps through every word you write.

Love ya, sir.

Take care.
Always, Alyssa

He was a man of sorrows
...I am a girl of tears.

garysgirl

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since 2002-09-29

Posts 19237
Florida, USA

8 posted 2005-08-01 07:03 AM

Larry, this really touched my heart.
Thank you for sharing your's with us.
Hugs,
Ethel

By the way, that sure is a cute little boy
in the picture.

LeeJ
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Posts 13296

9 posted 2005-08-01 07:15 AM

this seemed like a very long movie, to which the ending was left of in the air for awhile, but finally came to terms as one of happiness and peace...putting the title to rest

Enjoyed this

Larry C

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10 posted 2005-08-02 12:59 PM

Kacy,
Thanks. Comforting thought.

Martie,
There's always a surplus for us, it seems.

scorpio,
Thanks very much.

Nancy Lee,
Thank you dear lady.

Sue,
You are so right. Thanks.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Larry C

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11 posted 2005-08-02 01:01 AM

Susan,
I'm not sure how that happens but please don't be offended if I take satisfaction in that.

Dearest Alyssa,
Not sure how you always do that. But you sure make me feel good.

Ethel,
Well now, I like that. And thanks for the compliment.

LeeJ,
Hmmm, I have to think about that one. Thank you for challenging my mind.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22

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12 posted 2005-08-02 09:29 AM

Our most gutwrenching pain ends up being some of our greatest teachers...
although I wish it didnt have to be at such great cost...you have come to possess many a wisdom ... there is a gentle peace found in these moments of discovery and it brings a smile to my heart to read the understanding and acceptance youve found in this. The healing comes in the gifts given from "love's lingerings" and the "traces left behind" ..
but then you already know that.

one drop, an ocean ... one seed, the forest ... one leaf, the wind ...
~ take only memories ... leave only footprints ~

Greeneyes

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In Your Poetic Mind

13 posted 2005-08-02 11:38 AM

this is how love and hope help in healing...
I am sure your memories are big and full....heart hugs....luv you

In your light I learn how to love
In your beauty how to make poems
You dance inside my chest where
no one sees you and that sight becomes this art

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

14 posted 2005-08-03 05:00 AM

Larry,
that is exactly how it works...having lost my Dad and my sister in so few years...the first devastated me, the second allowed me to be freer to remember the good though still missing the reality of touch...

Always enjoy the growth in your words~~

M

MGROVES

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california

15 posted 2005-08-03 05:45 AM

brought tears to my eyes

Gentle Spirit
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16 posted 2005-08-03 11:15 AM

sniffling here...

beautiful writing my friend.

nn
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Posts 75

17 posted 2005-08-04 08:05 AM

a nice poem made of a hard feeling

Larry C

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18 posted 2005-08-04 09:26 PM

JM,
Now dear lady nobody knows more than you. And thank you, it is so true. So, time to share more of your wisdom, right?

Lauren,
Thank you dear friend. Heart hugs to you too.

M,
Seems we are growing together. I do understand. Thank you sweet woman.

MGROVES,
How kind of you to acknowledge. Thank you.

GS,
Hugs to you. And thank you kind friend.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Larry C

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Posts 10286
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19 posted 2005-08-04 09:27 PM

nn,
How kind of you to respond to my simple offering. Hope you find time to write and respond more often. It is nice to meet you after all this time.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

suthern

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since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

20 posted 2005-08-09 12:38 PM

Indeed, it would be... she'd want you to sleep peacefully and be comforted by memories... not agonized...

What a beautiful tribute to love everlasting.

Startime55
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since 2003-04-05

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Alberta, Canada

21 posted 2005-08-09 07:15 PM

Your words bring tears from the heart as I feel them touch me....*big big hugs* dear man....

Cloud 9
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Ca

22 posted 2005-08-09 07:46 PM

How did I miss this one...

This is beautiful.
Big hugs to you.

Paul Wilson

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23 posted 2005-08-09 09:24 PM

Larry...So very touching.
No one really knows the true feeling of losing someone until it's too late, then they realize they haven't really lost them at all, they are just apart for a little while. Take care dear friend and know that forever she is in your heart...Paul

~~To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you~~
Paul

catalinamoon

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The Shores of Alone

24 posted 2005-08-09 09:44 PM

Larry, I hear you. This is beatifully expressed. but I'm sorry you hold this sadness always.
Sandra

Larry C

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25 posted 2005-08-10 10:56 AM

Ruth,
You are so right, as usual. And thank you for being such a good friend.

Karen,
I'll take the large hugs any time. And thank you. It is so nice to see you here.

Cloud 9,
Thank you and it is nice to meet you. I must find some of your writing.

Paul,
So true...one day. It cannot be soon enough. And thank you kind sir for your understanding.

Sandra,
I haven't seen you in forever! I hope all is well and thank you very much.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Larry C

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26 posted 2005-09-14 09:26 PM

Oh crap, there was another page!

Dr.Moose1
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27 posted 2005-09-15 07:38 PM

Larry,
A heart-felt concept expressed eloquently.
Doc

miscellanea
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OH

28 posted 2005-09-15 09:13 PM

Larry,

Wordless here... (Well, 'practically' wordless!) I know these feelings... Very well expressed.

miscellanea

BluesSerenade
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By the Seaside

29 posted 2005-09-16 01:33 AM

I slept again because…
now I have confidence
in the memory of you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

No doubt your peace is what she would wish for you as you wish for her.

It's a given, need you either ask or question!

Thank you for sharing your heart and her memory, Larry~

Larry C

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30 posted 2005-09-16 09:46 AM

Doc,
Generous words indeed, thank you.

miscie,
You, wordless? Wow, well almost. And thanks a ton.

Lori,
Thank you dear friend. And I know you're right.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

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